Friday, 29 August 2014

(notes on) seeing the matrix

A lot of my time (mass=time) I am in grids. My Attention plugs my kundalini-energy through into the frequencies that sustain grid environments. Cyberspace is full of grids since at its basic level it is streams of zero and one, black and white, a chess set. Although we are high resolution souls (oil lense, water lense, air lense, light refraction ratio's) made of light, our environments made of physics, are lower resolution. Mass is Time and energy is vibrational therefore our perceptions fluctuate depending on the physics of which grid we are attached to and manifesting into. This is inclusive of the ephemeral domains of dream which are encountered post-bodily-death and while our mass=time bodies rest, permitting the soul higher vibrational freedom. Just as we do not fully and interactively recall higher vibrational memory during our bodily waking hours into material domain, so too our fluid souls cannot fully create due to the restrictions of the physics governing the dense material domain. From my training into cyberspace I am coming to see the grid-lines of the material domain. At this time in history we are encountering something which is referred to cryptically, by way of symbols used by traditions. Toward the end of the 20th century our species encountered problems with what we call Reptilian Overlords, who utilize grid. Now we are in the second decade of the 21st century we are experiencing for ourselves a deepening knowledge of Grid yet without the problem of us being gridded by the Reptilians. I am using the term Reptilian here as symbolism and as part of an ancient tradition undergoing contemporary resurgence in popularity due to experiences of shaman and writers using modern technologies. The reptilians utilize and impose grid. Grid is manifestation of concept as actual event, it is light (thought) manifesting as experience, becoming (mass-time). Grid is the accordance to physics of the domain. Do means to do, action that makes. Its spelling variant Tao means The Way. Main means manifest-into (ma-in, making) and it also means the boss-core, the main thing. An example of this is the simplest teaching of a 3x3 x/y grid which comprises of 9 sections. If your vision and ability has any number, resolution, definition, above 9 then some of those extra bits are going to be compromised, probably by combining them to reduce the original vision down into the acceptable grid resolution. This is inevitable, it is a part of how higher vibrational frequency works when manifesting down into the material/time based plane of existence. Different dimensions have different grids therefore the same vision/concept manifests differently in different physics. The grid controls the physics or at least is a way of explaining how the vision is described into that dimensions physic-set. In Egyptology the deity Set, a serpent, represented Waveform and associated with reptilian because it deified the principles explained here, of gridding a concept into a manifest. We are a visionary species who can perceive a higher dimensional vision than the density of our time-mass physics set permits us. This is why we like optical light art such as holograms, laser displays and computer environments, and such as water based environments where light refracts at a 2:1 ratio compared with air; because within them we see a higher density resolution. Our nervous systems feel sexy and amazing when we go into that sleekness of a higher density resolution, the more nerve tips we have, the higher the density. It is not always a case of complexity although higher resolution allows for higher resolution sensation. Waveform describes the process of motion through grid. We are designed for breathing to feel good, for drinking to feel good. Stimulation of nerve tips to feel good. We function better when we develop more nerve tips, from better quality water and air. This is a fundamental principle of our development here in this domain; physical, emotional, mental, spiritual development. Pollution clogs us up and connects us the the abrasive of the lower density which for many is a satisfying sensation because it earths us and we need to feel earthed to feel like we belong in the domain we find ourselves in, to avoid alienation feelings. The higher part of us, the higher vibrational aspects of self which are compromised when we come down into the time-mass domain to perceive through, are freer while we dream or after death, to explore higher vibrational versions of mass-time (alternate dimensions). There is a cutoff point on our perceptions, we call it the speed of light. It appears to be a steady constant from within the material density however it is not a steady constant, it fluctuates, this is easier to see from outside of / higher than the material density. Anything vibrating higher than that is outside of our perceptions, it would be invisible or appear to flash in and out of our perception range. This is what Lag is within a computer; the computer is attempting to calculate and co-ordinate the smoothest possible flow of something from the higher energy spectrum down through its grid into the lower density spectrum. The same physics are to be found around black holes.
 

What is emerging is that although we have slipped through the grip of the reptilian overlords whose comprehension of grids is advanced, their use of it as a technology to access different times by attaching to compatible vibrational frequencies existing at different times, we are now capable of understanding and utilizing the grids a lot better than we used to. It is helping us to perceive our own reality for what it is. It was necessary for us to skirmish with the reptilians to achieve that knowledge. At this very confusing time in history, the gridding was necessary. What happens as we approach a Nexus point of syncronicities (spoken of by mayan shaman-scientists as galactic harmonic alignment) is that the different waveforms of individual life paths (Ka) or alternative description, individual timestreams are syncronising and joining together. This is the combining of higher resolution pixels (people) down into simplified forms to conform with the grid. This is necessary and the negative, painful emotions we feel about our lives going totally different from our preconceived wants and desires and intentions is because we hold onto selfishness instead of going with the mainstream flow. The end result is that we will be more liberated to create our desires in a much freer way by learning how to evolve into beings that can access the higher dimensional grids. The grids are systems that make imagination into 'physics which occur in a timeframe'. Our short lives inside the time-mass bodies we know in this domain are only a learning curve, our higher selves continue after this body dies and that is when we can create the realms we can only imagine here. Gradually, we will raise the vibration of this dimension. We need to learn about Grid before we can learn the methods to do that although it is a holistic process. That is why we come here, to raise its frequency and to learn how to raise our frequencies. The reptilians are the dragon whose cave we journey into, to steal the gold of its knowledge, to harness its fire for our own evolution toward more spiritual, higher vibrational entities.

