Kohl Club 17

Femri radio-telescope 5-year view of Gamma emissions with constellations

"When the Time is Right" Bryan Charleywood

The Kohl Club is a magickal place. The masonic forms obeyed have manifest as a specific grid with allocatable references. It is an experiment but it is also by process, mastery.

It occupies a mathematical precision which resonates through mass-time (space and event). This harmony is a grid, a vortice. Kohl Club exists in a digital dream of Virtual Reality. It exists in all visitors to it, to whom it is connected energetically.

Comprehension of importance of number 7 in our practical working context can be found HERE. The symbol 7 is of import for it mirrors Gamma: together these two components form a Tau Cross, the column as direct path to Horizon. As Ankh: to Divinity symbolized as Circle of wholeness.

Observation that 70 viewers observed the original Kohl Club blog within its first 21 minutes, then 170 observers viewed it within its first 13 hours. 

This weekend Friday the 13th followed by SaturnDay the 14th (7+7). Tomorrow 3x5=15th will be SunDay (in our context of 'Black and Gold' this will be JoveDay). Alignments. We can recognize the grid and those who dance it, those who conform to it, and those who avert it (three castes). Catalysts and Slaves.

This filler blog is waffle about the excitement of getting somewhere recently having been developing the Kohl Club VR build texturally and it's fittings. It exists as a link between esoteric subject matter of recent blogs and how they 'inspire' my art. This alone justifies its existence.

The Kohl Club is a goth nightclub influenced by Aegyptian magickal ritual of the Hermetic school (astro-numerology).

Minecraftian Matrix

"You shouldn't let poets lie to you." Bjork

Watch Video Here

My Associated Blogs on the theme of Saturn / Black Cube:

Black Cube

Time Code

the Grand Gridding

Alchemical secrets of kaleidoscopic rotoscopic multiverse:  

MOTION DEFINES CONFIGURATION

the difference between a Sorcerer and a Mundane is 

(Super-ego) Reflex Reactionary verses  (Aware) Holistic Decisive Catalytic

(Yin/Yang controls Yang/Yin)

"Didn't know what the Box was." Pinhead

the Grand Gridding

14 - 1 - 17

Black And Gold

Saturn And Jupiter

At this time in accordance with Gregorian calendar system, the motifs 

111

and 

4 7

are today's portal.

signing mofo government forms

There is a cosmic relationship between Saturn and Jupiter.

In Astro-Numerics (Astological Numerology):

4 is the symbol which represents the Zodiac symbol Jupiter.
7 is the numeric symbol which represents the Zodiac symbol Saturn - in its relation with Jupiter.

NB traditionally within this system, Saturn is symbolized by 5. We are making a specification here for a precise purpose. It is important to be aware of this. To understand Why we do this, we must first understand the associated concepts.

The two planets are circling one another as yin-yang, a distillation machine. Their symbols refer to this (most of the zodiac symbols do). The cognitive switch from Astro-glyph to Numeric-glyph requires a small amount of leeway to comprehend this process. There is also the 'looking back through time' and 'looking to the future' aspects which enable the symbols not only to be overlaid but also exchanged for some purposes.

Radiance (through/of)  Time
 

The Grand Gridding

What happens Now is both the magnitude of events in their simplest form which, acts now will resonate, develop, repeat and empower through the future. Also, events Now are the culmination-consequence of Past minimalizing into a singularity purity. It is the final stage before the grids of old blow out into the 4th refraction*, that diaspora where they case to hold form and become into the void.

Saturn is associated with Time and the arrangement of matter (mass) therefore Events gridded in time. For our purposes, it's colour is BLACK.

Jupiter is associated with Grandeur, Confidence and Joviality, with Magnitude, Expression and Radiance. For our purposes, its colour is GOLD. 

the Nexus point

Not only do their zodiac symbols combine to form a Sigil, also the concepts associated with those Gas Giant heavenly bodies (whose mass is so light that these two 'planets' would float if placed into a large enough body of water) also combine to form a third concept.

The FLOW is the CORE which is a Yin liquid flexibility. It is the Nexus and it becomes the new consensus grid format. The old grid, assertive solid Yang, is shed like a serpent casting off its skin, falls into obsolescence.

