The Village

 Around here 'that Innsmouth look" is not fish, it is feline. The locals pronounce it feleen rather than the more normal pronunciation feeline which one will know if one has travelled or been programmed by the technological mind control devices which have flooded society in the guise of entertainment devices. Around here the locals are of such a mind to have detached from that and regard it as foreign and invasive, much as they do to anyone from the far side of the street, the next village or the neighbouring counties. Around here the self centered nature of the cat is regarded as normality, acceptable, the locals have problems with more open-minded attitudes and more experienced strangers bringing their strange and unsettling ideas and ways into the region. The village is culturally remote and a haven for those seeking to hide their pasts by embracing the local mindset and settling in as locals. As they say, "folks from around here ain't from around here" and for the most part this is true. The inheritance of local culture masks prison time, ex offenders, children of ex offenders and behind closed doors secrets that the single parent mums are so because dad is doing time, either because he was caught supporting her the illegal way or because she put him there to get him out of her way so that she could live uncompromised by having a man around who being father of her kids is at once less disposable than random strangers and more disposable than men who are so desperate for sex they will turn a blind eye to her nature and simply provide money. A lot of Ex offenders come through here as a halfway house and are exactly the manly sort of men the local women are attracted to. It takes several years of integration to recognize this about the place, beyond the facade of public image. The cunning wiles of the local women ensures all aspects of local culture conform to this unwritten code of conduct - the tradition is business as always, must be maintained. Those who cross the line are reprimanded with cruelty thus to teach.
The town could be any remote backwater community situated beyond the end of the main travel routes. All other subcultural communities are hidden away from the maintenance of local ways so as to be invisible and unspoken in public.
Here, anti-male third wave feminism has emasculated male culture although the Sport is permitted as a male interest. Most males hate the sport, enough are into it sufficiently to cause the majority to pretend to like it, they have to because the social pressure is profound. Men who are not into the sport are written off as breeders, regarded as non supportive of the potential mothers. It goes against the natural way but is described as being the natural way and most people are discouraged from questioning the authority of that indoctrination. Social memes, mind control projects, are rife here. The sport is boring and so I write about it objectively rather than in glorification for political pursuit of money, acceptability and female interest. Women hate the sport but regard men who share that distaste as second class, thus encourage it especially to male children. It helps to focus them away from becoming troublemakers, it helps make them predictable. And it reveals which males are the other caste - self thinkers, free thinkers and thus either to be rejected and persecuted, or to be bred from, depending on their aggression and criminality. The intellectual and effeminate, compassionate, empathic males are trusted to menial jobs in the female dominated council. Brutish males are bred from and encouraged to break the laws so they can be incarcerated when they are finally deemed to require the experience of jail time, to get them out of the way so the mothers can raise their kids without them interfering. You play their game or you are removed from society. The game is called "we change the goalposts to suit our whims."
Attempts to change this infrastructure result in persecution and being cast out of all factions of society. Strangely, the intellectual capacity and life experience of the cast out is much higher than the regular normalized acceptable folks who have made the necessary compromises to adjust to the local culture.

Dharma in Eden

This is 420th post on this blog.

It is copypaste from private text conversations during a time of revelation.


Last night (saturday) i lucid dreamed visiting a Tibetan spiritual master a healer, the name 'San Po' in my mind, he poked my left ribs hard and it plugged a hole where my love has been leaking out. I started to heal immediately, to see straight. How things are connected. Traditional instruments, drums and chimes, music as healing. His ally showed me to drink red top milk, a lot of it, calcium. Symbolism but open to different interpretations. As i woke the name San Po is in my mind. There were lots of souls visiting him for healing, his place is amazing, full of symbols of his education to get him to the plane of being an astral healer. We are lucky there are people as high as him in this world doing that work.

"I have to forgive my sons mother and a big part of me despises and rejects her because if there is a place where she and i see eye to eye, we both avoid it. We come right up close to that place and then turn away from it."

Sending you this is the bravest thing i have done in a long long time. I was texting with my friend and this all came out.

Politics is a distraction from what is important, people, our loved ones, humanitarianism, looking after each other. I have to forgive my sons mother and a big part of me despises and rejects her because if there is a place where she and i see eye to eye, we both avoid it. We come right up close to that place and then turn away from it. My parents were the same, i watched them do it my whole life through and never discussed it, by the time i could talk i had given up trying to explain it to them and the schizm turned eventually to hate and it damaged me, it took them over and they consciously damaged me from it. Had i not failed, had i been able to explain it to them as a child, or been wiling to try as an adult, our family would have been closer, i would have been stronger. I blame myself for the hate that happened because i did not love them enough to heal them or at least try to by telling them what had happened. Every time they nearly settled on a level with each other, they were like magnets who attracted toward that balance and then at the last moment, repelled that balance. It was how they protected their fragile self identities instead of giving themselves over to each other completely which would have allowed love to flow through them and unite them completely. Letting go of the self so that nature can flow through us and we can be in bliss. And with parents that's often a sexual thing or at least a hug. But we damage ourselves and each other instead, so that it becomes harder and harder to let go and connect. Whoever gives over first, is consumed not by love but by the other ones self control, and the one persons ego eats both partners. In normal language we insult each others egos and if we accept one to be dominant, it bends both partners away from being straight enough to function socially. We call it being in love. So we let the hate come in instead and make a pretence which is so obvious that it does not satisfy and we all end up resenting the fakeness we trap ourselves into. The solution is simple - kiss and make up. Not for the sake of the kids only but for the sake of ourselves and each other and love and a better reality. Instead we turn each other into haters and the hate becomes the foundation of our childs world, the stability he knows and will recreate all his own life. Because we are afraid of letting go and becoming natural and rejoicing in the high our child needs to be stronger than we are, so we stay below that high. We need to work constantly to help each other stay there. It is our job, it is what family means. It is what successful parents can do. And so we face our failing that despite it all, our ego grandeur, our social face, we have failed because we do not do the simple thing of looking into that place and accepting it as a strength. Despite whatever other lovers we may take, it is our love and we are too broken to re-establish it as the world we live in. When we do, our child grows in that light.

The problem is that the programming from the mind, it takes over so instead of our heart-minds connecting as one, our programmed minds connect and that is where all the disagreement and confusion in the world comes from. I can analyse this and see it for what it is and explain it. I don't know if I am a pure enough creature to achieve it and that is because nobody can do so by themself. It requires the willingness of two people to get there. I don't expect we can but at least we can have a frame of reference about human emotional and mental psychology to use, by being aware of it.

Both need to be selfless and face it head on. Allow yourselves to be overcome by the same positive passionate attraction you felt when you first met and hold that level. A lot of the pain which is the operational base, is because you both need to go back into that space together and re-affirm it. It requires both being selfless together. Not easy especially when our nature has that destructive element. Both deserve to make each other happy, to gift each other that positive flow and to function as one.

You can turn each each other into the bliss which you prevent each other from being. Normally people judge each other for deviating from it but we forget we are all facing the same self doubt and insecurity. We deviate because we try to avoid creating a negativity reverberation and in doing so, we create a different sort, a confusion sort of negativity. Trying to hide our own monstrous nature we instead create it. Forgiveness and acceptance are the two words describing how to get back there, not as words but as actions in living  realtime, together.

