Interrim

For over a decade I asked, handing my authority away to them, for them to consider my perspective, which they never did. 

I finally to use a phrase ‘manned up’, went to see them and stated my solicitor believes I have a strong case for their libel on the premise there is no evidence to support their allegation. 

Over a decade of being fobbed off, I was finally taken seriously. 

Within two weeks, the time it takes for phone calls to be made and decisions to be made, I was invited at 10 o’clock in the morning on the 1st of January 2019 to the senior head of the County department for a meeting. The highest authority in the matter I have met so far. His words, and I quote;

“You’re not schizophrenic. I can see that right away. I work with those people every day and you are nothing like them. I have read your paperwork and I do suggest it is possible that you are high functioning autism.” 

To which I replied, in a great sense of relief; “I agree with you, it is possible that I am on the autistic spectrum.” 

Ed explained there is an 18 month waiting list for assessment. Shortly afterward in  March of 2019 we went into global lockdown because of coronavirus outbreak. By autumn of 2021 I was told the autism assessment were currently processing the applications from 2018, there is literally a five year waiting list to be assessed.

The assessment criteria questions are easily available on the Internet. I did the assessment. There are 25 questions. The first question, do you have a problem with communication. 

My immediate response is recognition that it is too broad-based a question to give a clear answer for therefore these questions will give inaccurate diagnostic.

I would at this point request the reader to assess whether I have been able in this manuscript to explain where I’m coming from sufficiently. Ergo, I am highly successful at communicating.

I would at this point request the reader to assess whether it having taken me over 10 years for the state departments to listen to my point of view regarding my case and to take it seriously, reveals that I do in fact have quite a large problem with communication. In which case, the answer is the absolute opposite; I am useless at communicating. 

There is evidence for both things. 

How can they both simultaneously be true?

The diagnostic criteria is black-and-white yes or no. I have failed to be able to fill this form in because it does not make sense to me.

I do not understand this form. That is my answer.

On this basis, any interviewer is going to tick the box for yes, this person does have a problem in communicating. Although, for the record, I have given a detailed reply and have clearly communicated the whole picture better than were I to robotically answer in black-and-white.

At this stage I identified, this is a questionnaire for robots and I am not a robot.

Does that make me autistic?

Autistic is when it is either yes or no. Autistic is sometimes yes and sometimes no. This is why everybody is on the autistic spectrum. Autistic is a grey area we cannot be precise about.

The difference between low functioning-autism and high-functioning autism is that a high-functioning autism person is able to express themselves with far more lucidity than an average person. Hello functioning autistic person is in able to express themselves with even an average level of ability.

Does that make sense? In which case, it is a trick question. The answer being sought is outside of the bounds of the question. You have been led to believe you are answering one question when you are indeed answering a different question. It is all within the context of analysing whether a person is autistic although a sticking point occurs wherever trickery is endorsed as methodology. 

The rejection of non-truth, of anything which smells ever so faintly of trickery, is now identified as a factor of what autism is. Anything which feels of bullshit, is rejected. Those who accept the bullshit perception label those who do not as being mentally deviant.

It is an assessment of autism, not an assessment of truth-integrated mental-processing and behaviour. 

What even is autism? Certainly people with low functioning autism are very different to people with high functioning autism. So much that one wonders if they are the same disorder after all. Whether this so-called spectrum of which is spoken in mental health circles, even exists or is accurate in diagnosing people. We have however confirmed that the one is doing the diagnosis endorsed crooked thinking as normalised mainstream.

All this has come as a response to question one, do you have a problem with communicating? 

I have identified my problem is not with communicating. Anyone reading this and following my logic can see that. The problem is with other people interpreting and re-interpreting, the problem is with other people misleading in their communications, the use of deceit. Those other people are full of that. 

My problem with communicating does not come from an internal mechanism having gone awry within my own being. 

My problem with communicating comes entirely from the listener. Specifically, from the listeners use of rigged goalposts and acceptance of their own cognitive bias as being a superior frame of reference than my own integrity. 

That is close to a definition of prejudice.

Those specific seats of office, positions of social responsibility, that level of authority, generally attracts the type of people who are operating from their own cognitive bias. The case studies are written by them. The literature based upon those case studies is written by them. They do not recognise their own minority group way of thinking for what it is. Yet, they dictate to the masses on what sanity is. 

At this point, I again asked for evidence of my own mental difference to the majority way of thinking. 

Most of us if I asked would prefer somebody who can think straight than somebody who is identified as having cognitive bias to do the decision-making.

Am I making any sense to you?