This is an important gate. The planets Saturn and Jupiter are approaching a position in Astrology called Squaring; they are Squared to each other. This is significant. The current astrology is explained superbly by Kaypasha in his Pele Report, who uses the masonic core book of Astrology, HERE. We are at the time where the form of the new Yan which is the old Yin can be observed in its minimalist purity as a singular form, which over the forthcoming era will manifest through many different complexities, variations, versions.

We are using the motif 7 to represent this Yin flow rather than 5 because the 5 represents the solidity of the old Yang. These aspects of Jupiters great emanation through Saturnalian Time are significant. 7 is the motion while 5 is the stability. 7 is the purified singularity resulting from compression by experience of the old cycle Yang 5 acting upon it.

7 is the Key which unlocks these secrets of energy set in form (mass) over time.

6 would be the motion of the turning. This is not the same thing as the motion of the progressive energy flowing through that gate system.

In attempt to explain this relationship between Black and Gold / Saturn and Jove, I created a device where Black and Gold are gridded by dividing each component into two components, Gridded (Stable) and Motion (Unstable). One effects the other in different combinations. 

 

[GOLD   moving]

[GOLD   gridded]

[BLACK gridded]               [BLACK moving]

...  create a sort of basic chess set.

The use of this motif in popular culture is found in my blog Decker and Deckard. 

Wave Function symbol is PSI also the symbol for 'Psychic'
Neptune associates with deep typically subconscious emotions
ergo it is Aquarian symbol for 'telempathy' (sunken-emergent aspect)

As an aside, I need also to put here this associated and interesting website about 

Zodiac symbols for Planetary Moons

*The 4th refraction: 

In Islam it is described that a Generation is not understood in terms of biological regenerations but rather in energetic proximity of understanding and closeness with Source. The first three generations are a process of social customization for purposes of practicality. The 4th generation are not recognized as being connected with the Source, it is outside of its boundaries because it has mutated too much to be of any recognition. It is polluted.

An individual born a thousand years after the time of the prophet may still be of the first, second or third generation if s/he is energetically and perceptually connected with that Source of divinity. This is the original intended meaning of the term 'generation' as in 'authenticity.'

It is quite different from '80s generation were all into cyberpunk but by the 2010s a few generations later the genre had changed significantly due to most of its components no longer being fiction but readily available.'

Decker And Deckard

Ridley Scott meets Roleplay

... 

Decker: 

Source:    Shadowrun (FASA corp)

Fitted with a cranial jack socket, a Decker can access a shared cyber-environment through mental-over-ride of perceptual functions.

The term 'Matrix' to describe a transitory digital dream of computer realm was coined by FASA for Shadowrun. 

It fed on the subconscious Id (ego, id and super-ego from Freudian / Jungian psychology model) of any Decker who jacked in. 

This concept has been used as inspiration by many cyberpunk, sci-fi-noir and anime film-makers and explored in many ways.

Computer + Mind = reptilian cortex (post-millennial associations)

cubic domecile

Deckard: 

Source:   Blade Runner 

              (Ridley Scott)

Film Noir Private Investigator motif.

Retires 'Skin Job' Replicants. 

Rephrase that;

Kills Rogue Androids. 

It's in a name.
Deck is a deck of cards.

Many possibilities yet within a limited range.

Card derives from the French word Cartouche and originally described the Tarot book from which modern playing cards developed.

Tarot is ancient Aegyptian.

Androids:

"More Human than Human." Tyrell Corporation

"I prefer the term Artificial People" Bishop, Alien movie

Androids are robots with no emotions. Throughout paranoid popular science-fiction of the 21st century, Androids which develop emotions become a hazard. Emotions are recognized to be a hazard.

Computers, Cards and Chess - Enochian Grids and the Matrix

See also my blog The Grand Gridding for further information about this.

[section TBC]

Blade Runner IS Aegyptian Ritual Magick

Imagery as Cartouche. Tarot symbology. Elements and Energetic Essence. Video as Portal.

[section TBC]

Example One: Grids & Gold 

Umbrella and Jump = Triangle

2x 'Black' characters and 2x 'Gold' characters
 are either 'gridded' (their head touches a black and white chess board)
or are 'in motion' (their head touches a moving triangle)

NB third level - 3 Chinese Words become 3 lines of text (gold)

landing - NB gold umbrella and Atari logo

"All these, moments; will be lost, in time." Roy Batty

ritual Altar in foreground, note Shell (seen also in Zora scene)

Example 2: Rachel As Shakti

Goddess Shakti divine consort of Shiva

Rachel the Replicant

 And now for something completely different 

... 