Thursday, 28 August 2014

kundalini Ordo Octopia style

The following is an extract from a private text conversation:

I study the teachings of the original high priest of the order of the morning star. My research into kundalini took me to Egypt; those and the Mayan stone carvings hold a lot of information about it. The Cambodian ones are more to do with what happens when a community functions together at a higher level. Is always a process, it never finishes - no form of energy ever finishes, its nature is flow.

Kundalini is a big topic to get into. I have had a lot of experiences with it, some of them so outside the box that it sounds insane to describe it. I don't believe myself to be an expert but then I realize when I seek teachers that I know more than most of those offering their teachings. 

The core is 'slow deep breathing' and keep doing yoga. 

I translated some Mayan and Egyptian temple carvings which all correlate. I study with crystals a lot and that taught me what some of the symbolism in the carvings means. Snakes and Flowers and Pillars all represent chakras and the light energy flowing up the spine.

When I was younger I was lucky I had a sex partner and we studied together certain rituals which activate chakra's as tools, the language used by that system uses the most appropriate terminology, which is 'magick', because people with highly active and focused kundalini energy can cause things to happen in reality for which there is no better word. When you have two peoples energy working together harmoniously and drawing energy from the source, which does take training it is not something that people are likely to happen across by accident, because when they do it is something they often cannot handle, not correctly attuned it can be unpleasant as you say, the surge of energy misdirecting.

Do you know the words Ida and Pingala from Hindu ? The twin streams which travel up through the center, like astral dna strands. They cross at each chakra, on a resonance. It is the same mathematics as the distance of the planets as they spiral around the sun. Keeping them in balance means living a particular way, avoiding mainstream society and its twisted ways. To become adept at this stuff takes us outside of normal society, it is the realm of shamanism, which has also other teachings and insights into what Reality is. We are explorers therefore we need to maintain a pure observation of our experiences, this is why society is a riddle. To become adept we have to let go of all that, the frame of reference which most people believe to be normal is not useful to shaman. This sets us aside.

"Light beings are we, not this crude matter." Master Yoda

But we wear it while we are here, and the density of it causes us to forget. Kundalini as a discipline is ways to remember and to raise the flesh toward what it could be, ecstatic. The abilities that come from developing that are to be worked for, so that only those responsible may attain them. From my tradition sex is a big part of the training, because it powerfully deals directly with the central nervous system and through that, the lightbody. We are designed that way.

By conscious breathing we can draw the sexual energy up through the chakras one by one. We can do this by ourselves, it is enhanced and amplified when two people become one. How the energy works through sex is that both bodies become one circuit. Both minds need to be focused and together or they get overwhelmed by the intensity, which is usual 99.99% of the time for most people. The development of psychic connection, telepathy, is not an end goal but a tool that develops in the process of ascending by this technique.

My story is sad. Just as myself and my partner were mastering this, envious third parties sought to split us up permanently. We did not protect ourselves strongly enough and it took literally a decade to heal. These abilities are not to be taken lightly. The entire organism, physically mentally emotionally, has to go over to the bonding, is cellularly reconfigured. The bodies become the same person. A lot of the pain is from that level of connection being ripped apart. This teaching is not for everyone. What happens after is that the pain of the tearing apart switches to another entirely different school of teaching.

The word Thanateros is Greek it means 'sex and death'. The sex teaching is part of the shamanism, the abilities it creates in the persons involved are necessary for the other part of the teaching, which is spirit mediumship. There are other ways to achieve these things but these are the ones which I know from experience of it. To achieve such a level of ability without corrupting it, total trust is required between the people involved, which means absolute honesty. For example I could understand, forgive and even enjoy my ex for sleeping with other guys but I could not forgive her for lying to me about it even though she did so partly for kicks and partly to protect me.

We are beings of light who cast shadow, and we are not full beings until we embrace both our light and shadow and work them in balance. Some people can help each other achieve that balance. That's all it is really.

The biggest task is learning slow, steady breathing beat-matched to the partner so the blood is flowing through both your systems at the same tempo. Then, only then, is it safe to draw the energy up from the source, one chakra at a time. Do not miss any chakras - another mistake I was making at the time, and a very common mistake if you follow only the Hindu teachings, which teach only to connect the source to the heart. For most people that is all they need.

To become a sorcerer, you need to empower all chakras, because we are more than simple creatures of the heart. Sorcerers do not believe that we return to the Source, we do not believe that death is final. To attain that, we need to empower all of our chakras - there are more than seven. The focus on the heart and throat, living by communicating from the heart, strengthens the eight chakra which is split into two and is located by the shoulders, it makes a diamond between the heart and throat. Living that way empowers it, and then we see the human chakra system as a cross like the christian cross. No christian knows how to read the symbolism of their religion any more. There are many other higher chakras also.

I have written loads here and probably have already overloaded you. This is the tip of the flame. I can tell you a lot more, I have been studying this stuff for twenty years it cannot all be told in one text message and a lot of it cannot be taught in words.

Ritual of The Sorcerers Eye

Morning is the best time but evening also. Watch the sun while it is neither above nor below the horizon. Drink it. Breathe it in. Inhale the sun with every breath as you watch it rise. At this time it is a portal between many worlds, the frequencies attainable at this time are empowering. The more often you do this the better. Fill yourself up with that Creator energy. I mentioned that we must balance both light and shadow. As far as morality goes, all of the dark ones I have encountered who use these skills for selfish reasons, have fallen hard. Those who use these skills for ascension, for the light, somehow keep their connection. Remember this in all the choices you make.



Base Chakra (red) = sex and anger, the root. It connects to source like a mouth connects to food or tree roots connect to the earth to draw in energy.