I believe that a bad translation of the garden of eden story put gender roles onto psychology concepts. A lot of mess and confusion came from that. It is about partners forgetting to energize each other with love, wholly, involving thoughtlessly hugging and not rejecting that from each other in a fit of unworthyness but embracing it. So they called the deviation by a female name, eve, and in doing so they blamed women for something which both genders do. It is because she represents the yin yielding flowing aspect of the self and usually people are stubborn yang which we call the mind and ego being set against the idea of returning to eden, the made heaven which a couples love creates. So the couples perpetually create a difficulty neither can overcome easily.

Thanks for seeing the point i am trying to explain. I wish i could explain it to all separated parents because it would help the kids to have a more stable family life and it would help the adults to be more peaceful inside and with each other. It is okay to love your ex, passionately, emotionally, physically, kindly, as a friend, we are meant to. Society teaches us to be disfunctional, that we are wrong if we act on feelings toward our ex, wrong if we support them. society encourages us to go against human nature, to go against healing ourselves and our partner.

I believe this is what the word husband and wife is designed to mean originally, partners who heal each other by stabilizing each other in a place of bliss. Then we can make better, less tortured lives, decisions, art, worlds, it is what being successful truly is.

All it takes is holding someone you love in a hug for more than 20 seconds so their brain releases endorphines. We have kids by this angel and we cant even do that much for ourselves and for them. No wonder our species is doomed. I try to hug my ex at an appropriate moment and she shouts rape and throws me half way across the room, the rejection hurt becomes the world our son grows up in. Because stubborn human nature is more powerful than the individuals ability to evolve. And this is about evolution into higher dimensions, through simple human interaction. We get off on punishing ourselves and each other and the kids instead of healing. This is why humans are facing extinction, it is the main reason. It can all be cured by letting our shields down so our light can shine through and simply holding each other, holding each other high like we do for the kids when they need comfort. Why is it so difficult for us to overcome our fear enough to do it?

top-5-net-hates

5 things I hate about the internet.

1 Trolls as Admin. Admin who Troll. These are not doing their job well at all. In real life it is called negligence of duty and is a sackable offense. It is bullying. On the internet it generally goes unchecked and the site owners take the troll/admin's word for it that their victim is the problem, who gets instantly banned from the forum. This happens on most of the internet forums.

2 pop-up screens I have to close to see the website I want to see.

On protocol I never click 'yes' to them, ever. 

I usually also close the web-page for hosting pop-ups.

3 websites where I have to click 'next' to go to the next page of an article.

I close those windows on principle.

4 spam from companies who I signed up with and who want my attention and money so they waste their lives sending me one or more emails a day. My inbox is full of this. I will never buy from you, ever, and I advertise that you are a spam company so you lose more sales than you would make by acting more professionally, sleek and keeping it simple. 1 email to my inbox is all I ever need because when I want to read it, i use 'search' to find it - the internet is an indexed database. If you are sending me a third email, I will report you.

5 hook-up sites that charge money. The only people who use these sites will ask you to go to another site which requires your credit card details. You will never find a partner there, only a waste of your time. The hook-up sites with real people who do actually meet, they do not charge money because the people who use them are actual people with the same intention as you. Whether they are for-real people or head-fuck time-wasters is another matter. People genuine about getting laid and into long-term relationships typically live near you and drink at the local bar, or else they are not worth the hassle. There are exceptions but remember that 95% of long-distance relationships end in break-up usually before you meet irl.

Thank you for reading my top 5 internet hates. Now go and do something about it if you are in a position to do something about it.

Attainment_777

Attainment.

Today with people i love, learning spirit. The chaqmal and the chacual, ja guar. It taught me what this region close to where we live called the gower is in the ancient tongue, guar. When yaqui maya and xiao and aegyptian and w'el'sh and ja mai qa'n and the even elder peoples, old fella's spirit teachings, are all the same mother tongue aligned ... makes sense of the confusing designs i have been compelled to be making lately, geo-mathic arrhythmic stonecarve sigils of flows, language of subconscious from the underworld. Phonemes of power. All the namings follow the same root blocks which explain vastly.

Has been an unusual day.

Walking through the field we were triangulated by red and green, symbols on many levels aligning to make sense of ancient prophecy, "red an green should never be seen" spoke a magester to me many years ago and here last week my kid asserting freedom ran off and hid, and here today the son of a mother who found him showed us two toy cars, micro machines in red and green, while over there a guy who helped search went past on a red scooter while holding green skateboard, and over there two old men with three white dogs, one wearing a red coat the other wearing a green bag. These tones, more specific than coincidence, were all the very same tone of red and the very same tone of green.

This is shamanism in practise recognising how energies align and it put me outside mind and into the other attention, shifted my assemblage point. Twenty-one years of studying don carlos and many other disciplines, it is making sense now. Reasons why i am living here at this time and thus the confusion about it ends because i know what the places mean now, why locations are named specific energies and how they align. The gregorian calender of the early freemasons measures it well enough. I will look up next what the tzolkiin date is. Cholkan, these words have many tonal expressions specific to purpose.

Our activities are events controlled by the flowing and opening of these gates and energies, our lives enact the flowering. This is what shamen study, how syncronicities connectivity creates our life journeys. I make no claim of being a nagual, simply observer and recorder, Thoths servant, a zero chief who speak a language very few of us are trained in but those who are, who study to this level, will decipher.

A childs first birthday today. Think about that and power numbers of 7.7.1+6=7 and how significant that is. Crowleys book of the same title dressed in the winged solar gate. So today, eleven kids, four chaga and myself a pentacle of adults, making a relief of new healing space between us and within us. Because of doing right thing. These archonic structural guides are a grid of a pure vortex and we captured its power, even without trying.

This is not a cult or religion, it is a way of recognizing. These words mean specific things describing soul energy and they appear all over the world hidden in many cultures. Some souls are trained to know it, and it truly exists, while the ignorant simply fail to accept that which they are blind to. I am speaking mayan the language of the dreaming, we all were today, references.

Today the universe gifted me a blue dog lead, a power tool entrusted wisely. I have no fear to teach how real this is. As initiation i can only point to Victor Sanchez book, the Teachings of Don Carlos.

To many, this whole text is gobbldigook. To others it describes where we are at in great detail.

Guar means amongst other things, the reptilian cortex. It means the lizard. Iguana. Sex and when untamed is from where we get the words worry and war. The red and the green. This is a system which transcends time. I did not invent it. I achieved sufficient objective clarity in my studies of no-mind to remember all of this data and witness it. When earthed, we get the word guard, protection like a wall or fortress, caer in welsh like to care by protecting. Lots of kids here today, the most important thing to be protecting. Lots of kids from lots of sexuality but - i have to emphasize that observing and making these connections can only come from the sage sacrificing all of that, study instead of play. And being benevolent, teach freely a summation of decades of lonely assimilation. It is what it takes to achieve that perception as described here.

We spoke of 666 being the triple spire and 777 being the feather growth up from it, axles on axles, cogs, stepped stages to measure the flowing. We spoke of many things. Words that came through us because our ego minds did not intercede, and our hearts mending, and laughter, and all of this the crowning of child and his tribal group. Happy birthday EsEsEl.

http://www.tokenrock.com/mayan/tzolkin-calculator/

I don't know how this can be, howevewr according to this site calculator, 7.714 and 77.15 and 7.7.16 are all Star/11 days. That itself is amazing. Even if it is a glitch 'there is no such thing as a glitch, merely the ripple of some other factor we are not fully aware of'. It is significant.

  

jaru

First i had to learn babylon inside out, blood sweat tears, hopes programs fears, streets walked by city people from high echelon to lo-fi dry in the post bust rust and decay of glass shard broken emotion and mental digital how it works gangrene sludgy brain fluid of lives in disarray, the wealthy ignore the poor and hate disguised as acceptance routines which for law. I saw. 