BladeRunner Deckard

Firefly, browncoat

Abstract Express

INTRO

"Abstract expressionism is the term applied to new forms of abstract art developed by American painters such as Jackson Pollock, Mark Rothko and Willem de Kooning in the 1940s and 1950s, often characterised by gestural brush-strokes or mark-making, and the impression of spontaneity"

"The abstract expressionists were mostly based in New York City, and also became known as the New York school. The name evokes their aim to make art that while abstract was also expressive or emotional in its effect. They were inspired by the surrealist idea that art should come from the unconscious mind, and by the automatism of artist Joan Miró."

http://www.tate.org.uk/learn/online-resources/glossary/a/abstract-expressionism

ASIDE

Abstraction is more than a visual style. It is a philosophy which applies to many levels of cognition and perception, arguably the focus Therefore the focus is on Psychology as much as it is to derive an emotional reaction in the observer. Emology. 

At present the word Emology is new to our language. The only online resource available at present to define it gives as its definition the association with a specific millenial subculture emerging from the gathering Of Tribes era at the  end of the 20th century. Emo culture is well defined; in America it routes from PunkRock, in Britain it routes from IndiePop movement. Emo is distinct from Goth, Metal, Punk and Rock although in the general banner it falls under the myriad of

"The study of the Emo culture.

Usually people majoring in this field will find emo hair very attractive and have the urge to pet it."

Alex: Whoa! Look at that guy's emo hair!!

Gracie: It's so pretty! We should pet it!
Karen: *runs up and asks if we can pet his hair*
Heather: *writes down in Emology book*

 

#emo #scene #emo hair #emology #my little pony

 

by graciegarcia March 02, 2008

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Emology

Ted Polhemus, Street Styles, 1994

However, for the purposes of Academia and its involvement with the art world, also expanding beyond that, I intend to use the word Emology in a wider sense than does the subculture. Emology is knowledge of Emotional realms by the same rationale that Psychology is knowledge of the Psyche or Mental realms. 

At this point it is also imperative to determine and differentiate between Psychic as in ESP abilities and Psychic as in 'of the mind'. These are two distinct arena's which very often  cross over and for which the same word is used to describe both. As we are progressing into the 21st century it is logical to distinguish between these by the use of more appropriate terminology. Simply that we need to avoid confusion justifies this. 

With chemical pharmacology funded State mental health paradigm being what it is (restrictive, limited and incorrect) and the social development of ever-increasingly public-about-their-abilities psychic human beings facing grotesque volumes of persecution and repression from so many directions, as even the official history books are still full of references to, development and use of a language which is not confusing is necessary. 

With increase in awareness of Empathy (developing through CyberPunk into Post-CyberPunk era through the Philip K Dick inspired 1982 movie Blade Runner) such millennial terms as 'Telempathy' (telempathic empathy) coined to describe spiritual evolutions as a natural part of the Age of Aquarius consciousness into which we are now emerging. 

This is relevant to Abstract Expressionism as a transensory visual art form: 

"aim to make art that while abstract was also expressive or emotional in its effect" (emology)

"art should come from the unconscious mind" (psychology)

art of telempathic consciousness

MAIN

Within abstract expressionism were two broad groupings:

"The action painters worked in a spontaneous improvisatory manner often using large brushes to make sweeping gestural marks. The action painters directly placed their inner impulses onto the canvas."

"The second grouping were deeply interested in religion and myth and created simple compositions with large areas of a single colour intended to produce a contemplative or meditational response in the viewer."

"In an essay written in 1948 Barnett Newmann said: ‘Instead of making cathedrals out of Christ, man, or ‘’life’’, we are making it out of ourselves, out of our own feelings’.

http://www.tate.org.uk/learn/online-resources/glossary/a/abstract-expressionism

Rene Magritte, The Treachery Of Images, 1929

Jungian Psychology with its embrace of the Shadow Self and shamanic exploration of the Symbolic as portal from both individual and the collective unconscious emerges into the Aquarian 21st century as reference to universal consciousness (telempathic transition). 

Abstract Expressionism is directly emotional rather than visual symbolic. By this method it avoids the cognitive dissonance of early 20th century philosopher-artists. 

TBC ...