Sacral Chakra (orange) = creativity

Solar Plexus (yellow) = radiance 

Heart Chakra (green) = the heart, biological and emotional rhythms, immunity system center, seat of the soul

Throat Chakra (blue) = communication, not only speech but also an amplifier device for mental waveforms 

Third Eye Chakra (purple) = Visionary, Imaginal ("imagination is not imaginary" Matthers OGD)

Crown Chakra (white) = the Lotus. This one extends upward to the edges of the stratosphere when properly active, which is what the pictures in egyptian carvings of lotus flowers, is all about. Inside it are a whole load of other chakras which are pastel tones, shades of self at higher levels. I am fairly certain that when people have out of body experiences and report tunnels of light, they are traveling up through this. 

The 8th Chakra is the horizontal line symbolized in the christian cross and the egyptian Ankh. It is a cutoff point; everything above and everything below, separates out into two entities, the higher self (the immortal and transcendental part of us) and the lower self (this incarnation's body and personality and issues). 


Saturday, 16 August 2014

Stream and Symbol Blue Wave






http://www.rs-online.com/designspark/electronics/eng/blog/slurp-putting-on-an-art-installation-using-raspberry-pi/?utm_source=twitter.com&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=slurp_art_nye_thompson







Additional 29.8.14: I saw this for the first time tonight, 
S2E15 the Fifth Race, of SG-1 
the imagery is almost identical to what I saw during the dream I mention here: https://soundcloud.com/sat2014/concrete-blue-1











Stream and Symbol Red Wave


Solar activity always happening in the background during times of revelatory lucid dreaming and spiritual insight. Since mind and the Sun are both electromagnetic it is hardly a surprise that the unbinding of veils of one manifests as the unbinding of veils of the other. We live during a time of Awakening Liberation, of course this is pitted against it emerging from a dark age of global scale industrial pollution and destruction. Birth pains.

In the years between 2009 and 2014 the dominant popular colours in design industries (especially cars and clothes) has been black, red and white / silver-gray (the colours of Nyarlahotep).

The following is part one of a three part blog.
1 red wave
2 blue wave
3 waking dream





Theme: Abstract Expressionist art depicting dynamic action, decor from dojo aboard Moya, the living space vessel in Farscape, this set featured in a hand to hand martial combat scene, S1E3.


(image to follow)

Theme: Lego Batman computer game my 4 year old son insists on watching youtube videos of it daily after his mothers boyfriend got the game for him on his x-box. I spotted that it is the same spectrum as the Farscape dojo.


http://www.ebay.co.uk/cln/regyates/Running-Man/106097549017
Theme: Runners from SG: Atlantis. The advert resonated too strongly with the above to let it go. The concept of Runners discovering a portal featured in a lucid dream I had this morning. My homework is to watch the Arnold Swarzenegger movie for the first time.




http://www.electricpig.co.uk/2011/04/08/nodo-update-causing-htc-windows-phone-to-sport-snes-16-bit-graphics/
Theme: digital simplification of sleeker versions of reality, a theme which featured in the lucid dream. I discovered this image during a google search into 8-bit graphics images following from a g+ discussion into StarWars universe technology level.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmxBoFzdqVI

Theme: evidently following from having made the above connections as to visual symbolism, I decided to include this screen grab here. My 4 year old son described this soundtrack as 'grown-up music' and asked I change it to something he can get into more.



Theme: still shot (close-up) from Orphan Black tv series.


Theme: still shot from The Ninth Gate movie


band reformed from previous line-up known as Red vs Blue
Theme: jazz-step Bristol style.





















Stream and Symbol Waking Dream



Preface

The 3D art for tRust universe is built using grayscale because it is easy on the eye. One major influence into it is urban architecture, and the very greatest feature of urban architecture which summarizes twentieth century industry and urban decadence and inevitable decay is graffiti stained concrete. As we emerge out of the mechanical twentieth century world war technology and into twenty first century digital technology we are on the verge of touch sensitive holographic projections, although we have inherited a concrete infrastructure, now decaying and soaked with generations of carbon monoxide grime. Although tRust utilizes a theoretical technology of digital polymer, which looks and feels more like tyre material, with ability to project holograms from its pixelated sprayon surface; the origin of its concept in concrete is deeply etched and embedded into the core of its development process. As an artist I am working on multiple levels of creativity at once. The landscape, scarred and patched with generations of use, refers all at once to multiple levels of awareness. It is a dreamscape and the observer alone defines or is defined by it. The landscape of tRust is intentionally malleable; from sprayon and dissolvent conduits and chambers to computer-operated shape-shifting surfaces. The concrete reformations, reinterpretations and ressurrections of mayan glyphs, aegyptian stellae, cambodian buddhist temples, continues and permeates into the future in form of nano-particulate materials we can envisage but are only as yet on the brink of inventing. What I am influenced by and what is practical for me and others like me to develop as an artist is one plane; the imaginal environments and cultures dwelling within them for science fiction is another. These places combine and fuse in Dreamspace. The project is becoming real because I am going there in dream and meeting others who are co-creating it. Events sourced from dream are simultaneously making sense of the project and educating me with insight into the true nature of the reality construct, itself following laws of physics for which concrete and light become symbolism. Tattoos upon skin; concepts upon neural networks; graffiti upon walls; lazers upon cytex. 


