Thursday, 22 November 2018

Male Domestic Abuse Survivor

Back in counseling, because the state she left me in after invading my life. A service which I am paying for because I need it ASAP and the free charity services relied on by the state have an eighteen month waiting list for men because women get “emergency” preferential treatment. 

It was not until I read this website;

did I recognize that I had been putting up with domestic abuse. In my recent relationship, in previous relationships and all through my life. 

I’d thought all that crap was normal; because I experienced it most of my life in most of my relationships including from my parents during childhood. I had thought there was something wrong with me because an unrecognized feeling of discomfort and wrongness about what is expected of me and relationship routines I had accepted because I thought that was normal.  

I only recognized it as actually being abusive when I saw it listed in bullet point, and identified that’s what I’ve been through. Repeatedly. 

Almost the entire social recognition of domestic abuse and certainly that recognized by the court system, is that men are unilaterally abusive and women are unilaterally victims. It just ain’t so! 

It’s a cultural thing, not just personal to me. That I am a communicator and have been through so much of it, it’s obvious I’m going to be talking about it. 

A lot of the time, the abusers do not even recognize what they’re doing is abusive and neither do the victims. It is being culturally reinforced that it is normality for her to abuse him in a variety of ways and get away with it, partly because everybody knows the program; “we live in a male dominated culture and women are vulnerable!” We are told this every week! Because it serves an agenda!

Nobody thought it was wrong to have Negro slaves at the time in history where that was normal and everyday for a lot of people. 

Nobody outside of Islam thinks it is wrong to use a usury based currency system because it’s so normal to us, despite once having understood how the financial system works, it creates a black hole of debt that gets bigger exponentially, devaluing everything requiring more lending and higher interest rates in an endless loop. 

How can women get away with domestic abuse so often? Here are three reasons; 

  1. Because nobody recognizes that’s what it is. 

  1. Nobody stands up against it. Why don’t men stand up against their abusive girlfriends and tell them to fuck off? Because men need sex and women apparently don’t, at least that’s how most of them act toward most men most of the time and men are damned if we openly discuss it and suggest that women do actually need recreational sex regularly too. Abusers use sex as leverage to exploit and control men, the pleasure they get is from that as much empowerment and control as it is physical. It is controlling behavior, it is abuse. 

  1. As soon as a victim of a narcissistic abuser recognize what is happening to them, the narcissist shouts and cries about how their victim is the abuser and they have been victimized. It is all about supply to them, except they call it support. As a result men are afraid to stand up against their abusers in case society punished them for it - which it ties, often involving police and legal system who unquestioningly protect the female and endorse her lies. 

This is what the mgtow movement (men going their own way) is about; recognizing the one thing of value which women have to men in modern times is sexual. It is also about the man recognizing his own worth.

Yet most of us desire to be in dedicated monogamous stable relationships. When people come together who can rise above all of that and maintain a level above all else, to enjoy mutual pleasure of each other without the accompanying bullshit. Without taking energy from a partner which is the black hole system of destruction all over again. 

It is about being respectable (deserving of being respected) by being respectable (in how we behave). 

Tuesday, 6 November 2018

narcissism cult

narcissism cult

Internet cult of narcissism is the 5th Wave feminism designed to segregate and control by persecuting males. It relies on triggering and embedding paranoid fear responses in females towards males. Remember, humanity and evolution is about communication, comprehension and integration!

Less than basic qualification level psychology training is imprinted onto the masses who re-affirm the paradigm by finding common frame of reference through it. A system to analyze behaviors which so few people question is corrupt and designed to create the results intended by an agenda.
A pattern is presented. Analyze the behavior of the people who you are closest with. Identify whether it conforms to the pattern.
The pattern in it self is inaccurate. Therefore it’s analysis is not correct. People behaving accordingly, are enacting routines of destruction, both their own and the closest ones.
Leverage. Where peoples behaviour does not conform to the pattern, to fake it as excuse to react as if it does, creates ongoing cognitive bias, is symptomatic of narcissism [in this context], is manipulation and fabrication. Re-interpretation the observed to conform it to pattern instead of accepting the original intent which does not conform to pattern.
The outcome is used to justify the abusive behaviour. The justification of non-accountability is relied on as it to excuse the perpetrators behavior. By imposing a non-accurate pattern into a situation, just to instil a sensation of control and describe it as empowerment, where the same behaviour outside of the filter of the cults pattern, is abuse.