Development Steps

from Imagination to Original Vision 

through Text to Concept Art

from Manuscript to Production Budget

from Idea to Execution 

 

For example: 

©imagery from The Never Ending Story
used non-profit for educational purposes

or


MAKE YOUR OWN

Cyberpunk 3D Challenge

3D Build Challenge.

> Build a scene in one sitting.

> Use no pre-made components. 

> Does not have to be photo-representational, artistic license applies. 

> Better textures can be added later.
> low-prim / low-poly / low-lag is better than liquid curves.

Here is tonight's challenge:

CYBERPUNK STREET

In all probability ALL of these challenges are going to be cyberpunk streets. 

If we all did one each a night we would have a whole city done very quickly. 

Especially with asset-sharing.

image from Cyberpunk Science Fiction and Culture Facebook Group


 - 6 hours later -
damn, looks like i got distracted again
have been uploading useful cyberpunk pillars into my SL VR build
instead of focus on the Challenge at hand

 

to be continued ...



view my half-arsed SL blog series HERE




Next Week's Project:

The trick is to make these builds modular so each building can be re-arranged next to any of the other buildings from any of the scenes. Keep it low-poly. At some point a procedural generator will become available to upload all these modular cyberpunk buildings into.

Important discussion on SCALE must occur if anyone wants in on this challenge. Me I work to this: a person measures approx 2m x 1m x 0.5m therefore a door space measures approx 3m x 2m while a standard ceiling is approx 4.5m or 5m high. 

This scale IS larger than real life compared with the size of the character, however in a video game environment you need that - the doors large enough to easily walk through, the shoulder space for the camera to show the character instead of the carpet of the floor above.

Check this out! 

Cultural Compromise

FantasyReality blog series

WARNING

The information contained in this blog may offend some and educate others. 

Simply because it is the Truth. 

The state paperwork about me is bogus.

When I asked for evidence that their hearsay and allegations are founded in truth, they panicked. Afraid i would win were I to take their department to court. It coincided with a benefits claim which required their signature. As a response they backed my claim entirely and the government were instructed to give me a fat sum of money, larger than what i would have go by suing the NHS mental health quango. This is basically how it works in the real world. I am exonerated for my involvement with corruption because of my help a group of people have secure employment and all they have to do is fabricate evidence about me. For example when i complain that their paperwork is fictional with no evidence, they write about my paranoia of state workers being symptomatic of my condition.

I believe this has relevance here having in previous blogs mentioned the metatheater and this series exploring the affinities between roleplay and reality.

Suis Juris, I am sane, probably one of the most sane people you will ever encounter. Two teams of psychiatrists and three surgeries of GPs cannot doctor their way into incriminating me sufficiently even to get one chemical pill down my throat much less have me sectioned for anti-socialism. I complain every step of the way that i am misdiagnosed and the doctors are manipulating myself and the system for their own financial gain. The proof of my sanity is my behavior, I do nothing untoward aside from having to deal with an unusually large percentile of narcissistic personality disorder liars readily eager to manipulate my misdiagnosis into their schemes, everybody knows the guy is crazy, social stigma, to justify their abuse games. I go through life exposing abusers and they call me names and throw money at me to shut me up about it. Spoken words autistically easy to ignore. The shrinks have got it wrong but they can never admit to that because they don't want me to sue them. So they cover it up which works in everybodies favour. This is how society works in the really real world. It is not how I want it to work but my voice is discredited by those who hide behind the bureaucratic mask of professional authority.

Traditionally doctors take the hypocratic oath. What is hypocrisy?

And so this has been my experience of FantasyReality projected onto me by other people. The more I object the further they twist that objection into perceived proof of non-conformity. A schizophrenic duality which Orwell described as double-think is not a path I chose, it is one which state society has entangled me into for its own gain. The consequence, I am unemployable due to dogma of what bogus paperwork says, means that my time is my own, I get paid to tell the truth to anyone who will listen and my online readership numbers literally thousands to whom I am very grateful for your attention-energy, it fills me with satisfaction that my otherwise pointless existential nightmare has some merit after all, that I am contributing to the community in some lasting and meaningful way despite having been alienated by prejudice more than most people are willing to face up to. 

© image from Minority Report, used for educational purposes

They project their dogma, their reptilian grid, their consensus onto me. I have little say in the matter and complain about it until they give me money to shut me up and then i take the money and  live a better life which i am unable to live otherwise because of the dogma which they project onto me. This is not of my choosing. I am not defined by other people and their manipulations and false versions of me.