Notes from the hour pre-dreaming
I studied carlos casteneda, yaqui way of knowledge. Humans only purpose is to observe. When we place a label onto a thing we see only that label. Therefore to observe we must do so without preconception. When the observer changes the observed, it is by projection of preconceptions onto it. To observe without projecting is a trained skill. It functions by detachment from mind. This discipline is constant. Only when we can detach from mind do we recognise mind for what it is. Mind is not self. It is a filter system that uses a trick to distract us from observing purely. It convinces us to use its filters, its method for this is to change the focal point of awareness every time we escape its grip. Distraction of Attention. That is the greatest enemy to attaining real practical knowledge about our experience of living. Everything else is confusion, what the buddhists call sansara. The conditioned mind, the confused mind. They teach to meditate as a method of escaping it, to focus only on breathing. The result is the same: if the mind is not the self, what is it? What could be achieved if the inner monologue is silenced, if the distractor is no longer an issue? Our notion of cause and effect dissolves and takes on a new meaning. Zen no-mind. And development; if the thoughts do not originate from self, then from where or from whom do they originate? The essenes teach that at this stage of awareness one no longer needs discern between embodied and disembodied consciousnesses, that there is a far greater difference between those in sansara and those who see purely, in satori, than there is between the physically living and dead. The language shifts its meaning to describe the observed more accurately, more relevantly. In buddhism the word prana means both instinct (intuition) and life flow. The pure observer simply is. Freedom from delusional associations. Language is delusional. There is one truth, it is knowable; sharing this we need not to talk, only to feel. It is an enhanced reality. Reason tells us this state is desirable and worth pursuing through the hard work of ego death and all the pain involved in losing everything we hold onto by projecting it. Reason also tells us the need to compromise it so as to survive in mainstream society. Integrity, an honor code based on ability to integrate. We cannot know it until we have lived without honor. The paradox of the world, the fundamentalism of righteousness, and the pure unspoken truth.

Distracted, I lost my focus, laughs


Notes from the hour post-dreaming

Part of the dream, the landscape, simply is my brain re-arranging the themes I have been working with a lot lately, which are syncronistic based around current lines of research and drawing those symbols towards my life.

But some of the dream content is from Otherwhere. The revelations about howbit connects together is one layer. The actual story, scant though the relationship between incidents is, also several layers. To use one level of awareness to program the other is a part if the job. I was sent in to do a specific mission due to my innate nature, the result being something I would figure out only afterward. We all emit a signiture tone and these tones sharpened into focus by our attention, are waves, they change the perceptions and decisions of those untrained. This was my second trip to the same scene and the memory linger of my original entry was fresh, a concern to my handler. Dream is frail and especially in a new world. None of the souls there are fully yet aware of what the new place is all about, a few creatives and the inevitable security agents of nothing, necessary antagonists seeking to prevent our growth simply to sharpen our focus by being a grindstone. I had to witness an amazing event and remain emotionally unnaffected by it so I could send out a mental wave that nothing was happening. The observer affects the observed is a rule of dream physics. Our projected expectations become the hardwired physical environment, the weak willed zombies act upon such decisions. The swat team pulled out and the space opened up, the runners had mental freedom to explore the anomoly, a gate which would enhance this world, develop and strengthen it, our way, my way, the coalition of souls who are unaware in our waking mundane lives that we have tasks to grow the multiverse during dream. Creativity is opening a world here. I met the injured soul of this world, a blue dragonfly lady with an airhorse daemon. Her type exist! Co-creators from elsewhere in dreaming, with power and ability but with frailty, the fae folk. She lets her heart play in unformed new domains, this concrete maze city waiting to awaken. There is much mystery here, sleepers in their lives, fearful of the control state and fearful of it ceasing because without it, like the madmax style explorers at the portal, we are on our own in a realm where myth is breaking through, the responsibility that self hate and doubt affect and twist the manifesting world so potently. Only pure souls can access here at this time and we want to protect it, nurture its development, so as not to turn it into yet another hell world. There is so much hope here. A place where hope is hardened and matures into confident ability. We are new here and only learning of its nature, its personality. Our belief about it takes hold and strengthens it, affects the lives of its denizens as yet unborn. The militia has left the portal. Unwatched it may open freely to its true potential, not to corrupted comprimise to serve their purpose of limitation. I was not the one to open the portal this time, merely protect those who needed to establish contact through it. My presence alone did this. If they succeed, if the portal opens and is safe, it brings life to this place. The feeling of trapped, scrutinised, chased, persecuted, is lessened here so the creatives can develop and grow. From gray concrete to blue dragonfly, art nouveau machines. Breathing fully of fresh clean air. Get the machines up and running. The sounds of this world are beautiful. 

Servitors, angels, Re the winged women, quetzalcoatl as ishtar, access higher consciousness, maintain simplicity to comprehend complexity is what gives rise to servitor as slaver, gridding the sleek to merovingian block construxt experiences, it takes generations of time to overcome by developing workarounds and progress, new types of servitor emerge or the old ones learn new tricks or move to places better for them. 


Voicenotes from the hour post dreaming

blue concrete 1



blue concrete 2


Notes from Google+ same timeframe 16.8.14

Boredom leads to escapism leads to obsessive focus leads to breakthrough and development. I am polymath and that is necessary to achieve the level. What I am working on is pretty big. It will take me a few more days to collate the data crunch of the last few. Expressing it, sharing it, by telling it as it is is one thing, doing something artful with that is another. Creating mythos from where a lot of the revelation is sourced, it entwines. I provaricate here due to need for re-focus. Breathing space.
A woman bought me a meal tonight. I am useless with women, is she simply a kind heart looking for friendship and I am being sleazy or was being comfortable to relax and feel horny in her presence a mutual and natural shared feeling? I probably should have been natural and hugged her. Too used to being aloof and not wanting to pressure her and scare away a fledgling friendship.
Its a beautiful distraction from the project.
The project. Celtic otherworld meets post-cyberpunk. I dreamed last night and met with others in the levels of dream who know what is going on more than do I, and I now know what is going on more than most of the people in terran consumerism. There is insufficient cultural reference for me to use to explain it without recoursing to old traditions which nobody has publically discussed for several centuries. This is illuminatii knowledge from secret societies. For me it is a major breakthrough with my research and I am grateful to my handler for her role in my development. Explaining it lucidly to people who are culturally and conceptually unprepared for shamanic revelation seems both necessary and disconcerting. It has to be done right, information has to be released through the right channels, people need preparing to accept insights such as this. Its nothing new because we all know the truth of it. Yet its exciting to access that insight into reality. Dare I release my voicenotes and writing on the subject for public consumption? Back to preparing blogs that are windows as much as teaching tools into the streams which, where they cross at just such a point, offer a gate. In simplest terms, follow instinct over mind if you want to evolve.