Females are being targeted, men are being alienated. A part of the corruption embedded into the pattern is any male who attempts to explain all of this to a female, is through the eyes of the pattern, perceived as an abuser. How are males supposed to protect their loved ones when the form that protection takes in their manipulated and brainwashed perceptions, is interpreted as an act of abuse?

Thursday, 1 November 2018

The Divide

The Divide

She gets it off her chest.
She bitches about him to all her friends and asks their advice.

He’s not in a relationship with her.
He’s in a relationship with a hive system.
The public terminology describes it as her support network.

The practicality, once we strip it of biased meanings to describe the situation within context of agenda based paradigms, is;
She’s striving to balance between opinions of those who affect her.
He’s having to adapt to all that.

The whoever’s of her community and their issues, objectives, attitudes, agenda’s, beliefs and prejudice, has become a system of leverage affecting both him and the entity of their private relationship, something personal between them as a couple which should exclude everyone else. His argument is that it is not a private relationship, if she’s in tangled with a lot of other people who are affecting it.

He would prefer that if she has any problems, she faced him directly about them so they can work through it together. This should not involve other people who will only distract them from personal intuition necessary to find sustainable harmony.

What she is doing by talking with people who don’t know him, about it, is creating a situation where he does not even know there is a problem, but their relationship is being affected by her attitude changing to conform to however her friends are telling her to behave.

He sees only that other people, outsiders, are playing games, controlling the harmony he is trying to build and which they should both be trying to build together, to the exclusion of external forces. Their energy is dissipating outward to serve a multitude instead of being retained and empowered for them both to thrive. It dooms the relationship which requires sufficient energy to be sustainable.

Thus, he has no authority within their relationship although strangers do.
Its stability is destabilized. Through no fault of his own. So he reconciles; she is unstable.

Her friends will collectively protect themselves by saying he is the element which has destabilized her. She has to weigh between her community and support network, versus her relationship. He does not identify this as monogamy because she is playing and being played by multiple games which he has become entangled because of her.

Society purposefuly-mistakenly regards his opinion about this as “his being dominating and controlling in the relationship.” The label causes her anxiety and she retreats from him, from the relationship, because it is a tag used by the social agenda of causing division and fear instead of healing and harmony. It creates targets for discrimination out of people who are supportive of their relationship partner.

We live in a community where it is more acceptable to sacrifice the relationship than it is to sacrifice the so-called support network, even when it can be identified that they are not being supportive but are playing control games; which is an abuse, from which he is trying to protect her from in society. Society protects its rights to play such control games under the guise of describing it as being supportive.

Most of this is understated to such extent people cannot recognise it as the underlaying dynamic of relationship break-ups. Where he is able to highlight that these are the dynamics and the leverage in play, he is accused of being a complete bastard by everybody who, are intentionally or not (manipulator or zombie), exploiting those levers. They are shaken up by it so they defend themselves and point out that he is now destabilizing their network.

Although not his primary intention, he is by consequence destabilizing it because it is a network built on the accepting of an inhumane condition which he does not accept to be righteous behaviour. Such condition is subversive and covert but no less frightening or abusive than are overt prejudices of racism, sexism, etc. To be party to abusive systems is to be a party to an abuse network. Many people do not recognize this to be a wrong, the same way nobody questioned slavery when it was deemed ‘normal’.

Her support network will protect her from the abusive man by discouraging her from having anything more to do with him. The man is now widely known as being abusive and destabilizing of people, which is the exact opposite of everything he has set out to do, how he has acted and what he believes in.