From underage drag queen wined by the mayor to inside secret libraries, drug dens, galleries and cells colder than ice sold by cops, vice as necessity for city to function while working and middle classes protected living in delusions. From hooking to cooking for the rich an poor in restaurants and soup houses, counselling deadbeats whose hearts still somehow pure but sharp shark eyes dead as half my crew. Shallow graves dug by authorities and masks worn by those faceless professionals we are made to rely on. Work for money or beg and busk through system or street corner where the turn you in for crimes they did, everyones fave scapegoat. 

And has made i wise. Wise with city eyes, the owl looks through, commerce and corruption which i avoided on my spiritual dub warrior medicine path of budo shamanic discipline. I survived, most didnt. 

Ye mon, i know babylon well n better n do you, shortcuts backstreets safe routes and true. Now i have amassed experience so much my songs speak deep, no aspiration here the coin of the exploited, this dub is what it is, beyond naivety. Now ready to write babylon tunes, jara jara

Writ cos having at last caught upon the far star of babylon 5 sci fi tv series, the pentacle closes, i knows it braa. Somehow symbolic relations between concepts from here and from over the horus-zen collate to create new forms of cohesion. Ready for new world now with fresh meaning as the lens twist into new resolution, a focus, a twenty-two year parallel assimilation on this day 7.7.1+6=7 = enochian key, turning that corner, the gate opens.

Its not madness when you know the frames of reference. Its only madness to the ignorant. Keep listening, keep walking that bassline pace of human rhythm. Simmering along here is a new album brewing cos i unplugged my tentacle from the visual crystal, so the energy flows through spine into the chime of sound bar mystic ~ ♡ ☆

 

 

Lest We Be Ignorant

Lest We Be Ignorant / 1. Self and Society

Self

idiot - someone controlled by id (base drives)

egotist - someone controlled by ego (see below)

ignorant - someone who ignores (arguably also who rants)

We live in a culture (the cult-you-are) ...

(a culture is a bacterially stagnated product; yoghurt, cheese, kephir, kombucha, etc)

... in which people do not know what the id actually is, are taught to resent everyone else for being egotistic yet at the same time you will not get anywhere other than exploited without using your ego, and are encouraged to ignore our own instincts: because cultural programming is controlling social progress.

We can easily make an immediate comparison between the bacteria involved with transforming liquid cultures and the social memes used to socially engineer human social cultures.

Who is controlling the cultural programming?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Id,_ego_and_super-ego

Freuds definitions (see wikipedia link) of what id, ego and super-ego are differ from Jung's use of the same terms. Today people use these words for entirely different things than what Freud and Jung used them for, usually without knowing exactly what they are actually talking about. Basically people very often mistake the concept of the ego and the id. This is itself a social problem. Non-educated people are ignorant of the facts: improper use of language makes that evident.

My 5 year old defined it such:

id (what i really am) - the self

ego (who i am for other people) - the compromise

super-ego (who i have to be to figure it out) - the programming

Cultural indoctrination that we must resent the ego, both our own and other people, is dualistic. We need to be the ego because it gives us a social identity. It is the dance moves as we integrate with others. It is a persona worn as a cloak so that others may orient around us. It is a shield to protect us and achieve social goals.

Ego is a tool although when we identify completely with it, we become the tool of the ego. It is used as a tool by both the id (emotions and urges, the wild self) and the super-ego (the robot which external culture has indoctrinated us into being).

"It could mean one’s self-esteem; an inflated sense of self-worth; the conscious-thinking self; or in philosophical terms, one’s self." wikipedia

We need self-esteem. We need a conscious-thinking self. We need to be the Self. On this basis we need the ego. It is only problematic when it becomes inflated, as with all things when it becomes out of balance.

Thus, the ego is a majorly important feature of all individuals. To hate it, in ourselves or others, is ridiculous. Cultural prejudice against the ego is cultural prejudice against the tool we require so as to function in society. Disabling the ego disables the individual.

We live in a "culture of rejecting the ego" as a counter to recognizing that we live in a "culture of the ego". And yet what is being rejected is not the ego but the inflated ego. This is never explained and never understood - doing so is the core purpose of this text.

We live in a "culture of the ego" however the image, the media stars, popular personalities, those are not real people at all. Those are not the self. They are icons - not of the actual ego although we call them the ego which confuses the picture completely. They are icons which are external to us and yet they fulfill the same function as the ego in balancing the relationship between the wild id and the programmed super-ego.

In Buddhism the concept of ego and the concept of super-ego are both assigned to the same principle for which the word 'sansara' which means both 'the conditioned mind' and 'the confused mind' - the programmed self which is distracted from observing purely. Sansara is not truth. Liberation from this is to observe purely, to know truth.

Society

Today we use the word sheeple to describe human nature as both obstinate and easily-led. At face value obstinacy and being easily-led are polarized opposites. The antidote to obstinacy is an open-mind while the antidote to being easily-led is obstinacy. Obstinacy results in dogma.

Society is a combination of dogmatic progress which involves rejection of the open-mind, which in our analogy is 'sheeple leading sheeple' contrasted with the open-minded form of progress, 'seeking to cease being sheeple'. Both groups resent each other. This model can be applied to almost all situations of social contrast and affect all cultural development.

What people become when they cease being sheeple is independent individuals. What people become when they are led by sheeple is slaves. It is more preferable to have independent individuals leading sheeple toward becoming independent individuals than it is to have a situation where slaves are leading slaves to become slaves. This is common-sense based objective progress.

©2016 snakeappletree

The Second Step

THE SECOND STEP

The easiest way to do it is to write it as lucidly as possible.

Tell it as it is. This draft is called The Second Step.

The first step is more or less a flat plane. Eventually you get to the rise, its not much. Then you come to the next step. So really, this is the proper title of the draft, The Next Step, because the other title describes two things at the same time, well three now it is associated with this draft.

The literal physical second step is the one which trips your foot and gets your attention, you probably stub your toe on it. Some people call that the first step because the literal physical first step is not so much a step at all. I am detracting from the original intended purpose.

Each step is twice as high as the previous one.

By and large after climbing a few more, initiation experiences, life lessons, achievements, we get to The Wall. It is not really a Wall at all, and this is the one which we refer to as The Second Step because compared with all the others we have already climbed, this one is difficult. Most people look at it and see it as a wall, think they have reached the top as far as it is possible to go. They turn around and see the view, look down on all those still climbing and they rest, and they never achieve any further.

But some of us, some of us know more than that. We know that the wall is actually a step, and we figure it out. And we take that next step. There are those, in fact many, who tread on everyone around them to get there. We all hate those bastards and the easiest way to get rid of them is to give them the boost they need so they are off our backs, although some people prefer to grab them and throw them back down the descent to the bottom. A lot of that goes on.

While climbing the step, a lot of people are going to grab hold of you and try to use your energy, your climb, your ascent, to get pulled up with you. And they will drag you down to their level and insult you for not having achieved the rise, because they thought they could use you as a stepping stone.

So what we learn is that the Second Step is one we have to do by ourselves at night alone when nobody else is looking. Telling them about it is simply going to cause yourself problems of envy and being exploited.