An artist can climb a tree to get a result without it being an act of a mad person. He can justify the activity because of his purpose, his class, his mission, his task, his role in society. He is not a monkey. He is not suffering delusions. He is not trapped in flight mode and seeking to escape the street. He simply wants to see what it looks like from up here so that he can draw perspective better. Why would he need a better perspective? Because he is an artists and that is what they do. 

Such activities result in misdiagnosis of insanity by people with no life experience outside of the institute, people who are trapped in boxes and receive their instructions from a robot full of outdated misinformation designed to perpetuate the pharmacology industry instead of curing dis-eases. People do not climb trees that is what monkeys do ergo he believes himself to be a monkey. This whole thing about perspective shows that in daily tasks of walking up the street he is incapable and therefore he is now officially delusional and unfit for normal activities.

Having doctored his record, writ the script, the doctor returns to his trance state of admiring a particularly appropriate painting on his office wall, the one window he has into a less grey and less boxed in world, a painting made by an artist who climbed trees. The irony is lost to the doctor who despite years of medical schooling has not developed the advanced perception required to appreciate that his authoritative position of power in society is relevant only under the strictures of that society and does not take into account the wider picture. The doctors office wall is simply not large enough to contain a widescreen landscape which the artist is currently working on in his garret. 

Other blogs in the FantasyReality blog series: 

Streamlined Lives

Art Class

Cultural Compromise

Art Class

FantasyReality blog series

Following from Streamlined Lives, I encountered this by Neal Litherland :

Make People Interact With Your Character (Not Your Class)

Immediately I was struck again with the concept of recognizing the differences and similarities between fictional roleplaying games and our experienced reality.

Most especially, what we can learn from one which applies equally to the other as revelationary.

My real life 'class' is Middle, something the evil corporate government are doing everything imaginable to remove from society (and along with it, culture) in their pursuit of expanding the distance between the 'haves' and 'have nots'.

I can expand on this. Officially my academic qualification and training is the very middle class bacheloreate with honours degree in the Fine Arts, to make it sound more posh than 'i did art school'. My class therefore is 'Artist'. This is perhaps the most diverse social caste of all. I can and have rubbed shoulders with millionaires and beggars, masonic elite and druggies, rapists and trauma victims, shamen and scientists, archeologists and policemen, parents and rockstars, hookers and bureacrats, teachers and monks, and many others. I have a diverse range of experience from discussing with these people many aspects of this life and their experiences of it. Most people I encounter have very limited social circles restricted to their own types of people. I am not judgemental, were I to be I would be less effective.

Another important fact setting an artist as an outasider from mainstream society is what artists get away with. On one occasion I simply had to climb through the mesh fence to get a photograph from that particular restricted vantage. Similar in cocky bravado to how a journalist must work. The police observing my antics let me off for tresspass as soon as I explained that I am an award winning artist and the photograph is worth a lot of money.

Time to relate a true story from a group I knew who were playing Minds Eye Theater's Vampire Live Action rpg one night in town, the meta-theater, using real facilities (bars, castle, scenic views, etc) also being used in realtime by real people. 

The police were interested in a particular candle lit ceremony where one goth chick laying in the center of a pentagram on top of a grave in the local churchyard was being ritually sacrificed including candles, chanting, fake blood, arcane words and hooded cloaks and a plastic toy sword from the pound shop. The police were understandably nervous at encountering the spectacle one snowy winter friday night in the middle-class medieval market town functioning as a backdrop to the scenario.

"Are you art students?" The beat cop asked hesitantly.

"Yes officer." replied the quick thinking Storyteller (gamesmaster).

The cops laughed nervously with relief that they had not encountered some terrifying crime involving dark energies beyond their imagination.

"Oh no worries. Don't leave a mess."

Art students. The most magick words uttered during the whole incantation, dispelling the problematic authority who whisked themselves away rapidly into the snowflaky darkness and were never heard from again. Had the Larpers replied "no officer, we are exorcising a demonic spirit from our vampiric brethren and one of us is a werewolf" the crew would have invited trouble on themselves which would have made the demon seem like childs play.