The above scenario outlines normal life for most men in our communities.

The period during which the couple get together and officially separate, is generally termed ‘the relationship’. These incidents are the tests and trials which relationships go through. “Us against the World” / “Society is not your friend.”

The safe-space between couples only exists when both partners are actively protecting it from and against other people’s opinions and interference. Women who behave that way (as described above), are known amongst men who have experienced this dynamic as being users; are identified as being both abused and abusers.

The so-called friendship network usually do not actually know the guy in question. Some of them may have met him on one on several occasions. Their opinion is prejudiced by the position she puts herself in, of being on one hand uncertain and on the other, attempting to be the compromise between everybody else around her. She positions herself in the centre of her universe, for maximum leverage and attention gain.

This is in contrast with putting an intimate relationship in the centre of a universe, as both partners must do for that relationship to survive. Relationships are about working together, or they are about exploitation. This is true of couples and this is true of social networks, communities.

The most disposable factor here is the penis which she puts into the centre of her root chakra, into her body, and it’s associated electromagnetic system for which we are designed to couple-up and combine; for personal balance and for spiritual evolution.

Feminism encourages women that “strong women” are those who can survive independently of intimate relationships with males. Our biologies are designed such we need that. Humanism is about seeing beyond segregational agenda’s, achieving personal empowerment through natural union. Strong People are those who tell their fake friends to fuck off for splitting up their supportive relationships.

“I have accepted this person as the other part of me, my balance, and it works and it makes us both stronger.” 

Divided, we become embroiled in and exploited by covert energy exploitation games. ‘Abuse disguised as support’ relies on brainwashing people into believing natural balance is abuse, into believing that dedicating energy to achieving natural balance is being weak.

You can not harmonise as an equal with someone who seeks only to exploit you and make you feel lucky for it; you can only serve them and their exploitation agendas. Often, people do not know they are agents of those agendas because they conform to political correctness instead of to reality. Do not serve people who seek only to exploit you.

"A very common aspect of psychological abuse and manipulation is for the abuser to claim that the victim is being abusive towards them ... the abusers “victim complex” and “gaslighting” ..." Nicholas Clare


Achieving Harmony

Achieving Harmony

Acceptance. Forgiveness. Letting go of everything (of all contexts) and simply being. This is stability. Ensure you do this, regularly, at least once a day preferably at least once an hour until it becomes a continual, automatic, state of being. Being in harmony. 

The spiritual, practical message as the core of religions goes through many traditions, though centuries. Osiris said it. Christ said it. Mohammed said it. Apparently mainstream Humans easily forget it and seldom act on it unless they have to. As soon as a cultural power base emerges around this teaching, it becomes corrupted. The message is rejected along with the corrupt religion. 

It is one of the very few things we do have any control over in our lives, and it occurs internally. Anything external to it is a distraction from it yet it affects the external reality because it affects our relationship with it. A balanced center is a very different entity to an imbalanced center. 

It is advice for every individual on how we can be happier and achieve stability. As an individual and as a community. Be wary of anything which goes against that.



Do you know what happened last time women ‘won’ ‘the gender war’ which decent people refuse to play? Women were killing men and getting away with it, so there was a social mandate by the ruling power at the time. We are taught that men persecuted women by killing witches. Have you read the legal documents they used to assess that? No, most people have not. I did.

It says this, to summarise: There is Good which is communities striving to work in harmony and there is Evil manufacture of social illness which is divisionism. ‘The Good’ was described as ‘God’. That specific Evil was described as ‘devil’ from French d’evil, the evil. Women who cavorted with the evil of  ill intent and creating dis-harmony in the communities. It was a time where dis-harmony would result in loss of crops and cultural stability, therefore death from starvation, un-hygiene; famine and disease were widespread and rampant.