This is where it gets strange. A lot of people do band together, they see that by standing in a circle they can support those who are to climb up and stand on their shoulders, and build a tower to compete with the steps. We know that the base of their pillar is the foundation of everything in their tower. They will fiercely defend their own tower even against imaginary foes, and they do not learn that their tower is not the steps. They will never be able to climb any further up the steps because they have gone their own way, they have diverged from the natural path, from the human mission. Glorious though their ambition might be, they are never going to achieve the climb and eventually they are going to topple and have to start all over again. Because they are not climbing but are deluding themselves that their structure is the way, they will resent anyone who goes the natural path and continues climbing the steps. So we have a lot of very well established power bases actively taking out the natural climbers who are still climbing the steps, who do not see the next step as a wall but only as a big step.

On the next step, knowing the rule is that each step is twice as tall as the last, we have people who have achieved more than most and know this is as far as they will go. They are pushing people back down, they are proud and building their own towers of more elect superior people, often exploiting the lower towers without anyone from the lower towers even aware that is what is happening. And the same thing occurs with each step, with the numbers getting lesser and lesser the higher you climb.

Eventually you come to a step which is the highest you can go, and you know that you can not reach the next one at all until you learn to fly. Don't worry, you will just as soon as you let go of your body and quite literally that is what it takes to get there. We call that the place where X becomes Y (the horizontal axis becomes the vertical axis).

There are offers of shortcuts and distractions plenty. Nobody knows how many steps there are, nobody knows what is at the top. There are legends passed down from higher climbers. We know that the perspective, the view, gets clearer and wider and farther to the horizon the higher up we climb. You can always tell those who have experienced higher views and yet are for some reason still down here on our local levels.

What is it that empowers us to be able to scale the next step, the one which is twice as tall as the last? This is where we encounter metaphysics. It is not having longer legs. It is not having rope and grappling hook. It is to do with how we go about things and who we become by adjusting your attitudes, always, toward the goal of making it to the next level.

Somebody once told me to ignore whatever everyone else is saying and doing. I was told by that somebody that they had been there, to the top, and chosen to come down again to guide us. I asked what it is like up there. The reply, simply:

"When the center is the heart, you have reached the summit."

I smiled because it was beautiful. The next advice is daunting: "That's when you face the skies, and for that you will need to learn to fly."

You read these words and smile but you should also realize that what I said about leaving the body to get there is true. It will happen to us all. Between here and there though, we still have a lot of steps to go and it's not getting any easier to climb them.

©2016 snakeappletree

 

 

EMP

E.M.P.

©snakeappletree 2016

The Electro Magnetic Pulse weapon took out every electronic system on the planet. We knew that all of the officially existing organisations which could have done it were mere puppets for the organisation which did it. Every nation has star wars weapons targeting the planetary surface. In retrospect it was not a very long time before the effects wore off. A lot happened during that time. It was a long six months and nothing was ever the same again.

The national grids went down. Cellphones stopped working. The internet ceased to exist, all the computers were wiped. The banking records and all other digital systems were wiped clean of their operating systems. Cars and planes stopped working. Submarines sank.

The planet went into regional control. For the consumer nations the first and biggest problem was the food shortages followed rapidly with riots. The militaries rounded everybody they could up into concentration camps where at least bland gruel fed the body and effectively cold turkey’d everyone. The gruel was mixed with chemicals to subdue natural aggression. Once in the camps nobody was permitted out unless with work permit and under guard. There were two forms of work permit; food plantations and the raids.

The raids were retrieval and stockpiling of all collateral from old infrastructure, the houses. We were not permitted to call them homes because that word has to many emotional connotations. Following the restoration the survivors of the concentration camps would be allocated new dwellings in accordance with the New Model Society. The period of the interim is intended to be done with as soon as possible. Six months of no electric stretched into three years of the Interim.

The same thing was happening all over the world. The survival protocol was enacted by every community. Those who did not retreat to the camps were regarded as bandits and exterminated for degeneracy, this included all those whose communities had survived starvation, riots, and oppression from the new government.

The result was the death of both democracy and capitalism. The New Model Society is based around resource allocation. Technologically it has regressed although we are not permitted to use that language. It is taught that the deviation has been corrected. Exploitation of natural resources to create pollution and uncontrollable communications enabled terrorist groups to destabilise all human society. The good which has come from the EMP and the Protocol is to have created an equitable society where we are living more harmoniously with the natural world. We do not need television and mobile internet. We need fresh healthy food which we are all self-responsible for cultivating.

Humanity had been struck back to stone age basics on a global scale and in most places, hunter-gathering is insufficient to provide sufficient resources for the survivors. People hated the control but realised quickly that to go against it would be death. The re-establishment of society required everybody to do accept the Conformity. Together we are stronger. Austerity brought a singularity of focus whereas the old capitalist empire of everybody for themselves had brought nothing but suffering and greed.

The children were educated in accordance with the Syllabus teaching them wha they had to do, to expand and build on the foundations of the new infrastructure. Teams stockpiled old world junk in warehouses. With nobody living in the old buildings, whole cities were left to rot. The new architecture is brilliant. It is designed as open-space with all necessary commodities available for all. Recreation, Education, and Arts with specialist Educational facilities. A Guild system with merits and mentorship to teach traditional crafts, how to process things we have grown into things we need, tools from nature. Electricity is discriminated against as one of the dirty evils of the destructive Old World.

There is no religion other than Earthism. We are earthlings because we are of the earth as are our food, our fabrics, our tools.

The short movie is presented non-linear with super-imposition of scenes of the past such as child slave labor in factories constructing computers for foreign markets, the stock exchange based on international economies steered by warmongers controlled by banking cartels, bombing of innocent foreigners in retaliation for false flag attacks, countless consumers burning up resources and polluting the ecology simply to distract themselves from the hardships of being debt slaves dedicating their lives to the fiction of money, usury and debt.

Scenes of the future where ecological sustainable communities work together, as did the communities of monasteries during medieval era. as do communities of Amish who do not rely on technology beyond hand-craft. Farming the land for food and producing surplus enough to trade with neighbours whose crops are different from ours. Non-ownership of properties and respect for skills, the availability of resources necessary to develop those skills. Musicians more highly regarded than scientists.

And the concentration camps of the period during the interim. Payment of extra food to those who work with the protocol to do what the soldiers command, the census and collections. Sealing the useless goods of a dead culture into the archival warehouses and re-allocating useful goods toward the program. Following which, construction work of eco-communities. Building a better living space where the natural world is integrated into daily life. Fewer, simpler laws including the death penalty for those who break the Conformity.

It is hard for the first generation living through the transition. The second generation growing up in the New Model Society are filled with excitement and anticipation with what is being achieved. Within three generations it has stabilised. Very little of the past remains other than a few sites, the bad places where are stored toxic artefacts of the old ways which were dangerous. By now hand-craft is revered and accepted as normal all across the world. By now the forests and meadows are establishing themselves, rivers and oceans are replenishing themselves so that there will be plenty again by the time the pollution has reduced sufficient to begin hunter-gathering rather than farming.

We see the pine soap factory from the forestry plantation and herbalism being taught to classes so they will know how to extract useful compounds from nature, working directly with the hospices. We see witches executed for using non-organic ancient metal in their rituals. We see rural diversification and teaching of the basic global communication languages of the mono-cultural imprint which everybody needs to know. We see ships built of wood taking trade over the waters to distant lands who produce different artefacts and plants but speak the same trade language.

Other laws such as that forbidding breeding with somebody of your own ethnic background create a society where travel is necessary. The easy provision of all basic necessities because of the structure of the new model society means that nobody need raid the peaceful villages. And yet there are outsiders, those who travel to see the world as it changes, to learn for themselves. Gradually the ranger caste are integrated into the protectorate caste, because to break the Conformity is the death penalty and so they have to. Such travel becomes a rite of passage and is no more or less safe for the individuals than it ever was.