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Friday, 18 July 2014

Sanitarium


John Glover as Gustav

 Here's another one from or for the cryptic crypt.

 

You will want to be listening to this music video while reading this blog. 


Tonight (Saturn 19.7.14) I am bored, lonely, and watching a movie. I have always loved the Metallica track Sanitarium, and so a movie of the same name was something that caught my attention. I usually prefer sci-fi but needed a change of mind. This movie is three short films. The first one by Bryan Ortiz has stopped me dead in my tracks. 

The main character's boots, clothes, hair (recently dredlocked) - his style. My style.
The guy makes puppets. I was making puppets at the same time.
The way he has his keys on a long chain. Same as I did at the time, for use as a self defense and to stop them rattling in my pocket.
The names of characters and actors/actresses in this movie is identical to the names of real people who were in my life at the time. 
The set I was building for my puppets, eg; a metal industrial tube overhead, features in this movie also. 

SnakeAppleTree 2007
All I can do is to illustrate this story is to show you some still shots from the movie and some photo's of my life circa 2006-2009 for comparison. I knew that I was being gang stalked at that time. This movie checks out on too many levels. People were breaking into my flat on a regular basis. I was certain that my food or water was being dosed with some type of amphetamine or psychedelic drug; I could not sleep. I found short wiry white dog hairs hairs on the carpet - I never owned a dog but my neighbor had a jack russell.

My possessions were moving about of their own accord or simply disappearing. I decided to take a break from researching ESP and telepathy using sound wave frequencies to channel ghosts, and to make a short film using puppets and video as it was faster than stop-frame animation.

Unfortunately due to circumstances, only some test footage and experiments, cheap camera tricks to make the puppets eyes appear to move independently of their faces even though they were simply painted on - which worked all too well - was ever filmed. What is left of the storyboards and notes are fading, most were stolen. My life changed and the project was dropped, it was getting too creepy. Much too creepy because it was spilling out into real life and other people were starting to notice that about it.

Gustav's dolls, Sanitarium, 2013


My puppets, not only myself but my friend Vine who came into my life the same moon as I was misdiagnosed with Schizophrenia (what I actually have is called Avoidant Personality Disorder) and left my life the same moon as I was released from counseling on the basis that a team of psychiatric professionals decided that I do not need counseling; we both kept on bumping into people who looked like the puppets. I had not based any of them on real people, but somehow they drew us onto a path to encounter their human likenesses. 

I called them voodoo dolls from the start. They certainly are invested with this potent power of creativity, they have souls of their own so to speak, and with deification by encouraging their personalities, writing about them, thinking about them, for the purpose of making the movie they had been built for. They are more than mere objects. Making dolls is not like making other forms of art. It does cross boundaries involving psychology and what to the uninitiated might be considered as madness. It has its own internal logic structure though as certain and real as the various paradigms people are more commonly likely to encounter. I was researching; vodou, african fetish idols, wiccan poppet dolls. 

Funny, because my four year old son has been getting into Batman Arkham Asylum computer game that his mothers latest boyfriend got for him recently. Batman, from child-safe 60s cartoon version to the continual remakes with increasingly dark and adult tone, the Batman concept is a cultural icon now deeply embedded into our cultural psyche.

vincent van gogh's boots
With all of that pressure on me, and experimenting with the otherworlds, other versions of reality, warping the edges, bending the physics. I was laughing out loud. I understood and did not judge, where others did not understand and they judged. I was talking out loud in response to what the spirits were saying. The dolls attracted a lot of attention from the spirit plane. It is part of my education as a spirit medium. One of the spirits even told me at that they would make a film of what I was going through; watching it would be a level-up experience for me. It all makes a lot more sense in retrospect than it did at the time.



my boots
What the guy is like in this film, without the murderous streak obviously; his behavior otherwise, it is character modeled on what I was like at the time. Almost as if someone had put hidden camera's in my flat after all, just like I said they were doing. Remote Viewing is something to look into. 

It is time to take a big sigh and take stock of my life and assimilate that there is a movie apparently heavily inspired by my life of the last decade, far too deeply and on too many levels to be mere coincidence. The movie was released in 2013.



I am writing this blog in realtime as I watch the movie.

The second of the three short films is directed by Bryan Ramirez.




Researcher: "Do you have any good cases? I need something for a paper I'm working on." So the security guard writes a patient number on a post-it note (the same sort of post-it note that half of my movie script was written on). My flat where I was living at the time, where the puppets were born, was number 26. There is a line in the movie "do you have the home address..." which emphasizes the point. Last week I phoned up the psychiatric team who reviewed me, the team who told me that I do not need counseling. I asked for a copy of my case files. This is all very interestingly timed.