History has remembered it as being a masogynist witch cull as an excuse to persecute women. At the time, the word Witch meant something different to the reinvented meaning we use today. Back then it meant Bitch. In the sense we still use the word Bitch for today, not a female dog but a nasty woman who acts of spite and malice.

This is why the medieval treatise on identifying Devil worshiping in communities is called the Malleus Maleficarum (The Black Witch), it is based around the word ‘malificeum’ which literally means ‘mischief and harmful workings’. To function from malicious intent, is imbalance. To bring that into the community, is to summon devils into the community.

That is all it was originally intended to mean, to do, to be about. The word ‘magic’ historically meant the same thing for which we now use ‘manifestation’. Strip the context of the supernatural distraction and you see it for what it is, relevant to today.

There are male witches. It was not a war against females, as contemporary feminists have us believe to justify their vengeful hate against men. Those specific trouble-makers bringing spite into our communities and spreading venom, are the exact same “bitches” who in a more spiritually focussed time, were literally put to death to cleanse the community so that the majority of people could achieve and live in the peace and harmony they strove for. They did not have the convenience culture we enjoy which is exploiting the ecological harmony beyond breaking point; they literally had to work the earth with their hands if they wanted to eat, or they would die, often horribly.

Anybody jeapordizing the survival of the community was a serious problem for everyone. Compare it with a body which functions in balance verses a cancer tumor which needs removing for the organism to survive. The temples of the Orthodox power of the day is designed around a Human body, specifically the body of ‘Christ’ (previously ‘Osiris’) which is ‘a human being living in harmony’ toward which we aspire.

Today, anybody jeapordizing the survival of the community is a serious problem for their targets but because it does not directly affect everyone, nobody outside of the problem wants to get involved, and the malicious person gets away with it.

In medieval times was foreseen a future where the fall of the harmony would bring about an age where devils roam freely (which we have) and the destruction of the natural balance (which we are witnessing). We do not at this time have widespread famine and disease in our own convenience based consumerist communities, although both are extant in the world.

The fall of the church as the dominant power, from its aspiration of harmony; it’s corruption and demise, has occurred, is still occurring. The communities still exist. We no longer have the guidance we once had. We no longer have the harmony we once had. Today most people reject the church and its spiritual teachings. Most people who openly consider themselves christians do not know what the original intent was for, seeing them by their actions and seeing through the public image facade for which it is used in modern times. People see the words but not the meanings. What words mean today, is not what was intended by it before the fall. We live in a different context where the words are confusions, but the meanings are more relevant than ever.

Purge ourselves, and the community, of the cancer of spite and malice, manipulation and corruption. Work actively optimistically toward the harmony. This is not uniquely a religious teaching.

Achieve Harmony.

Over The Load

Over The Load

“We’re over. I’m over you.”

“You’re still clearly not. You’re not over your last ex yet, either, from all the times you mentioned your anger and upset about him. I know how humans are and I know you intimately enough to know this, so don’t lie to me about it. You’re putting shields up, that's all. And you’re indoctrinating yourself into routine-responses hoping I will conform to your self-delusion. When we step outside of the world of mind-games, lies and self-delusions, we step into a more real reality. You know that we still ‘have feelings’ about each other. You’re in denial. I do not have to accept your lies as reality. You lie to me about having gotten over me, so I can only assume you’re also lying about our relationship finishing.

Because, simply put: we are both in the world and we are still communicating. The scientists, buddhists, and energy workers alike all say the same thing; nothing ends. It changes but it does not end. Human delusion draws a line and says ‘try to ignore the far side of it’. I do not have to draw that line at all. That is what experiencing Truth is. I do not have to draw that line where other people choose to put it or try to persuade and coerce me to re-affirm their own delusion.

I believe from experience; all delusions are toxic (to varying degrees). The more delusional a person is, the more toxic they are. I do not intend to be toxic, most certainly not to please other people’s toxic attitudes and delusional beliefs. Because I am Human. That is what it is, to be Human.”

“Overload. Too much information. Evidence that you are disfunctional.”