Occasionally villagers report seeing the flying metal orbs taking stock of the human herd which lives openly on the surface. It is assumed they are a remnant of the old world and its corporate elite. Nobody in living memory can remember the transition period and in time even the archeological evidence that it ever happened at all, fade away.

You are reading this as words on a page. Perhaps some day people will be watching it as pictures on a screen. The time it has taken you to do this, you could have been planting food crops in any available patch of land. Because when the EMP occurs and all electronics are disabled, there will be no food available to you from supermarkets. There will be no cellphones, vehicles, governmental aid. There will be riots. Money will become obsolete and useless. There will be lawlessness because the military and police, the armed forces, will be protecting their own individual interests and certainly will regard you as another useless eater and a threat before they will help you. You primary function will be starvation based animal instinct to find something to eat. You will be hunted unless you join the concentration camps as people are rounded up to be given gruel and set to work on re-building a new society which does not rely on electricity.

We already have these EMP devices mounted into satellites orbiting the world. This part of the story is no fiction. That you will starve if you do not grow your own food crops is also no fiction. This is the harsh reality which should steer your focus and activities toward Survival. Because on this planet, throughout Human evolution, survival has always been the goal of life. Eating food which you can easily plant yourself is a major component of that. 

sniff on the wind

"How do pronounce 'Tao' ?" 

 

"Oh that's easy, it is pronounced 'doe'."

 

"How do you pronounce Tantra?"

 

"Well, that's called Tantra."

 

"Are you sure? What is a Tan Tien point?"

 

"Acupressure points. But that is pronounced 'Dan Tee en'."

 

"So you agree that Tantra can be pronounced as Dan Tey Ra?"

 

"I suppose it could."

 

"Because Ra being the Source is the life force energy flowing through the body and emanating from the relative acupressure points."

 

"Yes that makes a lot of sense."

 

"Have you ever heard of an Egyptian town called Dan De Ra?"

 

"Dendera? I think I heard of that place."

 

"Another name for it is Tentyra. There is a temple complex there."

 

"I see now, all these words are variations of the same theme. Linking concepts to places."

 

"Exactly! And all of them are talking about how life force energy flows through the body, in this case through the body of the planet at certain places, to connect with the solar divinity."

 

"This is religious surely."

 

"No, this is a science. The energy radiated by the human organism is measurable with electronic equipment. The background energy radiating from places is measurable with electronic equipment. It is not yet widespread knowledge in our culture and a lot of very cynical people simply cannot believe it and are actively trying to suppress such awareness."

 

"Why would they do that?"

 

"They try to destroy that which they can not control nor understand. This is why the teachings involved with these knowledge's are secret, passed on to certain members of a society without them being widely advertised. Because not everybody is ready for it."

 

"That actually justifies why there need to be secret societies operating in mainstream culture."

 

"Exactly. Except that by the time the secret society becomes an organized structure, the original intention is generally lost and the structure is taken over by all those who want to exploit the power base and who do not care at all about the development of perceptions and skills involved. This is why teachers move on - because they are the first to be executed by the new regime operating through the perceived power base. Sadly, history is full of such examples."

 

"But we did once build great temples to teach everybody about this stuff, quite openly."

 

"Yes. We are still living in the dark ages."

 

"Not everybody."

Prepping

PREPPING

The picture on the right was 'prepped' in advance of being painted. The technique was to paint a cross on the back of it. The picture on the left was not prepped. It did not have a cross painted on the back of it. 

The front of both cardboards was then painted with a flat layer of paint. 

The prepped painting had drying paint soaking into it and pulling tight, changing the shape of the canvas. Because both sides were painted, the pulling balanced the canvas on the right so that it flattened itself out.

The picture on the left did not have a prepped background and so the paint pulled it only in one direction.

Before the white paint had dried; drips of black paint were applied to both boards. Because it is corrugated cardboard the texture is unique and the paint works with the texture to create the surface marks. 

You can very clearly see that the painting to the right which has been prepped in advance of the application of the detail, has a very different texture to the painting on the left, which was not prepped in advance. The black paint moves differently because the board is a different shape due to the prepping process. 

The technique is identical on both pictures except that the one on the right has been prepped in advance. As a result the final image is noticeably different.

The exact same rules apply when you meet somebody who has been victim to a slander campaign. Everybody who has been prepped in advance about that person see's a very different picture when they look at that person, because they have been prepped in advance.

This is what a reputation is - it inhibits you from experiencing a situation honestly in the immediacy of the moment, 'in reality', because of the prepping. In card games this is called rigging the deck and is regarded as unscrupulous behavior.

Blog Update

Regular followers of this blog will have perceived that the writing style has changed recently. This is because I am targeting a specific demographic member of my audience. Regular services will resume in due course and when the time is right. Meanwhile I have to get the trolls off my back. Some of you are aware of the overview of my situation and will probably accept where I am coming from. If you are new to this blog, you need to back-track to keep on top of it.

The Gift of the Void

The Gift of the Void

If you tried explaining to an educated medieval scholar about hard science of the 20th century, they would happen to be a christian monk because they were the educated people during that era, and they would mis-interpret what you were explaining to them as satanism. The evidence of this is when the first vacuum chamber was created in Magdeburg Germany and the scientists working on it were accused of satanism because they had created something which the monks mis-interpreted as ‘the devil’s work’ because it contained, to use the terminology of the day, ‘a godless void’. Now that the scientific paradigm is better accepted and understood, religiously dogmatic people no longer go around persecuting scientists - or so you prefer to believe.

This millennia Dr Emoto did a lot of scientific studies and experiments into the way plants use their energy fields to communicate even at a distance, also that they have memories of individual humans who pass through those energy fields. Conclusive, materialist proof that plants are telepathic. A human neural system is much more advanced than that of a plant. Kirlian photography is evidence that life forms including humans do emit an electromagnetic field called the Aura which is electronically measurably variant depending on emotion. This is now hard science and yet many people still have a lot of trouble believing that it is real.

My IQ is high, Mensa rate me as a genius. My genius is not mathematical (right-brained) like was Einstein. I am a creative polymath which means I am a genius in several fields of creative (left brained) thinking. This is unusual in a society where the education system indoctrinates people not to use their left brains for thinking process; and from my experiences i can assert that many people actively persecute those who do.

I was scientifically trained and during my twenties I did many experiments involving energy transition and waveforms, resonant frequencies and such abilities. I proved through the series of experiments certain features about reality we all cohabit. However, I am unwilling to train people in this because the majority of people are akin to medieval monks persecuting those who actually recognise the reality of this stuff. Thus, my teachings are occult despite being wholly scientific. Some, a minority of people, can and do readily accept what I am talking about, many are already on the level of perception and cognition required to experience this as real events.

Many are not. It is statistical fact that half the population of the planet have less than average IQ and simply are incapable of re-assessing their own version of reality to integrate what they have been taught is fantasy. This is  mental health condition called cognitive dissonance, and disbelief syndrome, wherein even despite scientific evidence proving the reality of a thing, they deny it in favour of the fantasy. Discussing these topics has brought a lot of problems into my life. The greatest sorrow of my life is that were people to accept this model of science and the technologies and abilities it enables; we would have a much more wonderful life experience.