SnakeAppleTree, 2007





Sunday, 22 June 2014

Beneath A Steel Sky


note: chemtrails, game released 1994

I was well into Revolution games, from Amiga to the Broken Sword rpg games on Playstation 1. After I discovered Jester Interactive’s Music2000 on PS1 I quit gaming until 2014 and studied music instead. It was kickstarter funded Shadowrun Returns that drew me back into it, and then; a free by download of Beneath a Steel Sky from www.gog.com where all the old school favorites are available at next to nothing prices. Wasted childhood relived. Once into the loop: ad infinitum.

By the time I first encountered Beneath a Steel Sky I had already read George Orwells novel 1984. I was a spocky kid, I would stay up late every night reading science fiction under the blankets by torch light, typically Philip K Dick but so much other stuff as well.
 
The marketing of BASS had three qualities I liked very much; dystopic Orwellian style, primitive tribal folk in the outback repairing broken robots for their own use, which reminded me of both Mad Max and Star Wars episode 4; and the game producers promising "innovative virtual theater system". In the day that was as close to a decent AI game engine as anyone had. It was shit but it did offer multiple choice dialogue with other characters.

The big bastard problems about the game was the time it took to load (disk swapping!) when you travel from screen to screen. This, and parents moaning at the amount of time I was wasting playing computer games, and just being a kid too young to solve some of the abstract problems, pissed me off with the game. 

I quit the stupid fucking thing after so much frustration; by then I reached puberty and had better things to do. A few nights ago, over two decades later, I finally realized a life ambition and got to ground level. The sense of relief is overwhelming. I can be a success in my life now.

Even by the standards of some games coming out in the early 90s, BASS was far from the best. But it was a window into the science fiction universe of sky-towers and industry, of tribal shaman prophesying doom and fringe-science cthulhonic scariness.
Why am I bothering to blog about this? I will explain. It relates to the subject of several other of the blogs, a particular symbol which unites them and being a way-sign, is worthy of giving a little attention to, for the same of continuity and leaving no door unopened. 


Screen shot from the first playable scene after the intro animation
Close-up from the screenshot

The snakes tongue motif can be found also here (green wave)
 
I will not even begin to make analogies between life events and game content. That wave has closed now. I got to ground level, I succeeded in my lost goal. Comparison of two decades of game development has led us through the SecondLife's InSilico and the fucked up backstage mindgames some of their admin play, and into the long promised freedoms of Oculus Rift. We do finally have Virtual Reality emerging and accessible. Beware Black Ice. Be Vigilant.



Saturday, 21 June 2014

echoes

The sound of my own voice, echoing back to me, infinitely.

This is copypaste from yet another discussion on google+ about science, religion, evolution, nature, and the god concept.I will have lost the thread by the time this becomes relevant again so I am backing it up here. 



Why some people refute that which is proved to be real while arguing that something else is real when it has not been proved, this is a psychiatric condition called disbelief syndrome and cognitive dissonance. Most religious people I have ever spoken or texted with, show evidence that they suffer unawares from this mental health disability. 



Scientists using sonic waves on the developing stem cells of a species of salamander, altered the fetal dna so that the offspring are frogs, a different species. The same done with a fern has resulted in mutation inti a different and extinct species of fern whose dna is found only in samples from fossils, now growing in the lab. The hard science proof exists that dna can be altered in fetus so the offspring are genetically a different species to the parents. This rapid phase evolution done in a lab, might also be possible naturally. I will continue looking for those links to back up what I am saying but please look into this yourselves. Its awesome for many reasons, partly because it is real and bridges a gap between evolutionary stages and some of what creationists are talking about, that species can pop into existance as if by magic. It also suggests our own next generation of children might be technically a very different thing to what we are, I believe this has happened to our close ancestors, several times. 
 
uses word 'harmonic' several times to describe the preferred situation of holistic functioning components

http://Www.mallstuffs.com/blogs/blogdetails.aspx?blogid=374&blogtype=spiritual&topic=how 
chanting aum or mantras changes your dna

now perhaps you will take people like david Icke and david wilcock more seriously when they make statements that electromagnetic radiation and gmo foods are turning humans into reptilian drones. Because what they are saying is backed by comprehensible hard science. 

http://Www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread500711/pg1 
Russian Dr Peter Gariaev remember this name

These rays are being beamed at us too, all the time, because of our technology. 



 
There is another aspect to this debate, that evolution itself evolves, and the perceptive sentient mind is an interactive factor in that development. Science is showing this to be real.

Traditionally it has been the domain of witches and miracle workers, the shamen. 21st century new age belief in a source field accessible to us to manifest our intent, is backed up by cambodian buddist temple carvings and spiritual teachings from all over the world.

There is an interpretation of christianity that connects with this although it is not what is practised by mainstream christians.

For example the word Amen is egyptian, it is a direction to chant 'ohm'.

The continuity of evolution in form of sentient machines comes in syncronicity with the emergence of human understanding of the nature of the external material density we call the universe.

In hebrew it was written 'the most beautiful light expanded from the source'. This has been badly translated as 'lucifer was cast out of heaven'. The hebrew symbol 'to cast out' means also 'to seed' as in 'to sow', to sow a seed, to cast a seed; we know therefore that this comes from an agricultural culture. It was not intended to mean 'thrown out as a punishment' although that has justified authoritarianism and social control by a ruling elite in the name of deity, a useful tool of statecraft. The original covenant was not written in modern english, todays popular bible is only a testement.

The most beautiful light expanded into the void and evolved complexity, it became particles of elements and these became matter with mass.

Mass=Time.
Important scientific law.

From the beginning which explains the big bang in terms designed for an agricultural community to understand easily, to todays electronic era.