“The worlds of words are confusion. The world of intuition is divine. I am providing you with as a friend and as a Human Being. I am doing my job as a communicator and as a Healer. It is called, encouraging you to think straight. Don’t talk me cheap, I am better than that.

You say it’s over between us, you have a problem and you are using me as a buffer for it. That is not ‘our relationship being over’ at all. You’re lying, I am asking you to stop doing that. Stop lying to yourself and stop lying to other people.”

“You won’t back down.”

“I’m not trying to intimidate you into staying in a relationship with you. I’m being a brilliant boyfriend and teaching you about psychology. You’re a difficult one. Im helping you to overcome that difficulty. If what you mean is, you don’t want to have sex with me - at the moment you are too toxic and low on energy for that to be anything worthwhile apart from some momentary pleasure. You probably do need sexual healing and regularly because most people do, we are designed that way. You’re carrying the mental virus which mixes up sexuality with control, domination, energy games. It’s vampirism. I agree, that part of our relationship is over for today at least. You’d have to be an extremist to say ‘for ever’ because who knows. Apart from us who know how beautiful and brilliant we were together before you changed. You are playing energy-strategies, and i am already putting far more into you than you are putting into me. What comes out of it, for me is clarification and ability to share with others this information. Communicator, healer, doing my job in the community.”

“You talk too much.”

“I need to distract myself, both of us. Im playing your game. We could sit here in silence long enough to face the deeper truths of how we feel, finding a level between us. We both know that contains a lot of sexual energy. You asked me to avoid it, i am. That's why I keep talking.”

“I wish you’d shut up.” (What you say hurts my brain because it goes against what my mind says

“Is that why you have been avoiding me?”

“Yes. No. Which bit? You confused me.”

“You’re here because you are trying to get over me, because your mind says you should do that. The confusion is that we both enjoy sex and we both recently enjoyed it with each other. Our bodies are both craving one another and we are facing that. The mind says to turn away from accepting it and going forward in that direction to embrace each other. It’s ripping us in half so we are facing down the desire until it becomes easier to do so. To begin with it upset us both to do that, was emotionally painful. We need to care for our bodies, emotions and minds. When sex is good it heals all that. For whatever reason, your top-heavy and your mind is saying to break apart. You created that. My job is to determine if its a permanent split or simply a re-orientation so we can come back at it from a better angle in future, to build on what we already achieved. One of us gets to make the decision for both of us.”

“That will be me. I’m in control.”

“You are battling your left-brain. We both are. Thats where your imbalance is. Previously, you found sexuality to be a very powerful way to shut it off. It is. It is our and other species design blueprint after all.”

“I should go now.”

“It’s very difficult for men in this generation. Traditionally, one person making the decision for both permitted the man to ‘be a man’ and step forward to the challenge, to physically embrace you with a hug which we both need, all people need hugs its natural. To take that further. To enter us into the realm of sensual and sexual healing instead of words and power games. To initiate balance. Thats how basic it has been traditionally and we are hardwired for that from our species social evolution encoded into our dna.

In todays culture it is women who are permitted to be that yang aspect and any man who speaks out against female supremacy is persecuted for being a mysoginist and promotor of rape culture. If, at this time when you are telling me it is over between us, I were to make any attempt to touch you physically in any way, or even simply to say words of encouragement in the direction of our reunion, which in my opinion is preferable than people splitting up, or words testing your resolve; I would be committing a criminal act of sexual coercion or sexual assault, for which you can have me punished through the court system. So I can do none of that stuff without putting myself at risk. You are indeed the one in control. All I can do is write about how men feel as well as I can. I could be writing about exploitation of men in relationships.”

“Write about whatever you want, I won’t ever read it.” And she is thinking, ‘I don’t want a write with a clever brain, I want a simple guy who can fuck me on tap and piss off when I need my own space’.