I have no intention of being burnt at the stake as a witch. I will die and take this education with me, but for a handful of individuals whom I have taught a basic overview and a few steps of the model to, in the hope they can cope with it. All of them require further training before they will be able to encompass the whole model as a lived reality. I do not believe that what I am doing is starting a cult. I believe that I am a hard science based experimenter who has discovered through experiments certain features of reality which most people simply do not acknowledge through lack of educational training and focus.

This statement says nothing in a lot of words. I did at one time make copious notes about some of my experiments however those notebooks were stolen from my residence at the time. I do not believe I am being egotistical in making this statement; simply justifying that the wealth of information which would have benefitted humanity, is consigned to the void simply because mainstream society is abusive toward it. I do not believe that humanity is any better today than it was during medieval era, indeed this evolutionary stalemate establishes that we are still technically within the dark ages despite a minority having benefited from the industrial revolution.

The Hate And The Hope

In 2010 under a coalition government and influenced by a hate campaign which included somebody hacking my own and my friends accounts, which the police had told me they would do nothing about, I posted onto the wall of my old Facebook account;

"We live in a society where it costs £1000 to get a court injunction to protect somebody, which is a signed piece of paper, yet it costs only £50 to have somebody kneecapped. This comparison reveals how priorities and the legal fiction of money are arranged to control society so that it is cheaper and more practical to do the wrong thing than it is to do the right thing. The Peace industry is non-profit whereas the Hate industry is profitable and employs a great number of people. This is a reality of our society."

I always remember the sage advice of the Crow medicine healer Estcheemah:
"90% of the time, 90% of the people co-exist peacefully, whatever sort of police system."

The next day I was visited by the police because the person who had been perpetrating the Hate campaign, who I had blocked from my fb account, had hacked it and read the post and told the police it was a direct threat against him. He also changed my password.

The police took the post seriously sufficient to warn me not to kneecap him. I had no intention of doing so and when they presented a print-out of my facebook profile as 'evidence' it was clearly obvious that they had misread my clearly stated intent and were protecting the person who I had previously showed them evidence that he was out to get me.

On that occasion the Police told me that as far as the police are concerned, there is zero privacy on the internet - Private Messages are publicly visible and passwords are irrelevant. They advised me to a) stop using the internet, and b) stop using Facebook. Given that Facebook is now the internet's major marketing platform and I am starting a small business, I actually have to use Facebook in a professional capacity.

The criminal was later thrown off his university degree course for mis-use of the uni computers to facilitate his hate campaign, which is not a situation I was in a position to make any decisions about as I was third party to the University being informed, I did not do so directly myself. The University computer security guy who happens also to be the south Wales computer crime expert for the Police, contacted me about the matter, not the other way around.

The sad thing is that Hate got in the way of today's situation, where: he would now have his coding degree and I am in a situation to start hiring coders to get my company launched. He is a relative on my son's mothers side of the family. Instead, I am having to learn the relevant coding myself which slows progress of my productivity, and to scrape together the money to hire an unknown coder, anyone who can and will do the job. What could have been a family business has turned into a something else simply because of Hate. On and for the record, I do not hate any of them, I never did. You can see where my focus is - family and business.

But why do they Hate? I still do not know. The animosity between my sons mother and her family is something I got caught up in while she was pregnant. All I know is that I was told half-truths and I expect they were too. In her own words "Got keep them fighting each other or they will unite against you." Sadly that is both paranoid and an accurate analysis of society. If everybody united to do their part, we could all be making a lot of money together and functioning as a family. They have made it plainly clear that I am unwelcome although they do accept my son as one of their own.


Police: “Why don't you like him?”
Grandad: “We don’t know him.”
Police: “Why won’t you get to know him?”
Grandad: “We don’t like him.”

As a martial artist I follow the Kung-Fu philosophy of using an opponents own energy against them. I do not need to hate because that will only feed the hate. I simply need to re-direct it so that it feeds upon itself until, consumed, it is gone. Only then can people become Human.

We are now 6 years after the event. We are under a different government for whatever that is worth. Theoretically it would have a consequence on the attitudes of the Police given that they enforce government statutes. This post is not any attempt to stir things up. It is a question as to how different the world is after the heartbeat of time which is six years, to my son is the whole of his incarnation, his whole life and the world he is growing up in. 

I am a trained martial artist but I am also a pacifist. I teach, the very first rule, which my own grandfather who was a championship Boxer taught me; (and he always said he would outlive Mohamed Ali, who passed this week, the legend says that Ali's heart was still beating thirty minutes after all his other vital signs were pronounced dead).

 

                                                   "Never start a fight. Always finish it." Jim son of Jack

Persecution

"Persecution is the systematic mistreatment of an individual or group by another individual or group. The most common forms are religious persecution, ethnic persecution and political persecution, though there is naturally some overlap between these terms. The inflicting of suffering, harassment, isolation, imprisonment, internment, fear, or pain are all factors that may establish persecution, but not all suffering will necessarily establish persecution. The suffering experienced by the victim must be sufficiently severe. The threshold level of severity has been a source of much debate."

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Persecution

 

The Knife

The Knife - UNFINISHED WORK

©2016 snakeappletree

A ‘choose-your-own’ adventure story
Closely based on real events.
AGE 18 related themes.


"Insanity is relative. It depends on who has who locked in what cage." Ray Bradbury


In this adventure you will receive Stress Points. The number of Stress Points you accumulate is called your Stress Rate. The more Stress Points you receive, the more stressed your character becomes. There is a limit to Stress Points; A Stress rate of 10 or more results in a mental-emotional breakdown. Should this event occur, turn immediately to page number 33.


1
You discover a knife in a children's play area.

Do you:
Pick it up. [GO TO 2]
Leave it where it is. [GO TO 10]

2
The knife is a folding knife. The blade is 2 inches long. You recall that a policeman once told you during a school assembly that the legal length for carrying a blade in public is less than 3 inches
Do you:
Take it. [GO TO 3]
Leave it where it is. [GO TO 10]

3
Do you:
Glow with the satisfaction that you have won a free knife from the universe? [GO TO 4]
Decide that a mature and responsible citizen would take the knife away from a children's play area and hand it into the Police to destroy it. [GO TO 4]

4
On your way back into town, a Police patrol stop and search you; justifying it by saying that you were behaving suspiciously. The Police discover the knife on you and arrest you because it is an illegal ‘lock-knife’ despite the blade being less than 3 inches. GAIN 2 STRESS POINTS
Do you:
Tell the Police that you discovered the knife in a kids playground? [GO TO 5]
Tell the Police nothing at all. [GO TO 6]

5
During the interview the policeman says that you were reported to have held the knife against a childs throat. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Deny this allegation? [GO TO 6]
Agree? [GO TO 7]

6
The Police ask you to sign the bottom of a blank piece of paper, explaining that it is for (mumble mumble confusing irrelevant reason). GAIN ONE STRESS POINT
Do you:
Sign the paperwork. [GO TO 7]
Refuse to sign the paperwork. [GO TO 20]

7
The police decide to press charges against you hoping for a conviction because you have admitted to holding a knife at a childs throat. Police psychiatrists will now interview with the intention of diagnosing you as a paranoid schizophrenic. You are looking at either jail time or high security mental ward. GAIN 10 STRESS POINTS
[GO TO 33]

8
The policeman is surprised because your intention to hand the knife in to the police shows your good character which is the opposite of the opinion he has formed on you as being somebody dangerous and anti-social. You are now free to leave. DEDUCT 1 STRESS POINT
[GO TO 9]