A story worth relating which illustrates the point, that the Artist in society does not have the same boundaries restricting their creativity as do most other classes of citizen, and that even now this is accepted. Artists having to justify why they are doing whatever peculiar activity usually can do so and will bore any judger types to death with it. So people simply let them get on with it. They make their money if they are lucky and notoriety from doing weird shit supposed to make others think and admire their skill. 

C'est ne pas une pipe.  50 views of empty spaces.  Smelly condom collection. 

Artists like Arkham inmates function from obsessive out-of-the-box forms of self-contained logic and if they are any good will come up with the goods to visually and increasingly as art theory develops, mentally, stimulate the experiencer.

The Gamesmaster explains that I cannot have Artist as a character class because it is too broad based. I must specialize. I protest, "but darling, then I would not be a real artist." Digression assured.

I am actually looking for affordable artists to illustrate particular rpg products, please contact me at snakeappletree@gmail.com with links to your folio and tariff. 

Other blogs in the FantasyReality blog series: 

Streamlined Lives

Art Class

Cultural Compromise

Recrudescence

Recrudescence

"Recrudescence is the revival of material or behavior that had previously been stabilized, settled, or diminished. In medicine, it is usually defined as the recurrence of symptoms after a period of remission or quiescence, in which sense it can sometimes be synonymous with relapse."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDpRRJzLRwc

A melancholy day within a cloud occasional rain, re-purposing the past, fitting together all the confused moments of the past six months which made little sense at the time too busy to take it on.
Trying to find a way - the right way - to express lessons and where it has gotten us today.

Acceptance. It is all about acceptance and letting go. Facing that which we can not let go of and wondering what the best thing to do with it is.

Our mood amplifies through those we hold in our hearts, be they full of hate or love or desperation. We resonate, a torsion field effect electromagnetic invisible to all but sensitives and the senses. We resonate and can pinpoint with precision accuracy who, what, where, how, why, this colorful disharmony or otherwise, emanates. It comes from within, not the self core but from the overlay of another with whom we occupy this exact precise same space, both sitting at the center of a web, both the same ting and sharing a moment. there is comfort in this.

Although the mood is muted, blue-grey, sullen and too stubborn to act on instinct because the ego steps in and kicks the shit into our attempts at honesty. Programmed to believe that decency is to do the opposite of what comes natural. We have a long way to go before we can look ourselves in the eye over this one. Speaking as a species, we need the right people in the right places for the flow to be able to flow.

Half of them are Judgers and that is the big problem for empaths, the Judgers put inhibitors and blockages where we need there to be open spaces and feelings of comfort. We learn to judge ourselves harshly because we are told we do not fit in, we do not conform to their rigid ruled society, slavery.

So we secretly build our own society away from them, outside of their understanding. We build it from within ourselves, sending such strong thoughts, feelings, comforts, colours of healing, feelings of reassurance that even though we blew it before back then when things were less settled and we were caught up in so much entanglement, deep down we are alright and there is no problem. We step outside of material time to do this. We have this ability and the Judgers appear not to. This is our space, outside of time where we feel group comfort. This is how we are evolving. This is where we belong and Love without compromise.

This year we are building a new world, fearless because this Love is accepting. Even if in the material world we reject and resent, behind all that ugly facade we know we are the same and allies and one. The tension is the pain between being that openly and knowing that only as a theory while using the veils and excuses not to get on. Histories and beliefs, delusions and confusions, get in the way of simplicity, elegance, laughing together in peace.

We are an evolving species and the path is not clear of obstacles. But we can imagine it being so and at times of inner harmony we are already there. Six months of stress and now in a clear moment the equilibrium returns. Love, there is only Love, the highest vantage from which all other becomes immediately transparent and recognizable for what it is. So many people living mistakes, deluded, chasing the wrong paths. I was one of them. In all probability I will return to being one of them within a short space of time. Right here and now outside of time, these words are shaped to remind.

Hedonic Engineering

When a neurological system bonds with plastic, it causes cancer.

When a neurological system bonds with plastic vibrators, it deforms the nerves. In much the same way as a coffee or chocolate addict's taste buds grow to identify with that particular flavour, and then when more grow, they require that particular flavour to feel comfort. Our bodies physically change to adapt to the food we repeatedly feed them.

When a neurological system adapts to a human neurological system, penis and vagina nerves, electrical signals are passed between the two people. The electrical polarity charge is unique to every individual. Males and females both carry different spectrum of pulses designed to balance and harmonize the other.