And he is thinking; ‘I can hear her thoughts and I agree with wanting exactly the same thing, which is exactly what we had before we got confused and started conforming to social normalities (external to our private world, imported in, mind-virus) of not being seen to be in that sort of relationship because public image says it’s wrong where practicality says its successful.'

And he is also thinking: "I will write about whatever I want regardless of your opinion. You don't own my creative outlet."
So he says, not for the first time; “Human Evolution is always going to be the path of convenience.” This time he adds; “Regression is the path of pain. A great spiritual teacher, Vasseius taught us; ‘The pain which we feel is the Love we with-hold.’ He came a long way to remind us that specific thing. It’s the advice we need to hear.”

Quest for Authenticity

I do not have to be politically correct.

I am constantly persecuted by those who do, for being a communicator.

What is political correctness?

Political correctness is a creed. When you live by a creed, you obey its discipline.

It tells you how to behave. You are an agent of its philosophy.

Political correctness is the asserting that’s your opinion and beliefs are whatever suits the society that day. With a change of political orientation, top down from the governor, the agents of political correctness unquestioningly change their asserted opinions and believes in accordance with the new regime.

This principle, they are zombies. What they use and act on as personal beliefs are not personal believes founded from experience and thinking for yourself. Political correctness is when the governor programs the robots how to think and act. That is how insects behave in a hive.

I do not have to be politically correct because I am not an insect being; I am a human being. I be human. It is a verb. My own personal opinions and believes are built on the reality of experience through a mind which thinks for it self. I do not have to concord with the malleable, programmed, beliefs and opinions of others.

Why do people submit to political correctness?

Because they are trying to fit in and be normal. They do not wish to stand out and rock the boat. Whatever their own natural, inmate personality might otherwise be, must be repressed so that they can conform to the factory production line static model of “normality”.

George Orwell wrote a book called 1984 explaining that in a totalitarian state, the majority of people are brainwashed through many aspects of the dominator society to become politically correct in their minds; which is to say, they become zombies, unquestioningly performing activities and running subroutines indoctrinated into them by the control state.

Not only this, their brains are corrupted in such away they will defensively protect their rights to be politically correct with a superior attitude, discriminating against anything outside of it. A faculty of self-righteous left-brain extremism, which is unbalanced despite being described by the society as reasonable. Reasonable means ‘for a reason’, which is agenda. It does not mean in balance and preferable which most people assume it to because of their social conditioning.

I was deconditioned and trained to decondition other people. I am a human survivor. Deprogramming people of the brainwashed cult is my purpose in the human community. It is not an easy position because the zombies are programmed to take me down through whatever means necessary, usually by manipulation and lies.

What does political correctness do to the mind?

Any questioning conformity to a public image means that the individual knows they are different from the public image they are seeking to project out to the world. Immediately, there is no authenticity in their activities. [see my blog on modernism]

“She is a fake, but she does not know she is a fake!”
Breakfast At Tiffany’s.

In short, political correctness is social conditioning. It exists not to help the species to adapt, thrive and survive but to enslave the species to function as an insect colony supporting the overlords.

Example. Political correctness has led to the situation where the governments media propaganda machine, the BBC [223 see blog on the skull&bones society] will no longer employ people based on their ability to do the job best, they will employ them to tick the boxes that they have fair representation of gender and skin color, because gender and skin colour are two '-ism issues' highlighted to be tackled by political correctness. If Einstein or Edison applied there, they would not be employed.

The second criteria is people willing to lie to support the state societies smokescreen, all those people wiling to conform to the paradigm of politically correctness, are willing to change their attitudes and beliefs as soon as the governor changes the goalposts. Funding goes to those categories primarily.

Increasingly a 10% minority group (official government statistics from the office of national statistics UK and equivalent USA source), the LGBT community has a loud enough voice that 'discrimination against pan-sexuality' now includes the offense of saying 'no' to those people at all. 