9
You return home to discover that your home has been burgled while you were in police custody and while the police were in possession of your front door key. There is no sign of a forced break-in. The apartment has been trashed, your property damaged.  GAIN 3 STRESS POINTS
Do you:
Contact the police immediately about the burglary. [Go to 11]
Search around to see what has been stolen and tidy up a bit. [Go to 13]

10
On the television two days later is a new article about a child who has been discovered dead from knife wounds in a playground. Police are calling for any witnesses to come forward.
GAIN 2 STRESS POINTS
Do you:
Contact the police because you saw the knife in the playground? [GO TO 14]
Stay quiet about the whole thing. [GO TO 15]

11
A police telephonist explains that having a messy apartment with no sign of a break in and nothing apparently missing is not a police matter. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT [GO TO 12]

12
The police arrive the next day to take a report about the burglary but do not actually care about it or about your loss. [GO TO 15]

13
As a dedicated musician you have music equipment. The process of making an album takes a long time. You have a pile of minidisc recordings because it tis the best possible sound quality equipment available. The content of these minidiscs is a mixture of your sounds and your final tracks for your album. The pile of minidisc recordings contains five years of your work, which is three whole albums plus the one you are currently working on, and a lot of recordings and sounds, samples, sections of songs, experiments, and so forth; relating to your finished albums.
However: these have disappeared from your apartment. You are also horrified to discover that your bass guitar has been kicked and damaged, the scratch-plate holding the dials in place has cracked.
Do you:
Contact the police about the burglary [Go to 12]
Do not trust the Police [GO TO 15]


14
The police invite you to the police station where they formally arrest you as protocol, interview you and take your fingerprints because you are now the prime suspect. As you have not directly confessed to the murder of a child, the police regard that it is probably you who left the knife in the playground, therefore that it is your knife which you should not have been carrying in public much less in a children's playground. However they have nothing to hold you on and so they let you go.
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
[GO TO 15]

15
You wrestle with your conscience. 
Do you:
Open your mail [GO TO 16]
Make some music [Make a note of this paragraph number and GO TO 32]

16
A letter arrives from your GP inviting you to see him.
Do you:
Ignore it? [GO TO 17]
Go and see the GP [GO TO 18]

17
GAME OVER

18
Your GP explains to you that he has “been informed you hear voices”
ADD 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Agree that you hear voices [GO TO 19]
Reply by saying; “Of course I hear voices Doctor, how else would I be able to answer your question?” [GO TO 19]
Deny that you hear voices. [GO TO 21]

19
The GP says “That is a classic symptom of textbook schizophrenia. I am diagnosing you as schizophrenic and recommending you to psychiatric counselling sessions at the local mental health centre.”
Do you attempt to explain to the GP that he is mis-interpreting you and that you do not actually hear voices; that the fault is a mis-communication based on that his specific question was not ‘do you hear imaginary, hallucinatory voices’ but since he is a medical and not a mental doctor, you interpreted it to mean ‘do your ears work and do you recognise language?’ [GO TO 21]
Do you accept the GPs diagnosis. [GO TO 23]
Ask the Doctor to prescribe you some valium [GO TO 30]

20
After some time in the cells and being interviewed on tape, the police let you go, having given you an official Caution. As this is your first offence (carrying a dangerous weapon) the police do not press charges on this occasion although it will be on your permanent record. The Policeman interviewing you tells you that he has no choice but to return the knife to you as it is your property.
Do you:
Hand the knife into the police. [GO TO 8]
Leave the police station with the knife in your pocket? [GO TO 9]

21
The GP explains that he has it on authority that you hear voices and that denial of hearing voices
which is a textbook symptom of classic schizophrenia, is also a symptom of schizophrenia. On this basis he recommends you to psychiatric counselling for a review by qualified specialists at the local mental health centre. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Ask the GP on whose authority he has it that you hear voices? [GO TO 22]
Accept the Doctors diagnosis. [GO TO 23]


22
The GP explains that he cannot tell you who has informed him that you are known to hear voices due to that being confidential information. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Accept the GPs diagnosis [GO TO 23]
Ask the Doctor to prescribe you some valium [GO TO 30]

23
A week later two letters arrive.
Do you:
Open the brown envelope [Go To 24]
Open the white envelope [Go To 25]
Ignore both envelopes [GO TO 17]

24
The brown envelope contains an eviction letter from the council explaining that as your rent is in arrears, they are throwing you out of your council flat. You have two weeks notice. You are 100% certain that the DWP pays your rent given that you are on benefits, no rent money passes through your hands - it goes directly from one apartment to another apartment.
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do You:
Go to the council offices to sort this out [GO TO 26]
Write back to the council [GO TO 27]
Ignore it [GO TO 28]
Open the other letter [GO TO 25]

25
The white envelope contains an appointment letter for the local Mental Health review team.
Do You:
Ignore it [GO TO 34]
Open the other letter [GO TO 24]
Attend the appointment [GO TO 31]

26
The council office is shut. It is always shut. On occasions when it is open, the person you have an appointment to see does not attend for spurious reasons. Making a new appointment results in more of the same. It is the way the Council work. You know all of this from previous experience.
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Write to the council [GO TO 27]
Open the white letter (if you have not already done so) [GO TO 25]
Visit the Chemist [GO TO 29]
Make some music [Make a note of this paragraph number and GO TO 32]

27
Writing a letter to the council.
If your STRESS RATE is 4 or above; you find writing the letter to be stressful, GAIN 1 STRESS POINT.
If your STRESS RATE is 3 or less, you do not find writing the letter to be a stressful activity.

You write an elaborate letter to the council explaining everything, that one department pays your rent directly to the other department and that none of the money passes through your hands, and that you have evidence to support the claim by form of letters previously sent to you by the various departments themselves explaining this situation. Therefore if the one department has not received the rent money from the other department, that it has absolutely nothing to do with you and is not your fault, also that you do not owe them a damn penny given that you are on state benefits and the rent is paid for by the benefits agency, not by you.
Do You:
Post it first class recorded delivery? [GO TO 35]
Post it by normal mail (ie; not recorded delivery) [GO TO 36]


28
You contemplate how this glitch in the system has occurred. It occurs to you that perhaps the Police has informed the Council illegally in respect of the Data Protection Act 1998 that you are known to have held a knife against a childs throat, and a backstage conspiracy constituting hate crime is behind this. It also occurs to you that the system workers are useless and this type of error is likely to have happened simply by mistake. It also occurs to you that human error is used as justification by abusers who have got it in for you based on slander and hearsay.
[GO TO ]


29
The chemist gives you the prescription order from the GP. You now have 3 x average strength valium pill. Each pill will reduce your Stress Rate by 50% but after you have taken 3 of these, you will require a stronger dose for the same effect. Valium is psychologically addictive. You may take one or more of these pills at any time.
Return Home [GO TO 32]
Attend the Mental Health Review [GO TO 31]

30
The Doctor writes you a prescription for some average strength valium.
You will have to collect this from a chemist.
1 average strength Valium Pill will reduce your Stress Rate by 50%
[Return to your previous Paragraph number]

31
Mental Health Review.
You explain to the state workers of the Mental Health Psychiatric Review team that you do not believe that you hear voices and there has been some mistake. They explain to you that a symptom of classic schizophrenia is denial of being schizophrenic; therefore this verifies that you are schizophrenic. GAIN 2 STRESS POINTS.
The Mental Health Review team offer you a choice of psychiatric pharmaceutical drugs for treatment of schizophrenia.
Do you:
Accept a drug which causes growth of lactating breasts in males. [GO TO 37]
Accept a drug which will give you audio hallucinations (to cure your alleged audio hallucinations). [GO TO 38]
Accept a drug which has been banned due to it causing suicidal tendencies. [GO TO 39]
Decline ALL the above psychiatric drugs [GO TO 40]

32
You record some very dark, depressing dirge-like music; however it gets some of the stress out of your system. DEDUCT 1 STRESS POINT.
[Return to your previous paragraph number]


33
It has all gotten too much for you and you cannot cope with it any more. Your mind shuts down to process the overload of stress which you are soaking up from experiences. Your biology responds by going haywire, sending floods of random hormones in random orders in an attempt to balance itself going wrong and causing further imbalances. The precise nature of a mental breakdown varies between individuals however it is recognised that you are no longer able to function in normal society.
GAME OVER
(not because this is the end of the story but because it is the end of you having any choice over the rest of your life worth writing about; and this being a choose your own adventure story rather than a novella).