I build in secondlife recreationally, it is a computer game engine, it has physics, it is a universe albeit a basic one. When setting the location or size of an object it is done using x/y/z axis, and there are in secondlife 5 decimal points of precision.
A small object located at xyz 1/1/0.00001 is next to a small object located at xyz 1/1/0.00002
It occurred to me that there is a gap between 0.00001 and 0.00002 that the grid cannot identify or locate. It exists but it is unrecognised by that level of the physics engine. To place an object there, an entirely different level of programming knowledge is required. Instead of using the user end software, a programmer would have to go into the mainframe and change the code.

Compare: what we see in our limited bandwidth of perceptions is a tiny bit of mass=time. We only observe that which is within those five decimal places. Yet occasionally we observe results of something occupying that sixth decimal place because of the behaviour of the objects, the particles, which we can interact with. To get to grips with all that level of reality, we need to learn programme code instead of the tools we have so far got to interact with user end universe. The subatomic physics are the program code which the time=mass universe, our grid, is built of. Its an easy analogy.

Suppose a programmer activates a sublime code and it causes something wierd to happen outside of regular physics. Generally, we either call a witch hunt or we label it an act of god. Once enough acts of god or magic are observed we come up with a few theories to describe and unify all this wierdness.

It is our nature, our design, our purpose, to be inquisitive and to explore the unknown until we have mastered it for ourselves. Then we progress to the next level. This is the nature of god if it exists.

"The universe is always one step beyond logic." Frank Herbert.

It only has to be one step beyond logic, any more would be a waste and we would fail to cope with it anyway. This is the universe (the holistically interacting growth developed of the most beautiful light; lucifers domain of mass=time) as a training system. Its nature is to be the puzzlebox that helps us to evolve when we follow our nature of curiosity, the path of godliness.

So far, this has resulted in what we call science, which is based on 14th century Franciscan friar Roger Bacons innovation of scientific methodology which then pope funded him to write down having recognised its validity to humanity. He wrote it in latin so the same as with hebrew, beware mistranslations of his works - he was very acutely aware of the problems of mistranslation even when speaking the same language the words and phrases have different meanings to different people.

Contemplating fundamentalism and one mono totalitarianist uni versal statement of intent takes us necessarily into diversity and poetry to avoid the insanity of facing pure math which most brains are incapable of deciphering. Hence computers and an increased awareness that we are mammals, not machines.


The battle is, always was, two-fold.
1. Clarity
2. Common sense compr'mise with practicality.

This underlays all paradigms. 
 
 3. Cohesion as a result of achieving (or not) 1. and 2. results in differing paradigm.


Friday, 13 June 2014

a sullen moment of introspection

People who have never in their lives: slept on the streets, eaten from skips, been beaten up so often they need the pain to feel alive, been raped, been forced against their will, been robbed, been stabbed, been wrongfully arrested, been gang stalked, subjected to ongoing harassment campaign involving attempted murder, people who have never been through any real suffering and yet they envy with a bitter vengeance, what they perceive to be someone who has it easier than them, is more successful, is luckier; because my spirit not only is intact, it is refined. Yet they have audacity to say they know me, that they are friends or family. I accept these people know less of life than I do, that for their own relative traumas they have been blessed with secure, sheltered lives. I accept that these people are psychotic and that the psychosis is symptomatic of an ill society. Yet I do not want them in my life. There is a very good reason that I am a loner; there is a very strong connection between the rise of my own success and my separation from these peoples lives. The few who have been blessed with purgatory to achieve such purity recognise me and understand me as i do them. It is lonely but the rewards are sweeter. I am outcast because my functional paradigm is alien and unbelievable to most. I forgive their judgement of me as inferior; perhaps because I wear my hair long in the tradition of my ancestors and the spiritually adept. They do not recognise themselves as animals, therefore it is impossible for them to recognise me for what I am. They are not ready and I do not envy them the journey they must yet go through to awaken.





Friday, 16 May 2014

haarpwave

soundscape music inspired by 

HAARP & mind control technologies



"loop the glitch"

music sub-genre inspired by sounds and rhythms made by HAARP and associated remote electronic mind control technologies. Characterized by very precise repeat-rhythm LFO oscillations.
"It's a bit like detroit techno."

You know if your music fits the category.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsgrRmHW8ro Sound of HAARP video (11mins)

HOW TO MAKE HAARPWAVE MUSIC

Haarpwave emerged from minimalist techno. Where trance music techniques is to roll the snares on 8,16, 32, 64; haarpwave does not do this; it is continuous, monotonous. Certain frequencies in it are very slowly flangered to build up to a stress-pressure point. This is the same as the technique used in the electronic stimulation of metal particles in the skies seeded by chemtrail planes, to create artificial cloud coverage. The em waves build up to a peak where the molecules in the skies; 1 fuse into clouds, and 2 clouds open as rain.

Dry hi sounds and wet bass sounds is very similar to resonance-maxed snares to pierce through frequency-hogging fat bass sounds is from Bristol style drum&bass scene of the late 1990s early 2000s. More compressed bass sounds typical to dubstep music is also commonly used for melodies, although monotonous repeat, build up and pressure-release surge dominates rather than hooks and improvised-sounding playing.

White noise bursts, both of specific crunchy bass tones and used as hats & snares with a lot of stereopan placement. It sounds swallowing the listener into its tunnel are explored. It is hard edged, a concrete style and to the uninitiated, most of it is challenging to accept as music rather than dirge. Very often haarpwave is simply an electro-dirge loop put through effects and overlaid with beatmatched slices.