When a male is attempting to neurologically bond with a female who regularly uses vibrators, her attunement is deformed and it affects the natural ability for male and female nerves to balance one another. The deep bond which can occur between sexual partners and is spoken about and studied actively by tantra practitioners is not possible if the females nerves are tuned to a dildo instead of a penis. It takes literally several months of abstaining from a dildo and regularly using a penis before her body begins to fix itself enough for that deep bond to begin. In the meantime he is receiving a dose of toxic attunement from her deformed electric signal.

This is not fiction, this is actually what happens when a woman uses a dildo instead of a man. It creates an inability for their bodies to combine into one nervous system which vibrates harmoniously to nature. Instead they vibrate to the spectrum of plastic, which is carcinogenic.

If you enjoy sex enough to be doing it with a plastic toy, you need to be in a relationship.

 

Hedonic Engineering - "A phrase coined by Timothy ('turn on, tune in, drop out') Leary and Robert Anton Wilson to describe techniques of sexual reimprinting to overcome negative sexual imprinting by societal and/or parental influences. Some people use Leary's and Wilson's techniques in their scenes.”  - https://www.squidge.org/novad/Primer/Definitions.html

This is the closest term I can find to re-attuning the human organism to function normally when combined with another human organism after use of dildo’s.

A Silent Scent

an anonymous Naked Lunch inspired illustration

(another) one of those nights.

the sort you have when you are re-treading old ground, not sure if it's your own footsteps or another's coming up the hall of time, treading water in the dusky light of an oil lens mind.

the sort of night when she is nothing more than a lingering memory and the silky salty taste of tar and drink, a scent on the air where the slats over an open window filter particles of possible worlds into the slipstream of an endless, timeless moment. 

one of those nights when you know you have been here too long but the movie is still about to begin just like it always was.

the phone rings, distracting me from working. it's her agent asking me to meet, sounds flustered. I find myself halfway down the hall throwing on a borrowed jacket and i find myself, waking to a world softened by the creamy prosaic. 

Ahead the music of the cities background charms seduce me through its streets until i find myself again knocking on her door, how many times, there's no counting. 

A bolt slides with a clunk and I'm drunk enough to boldly step inside. Trouble is this is not the same room as before, something has changed I can't quite place my finger on it.

It is so tempting to edit this and describe that as being a Silent Scent on the air ... changes the meaning significantly. At what point do you decide the language is worth more than the intended meaning of the story, engaging with the ancient rite of sacrificial accuracy a blasphemy to some, nectar to others who sup of the hedonistic delights, smoke rising from feelings to illuminate the night in colours of a hidden twist, not to be missed if you have a heart for it and yet a poison to those born of day and drinking light.

A writer and an agent perchance would make these choices together for the vitality of a text, irrelevant to ninety-nine percent who happen upon this text but oh so damn critically important at that frozen moment of self-acclaim regarding repute and skill as a developing word worker narcissistic with inevitable self comparison to the role all writers assume, illustrative of challenges they go through.

People hate that level of decision making and writers are notorious for it. Just write the damn book says everyone in the industry and fans alike. The sort of fan which jams in its slow spin from a ceiling, stirring up air like a trawler dredging a sewer which once used to be the sea of promise.

When it gets to that stage of head-up-its-own-ass self-indulgence the very best thing to do is delete the text and free the words and concepts for some other future aspirational initiate to find and reform, the way they always do.

Can't do it though because right now this very moment the attachment is still so strong. When you can not tell if it is the best or very worst thing you ever wrote or read, that is when to shut the lid and step outside and put the thing to bed.

When a writer begins writing about writing, it is no longer valid, it has become an indulgence, the trap all writers face eventually.

And there she lay, the change upon her quite beautifully evident. Surrounded by black ink stain of words and letters melting into the carpet, furniture, clothes, her body face down on her favored rug, still as dead.

In her hand a pistol and her last novel dis-arrayed around her, a long and detailed suicide note apparently, a story worth reading.

The agent aghast had missed that one vital clue only a lover would know. The pistol loose in her open right hand upturned. The dame is not right handed.

So begins the first chapter of A Silent Scent, a penny dreadful abandoned before all Hope and followed by the sound of a paper being torn from a typewriter, crumpled and thrown into the heap surrounding the waste paper basket in the corner of a staling room.

Another swig from the bottle and another take on the matter entirely.

  
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