Desire

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Desire is the Vampire

Desire without satisfaction is obsessive addiction to a delusion.

It causes confusion, desperation. The solution is to detach, let go and move on.

Teetering at the edge of a cliff, one feels a seductive suck of gravity reaching up, arching over, tempting us to become one with the fall. 

This is the zone of desire. You’re not going to fly, you’re going to fall. You were trying to balance for too long trusting in something which wasn’t actually there. 

So turn around, have instead some self-care. 

This is the lesson of desire. To put yourself first instead of holding onto a void absorbed from beyond. Mistaking the unfulfilled promise of it for a self made whole, if only it came true. 

Once having recognised it for what it is, continuing to expect it to complete us is delusional. The expectancy cannot complete us. Unfulfilled desire can never complete us. Completion happens by accepting, integrating that which is within. 

When we do this, we take away the succubi power as we take our own power back. Unplugging from the vortex which desire is syphoning our energy through. 

This is Desire. It is not Love. 

Love is when we let go and continue to love regardless, even while knowing they have leeched us. Desire is a lever of manipulation to control. Only when it is satisfied is it a truth to be trusted. 

Life is short and precious. 

Fulfilment makes heroes of us all. It empowers us to level up beyond the craggy place of rubble emotions and falling from any hope of stability. The crags are treacherous ground. 

Fulfilment puts wholesome, strong ground beneath our feet. Safe structure to build from. We feel complete. 

The path to that place is honesty. No leaping off ledges to enjoy fleeting moments of freedom before breaking in the gutter moods. It takes a skill set we develop of final frustration having been down too long. The determination to rise. 

Honesty says we go through rocky patches in our friendships because we need a break to find a better balance. We are tripping ourselves up by an uneven ground which keeps falling away from us. Sometimes others help us to our feet and sometimes they drag us down to the level of their instability. 

We need to learn to dance by ourselves before we learn to fly. We need ground solid beneath our feet, grounding we can trust and moves we know we can make having learned them the hard way. That is perhaps why all the falling. To gain body-consciousness except here the body is metaphor for emotions, for thoughts, for soul evolving.