34
having ignored appointment for mental review letter

35
You are satisfied that the letter will arrive at the council and will be answered because you have evidence that it was sent - thanks to having posted it by recorded delivery, the recipient will not be able to pretend they did not receive it. You make sure the receipt for the postage is in a safe place. DEDUCT 1 STRESS POINT
[GO TO ]

36
You save yourself fifty pence but you worry that the letter will be lot in the mail, or that the recipient will throw it in the bin and pretend it was lost in the mail. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
[GO TO ]

37
You are prescribed a box of 10 pills.
Every time you take 1 of these pills, DEDUCT 1 STRESS POINT
For every 1 of these pills, your breasts grow by 1 inch for the duration of the following week, after which they return to normal. When your breasts increase by 3 inches they will begin to lactate. Another side effect of this drug is that your voice rises in pitch by 1 western musical note (eg; a white piano key) per pill. If you are a man your testosterone and fertility is reduced by 50% per pill. If you are a woman your fertility increases as does your desire for motherhood.
If you want more of these pills you will have to go to your GP [Make a note of your paragraph number and GO TO 60]
For now; [GO TO ]

38
You are prescribed a box of 6 pills.
Every time you take 1 of these pills, DEDUCT 1 STRESS POINT
For every pill you take, you will begin to have audio hallucinations, such as hearing voices and other random sounds.
If this occurs while your STRESS RATE is at 6 or above [GO TO 61].
If this occurs while your STRESS RATE is 5 or less, you can cope with it by accepting it as a side effect of the drugs.
If you want more of these pills you will have to go to your GP [Make a note of your paragraph number and GO TO 60]
For now; [GO TO ]

39
Every time you take 1 of these pills, GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
If you want more of these pills you will have to go to your GP [Make a note of your paragraph number and GO TO 60]
For now; [GO TO ]

40
Is your STRESS RATE equal to 7 or less? [GO TO 41]
Is your STRESS RATE equal to 8 or above? [GO TO 42]


41
The psychiatric team identify that you are not dangerous to yourself or society. They explain that because you have attended the review of your own volition and are refusing to accept any of the chemicals they have offered for treatment, there is nothing else they can do. They will put on your medical record that you have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia by a GP and that you will have to get a second opinion from a different GP to change that, although there is a chance a second GP will verify the diagnosis as correct. They do not believe you require to be ‘Sectioned’ (psychiatry terminology for ‘dragged away and locked up by men in white coats against your will’) - at this time.
Go Home [GO TO 43]


42
The psychiatric team identify that you are highly stressed. This is itself not a dangerous mental illness. A note is made of this in your case file. [GO TO 41]

43
A letter has arrived in a brown envelope.
Do you:
Open it [GO TO 44]
Ignore it [GO TO 45]

44
The letter is from the DWP (department for work and pensions) and explains that because you missed an appointment at the JobCenter, your benefits have been stopped. The letter explains that you can Appeal if you believe they have made a mistake. You will also have to make an appointment to make a new claim for benefits. GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Go to the JobCenter to get an Appeal form and Benefits Claim form [GO TO 46]
Phone the DWP help-line to get the paperwork posted to you [GO TO 47]

45
ignore DWP letter

46
go to jobcenter for appeal & claim forms
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
Do you:
Look in the Job Centre computers to see if there are any appropriate jobs? [GO TO 53]

47
phone dwp for appeal & claim forms

48
Filling in the Appeal Form and Benefit Claim Form there is a section which asks if there is anybody else to help you with this.
Do you decide that you can cope with it yourself [GO TO 49]
Do you decide that you require somebody to help you with it [GO TO 50]

49
You fill in the Appeal Form and post it to the DWP.
Do you send it by recorded delivery? [GO TO 51]
Do you send it by normal post? [GO TO 52]

50
Due to your recent involvement with the Mental Health Review team, you have been allocated a Social Worker who recognises you are having trouble from the system and invites you to see her in her office. She basically can jump you through the hoops so far as paperwork is concerned. DEDUCT 3 STRESS POINTS.
[GO TO ]

51
appeal form by recorded delivery

52
appeal form not by recorded delivery
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
The DWP deny ever having received your Appeal Letter.

53
There are currently 3 available jobs to apply for in the Job Centre database:
Supermarket Shelf Stacking [GO TO 54]
Public Toilet Cleaner [GO TO 55]
Fast Food Fryer [GO TO 56]
Decide that none of those jobs are worth doing [GO TO 57]

54
You are invited to attend interview for: Supermarket Shelf Stacker.
During the interview you are asked if you have any previous experience? (+1)
Any history of involvement with the police (-1)
Any history of mental illness (-1)
You are permitted to lie about this, although doing so constitutes fraud which is a criminal activity.
Add up your points.
If you have zero or more points [GO TO 65]
If you have less than zero points [GO TO 66]


55
You are invited to attend interview for: Public Toilet Cleaner.
During the interview you are asked if you have any previous experience? (+1)
Any history of involvement with the police (-1)

Any history of mental illness (-1)
You are permitted to lie about this, although doing so constitutes fraud which is a criminal activity.
Add up your points.
If you have zero or more points [GO TO 65]
If you have less than zero points [GO TO 66]

56
You are invited to attend interview for: Fast Food Fryer.
During the interview you are asked if you have any previous experience? (+1)
Any history of involvement with the police (-1)

Any history of mental illness (-1)
You are permitted to lie about this, although doing so constitutes fraud which is a criminal activity.
Add up your points.
If you have zero or more points [GO TO 65]
If you have less than zero points [GO TO 66]

57


58
The interview form asks if you have a history of mental health problems.
The interview form asks if you have a criminal record.
Technically a caution is not a criminal record, it will not show up on a basic background check but it will show up on a detailed background check.
Lying on an application form constitutes fraud and this itself is a criminal offence.
If you answer Yes to either of these questions [GO TO 62]
If you answer No to both of these questions [GO TO 63]
If you throw the interview form in the bin [GO TO 59]


59



60
go to doctor for more pills from the mental health place


61
prescribed hallucinatory pharmacology drugs get too much to cope with


62
You never hear back from this job application.
Return to you previous paragraph number.


63
The letter is an invitation to attend an interview for the job!


64


65
Congratulations, you have got the job!
You will now be able to economically stabilize your life and prove that you are a reliable member of society.
GAME OVER

66
Unfortunately your application was unsuccessful at this time.
GAIN 1 STRESS POINT
If you would like to apply for a different job [GO TO 53]
If you would like to go and make some music [GO TO 32]

67
Attempting to retrieve a copy of mental health medical records.
You are informed that your case file has been lot by the NHS.