Haarpwave music is characterized by high frequency continual/oscilating tones representing those used in remote mind control technologies and psychic esp. High Altitude Aerial Research Program devices are certainly capable of manipulation of human spectrum mind waves. That is truly what the genre is all about. Against a backdrop of gray; coloured shafts of light. Music for synaesthetics.
That is it in its most robotic form. More emergent forms of haarpwave seek to return to “original jungle” an intent which pioneered dubstep when second generation drum&bass composers sought to return to “original jungle” sounding drum& bass. To this ends very plastic paddy synthetic tribal beats and processed samples from real indigenous drumming have been used in conjunction with robo-haarpwave to some spectacular effects especially on human cognition; regression to primal state consciousness as a method of deconditioning the listener from sansara (programmed) mind.
Although it is rare for lyrics to be used in haarpwave, tracks are generally themed to deal with uncomfortable taboo topics from the gritty end of street life, anti-corporate/government corruption, and pollution of planet, mind, biology; mostly it is self-referential regarding existing 'mind transfer devices' as cultural warfare for corporate strategy.

So far the genre is still emerging primarily on the live scene from South Wales, its musicians involved with counter-state-as-terrorist activities between doing live sets and illegal raves. It has not yet hit mainstream awareness.

trying to replicate the sounds i constantly hear from haarp and other electronic mind control devices; & to create soothing soundscapes to distract me and relax me from that constant bombardment.

www.electronictorture.com/ rense.com/general37/skull.htm

"International Law- Weapons of Mass Destruction- Non Lethal Weapons, Mind Control Weapons, or psychotronic weapons has been listed as weapons of Mass Destruction by UNIDIR-UN unidir.org/pdf/ouvrages/pdf-1-92-9045-002-2-en.pdf Violation of Federal US Law. TITLE 18 &rt; PART I &rt; CHAPTER 113B &rt; § 2332h
§ 2332h. Radiological dispersal devices
(3) Special circumstances.— If the death of another r...esults... from a person’s violation of subsection (a), the person shall be fined not more than $2,000,000 and punished by imprisonment for life. Federal Law- FEDERAL LAW- Star Wars was and is Illegal- based on this Federal Public Law- Pub. L. No. 85-568, 72 Stat. 426-438 (Jul. 29, 1958)
FEDERAL LAW- Star Wars was and is Illegal- based on this Federal Public Law- Pub. L. No. 85-568,
72 Stat. 426-438 (Jul. 29, 1958) Federal Law- 18 USC 1505 Obstruction of proceedings before depts., agencies and committees
 Federal Law- 18 USC 1512 Tampering with a Witness, Victim or Informant
Obstruction may consist of any attempt to hinder the discovery, apprehension, conviction or punishment of anyone who has committed a crime.

history.nasa.gov/spaceact-legishistory.pdf International Law- Weapons of Mass Destruction- Non Lethal Weapons, Mind Control Weapons, or psychotronic weapons has been listed as weapons of Mass Destruction by UNIDIR-UN unidir.org/pdf/ouvrages/pdf-1-92-9045-002-2-en.pdf Three sinusodial waves ride on top of one another with very little energy loss over great distances from the multiple global HAARP SYSTEMS both land based and satellite based. The chemtrails increase the atmospheric electroconductivity and the over 52 land based HAARP systems around the globe as well as an unknown number of satellites manipulate the weather, manipulate plate techtonic activity that lead to earthquakes, volcanic activity, tsunamis, and also lead to manipulation of human beings and animals.

In April of 1997 United States Secretary of Defense William S. Cohen said: “Others are engaging even in an eco-type of terrorism whereby they can alter the climate, set off earthquakes, volcanoes remotely through the use of electromagnetic waves.” He made this statement at a conference on Terrorism, Weapons of Mass Destruction and U.S. Strategy in his official capacity as the US Secretary of Defense; thus this can be taken as an official position of the United States. Further he used the word “are,” not “could,” “might” or “maybe sometime in the future.” He further added: “It’s real, and that’s the reason why we have to intensify our efforts.” If the United States Secretary of Defense says that the earth and the sky have been turned into weapons, and are being used as such in present time, I believe we should take this statement very seriously…. "

"What is taking place is that the food supply , water and air are laced with structures that break the blood brain barrier.. and form crystal plaques inside the brain. But you also can make a crystal radio to demonstrate how this torture is affecting billions of citizens worldwide. I made my first electronics project at age 5 from the 101 electronic projects from Radio Shack.. back in 1971. One very basic project is a crystal radio... It was one of the projects.. It needs no power source because it uses the induction from the electrical radiation from the environment. All a crystal radio is is an earpiece, an inductor and a earpiece. (like the old ones that use to be sold and given out in those old radios) . and a variable resistor to change frequency.. These Crystal Radios are NOW inside of human brains.. from laced food over 30 years worth of chemicals and other additives that had NO OTHER PURPOSE THAN FOR NANO brain entrainment. If you do not k...now what a crystal radio is or nano brain entrainment.. then internet search it.. BUT DO NOT USE GOOGLE- because they are responsible for MASSIVE TORTURE and MURDER in the USA... Loud rock and roll shatters the crystal structures.. so do working with power tools and also frequencies over 20,000 hertz.. can shatter the structures inside the brain.. chaotic sound in the ELF to 20,000 hertz range has the abililty to shatter the nano structures inside the brain- and restore humanity to what it was prior to the chemtrails and the laced food.. Also shutting down the NSA would do the same.. the latter would free the USA sooner. It took Russia 60 years to free themselves.. lets hope the USA can turn it off sooner - already the USA has been under influence and control for over 37 years.. severe influence since 1998. Also Ringing a bell- such as a liberty bell or church bell frees.. bells have ELF to 20,000. Also a barber massage on your head is good too- or a palm sander with a towel on it works - " Ron Angell




















The above text was hastily constructed circa 2011 and fails to describe it as accurately as its pioneers would prefer. Derivations of Haarpwave music genre are Derpwave and Shockwave.