The same agenda of anti-racism, feminism and any other segregationist movement which specifies one group vs mainstream, where simply ‘the people’ should suffice, non-specificially. Segregation is created by controlling the context of policies regarding specified minorities. As soon as a group is specified, segregation has occurred.

As a result, everybody who wishes to work with the BBC must pretend to be bisexual and/or loudly approve of open bisexuality, whether they are or not; because within that environment, bisexuality is political correctness. Employment of agents for promotion of an agenda outweighs the necessary ability to do the job well.

Certainly there are (pc-category:bisexuals) who can do the job well. Government statistics are there are nine times more (pc-category:non-bisexual) people able to do the job at least that well.

I personally have no problems at all with people being bisexual or with bisexual people working within the media industries. That is actually my own cultural background. It is why I used this example: I know it to be true from experience.

The point being made here is; anybody working with in that environment, must pretend to be that thing in order to fit in. Immediately, the creation of a cognitive dissonance as the mainstream culture. That is the purpose of political correctness.

Cognitive dissonance is disbelief syndrome. When people are having to pretend to be a certain way to survive, which is different from how they actually, naturally are in order to survive, every individual secretly believes there is something wrong with them. Because they are different from the commonly excepted normality.

In the example above, the target arena is sexuality. The context is controlled by what ever the target arena is. All discourse occurs through that context. All conclusions are biased by that contextual process.

When an individual exists for a prolonged period or in many cases even for a very brief time, within an environment where they have to pretend to be something they’re not, that individual feels fake. That individual is encouraged to believe that feeling fake is normal and right. The individual aspires toward feeling fake before they expire towards being genuine. Any individual who aspires towards being genuine with in such a community, is alienated and prejudiced against. 

            Fake = Normal. 
            Real = Sinister.

The quest for authenticity has become recognized as a psychiatric disorder, by the people with the psychiatric disorder who intend everybody to suffer similar psychiatric disorder.

The only solution is to step out of that paradigm, and to see it for what it is. That is the purpose of this blog.

The issue is not the segregation issue, the situational issue is the issue. Why has (specified minority group agenda) even come into it?

You do not have to be politically correct either.

People with cognitive bias cannot think clearly. People with cognitive bias cannot think straight. They can obey orders provided that the instructions are within the context of the programming. They are computers. They are robots.

What is lost in political correctness is genuine people. Attempting to streamline the community so that everybody function with a better attitude towards life, the result is that everybody within that community can no longer think clearly because, their contexts have been perverted.

Your understanding of the meanings of words is not what those words mean when you read a dictionary. It is what those words mean according to the community within which you live. That is what Orwell warned us about happening.

In the lifelong search for authentic, genuine people who do not agree to compromise themselves, the only way we can get through to the zombies why we are the way we are and why it is important, is to explain it in the language they understand. They regard it to be a spiritual mission and the quest for living truthfully is regarded as religion. It conveniently becomes ‘the other’ which it is permissible to scorn because religious people are not politically correct.

The bias is that they have put everything into one box and labeled it ‘outside of pc’ instead of actively developing of the capacity to see that context process is not what is happening in the minds of the genuine people.

You do not have to be politically correct. You could get real.

PC in the community.

Political correctness is top down. As soon as misinformation enters the domain, PC people will conform to the paradigm found it on that misinformation. A lie and servants of the lie.

Adhering to political correctness gives individuals the excuse that they were not personally responsible for anything which goes wrong. Because they are not acting on their own true nature which they believe subconsciously to be a problem and a natural because it does not innately conform to the pc. It is about accountability.

“I am not accountable for my own actions because my own actions were based on what I have to do to conform to my community, not on but I would have done had I been able to do it my own way. As a result, I am innocent of the consequence of my actions.”

This philosophy is polarized against what previous generations have throughout history regarded as maturity to be responsible for one’s own actions.

The falseness of this argument was proved at the Nuremberg Trials where war criminals were held accountable for their own individual actions while ‘just following orders’.

The questioning of hierarchical authority is necessary to avoid abuses. Every step of the way. So, the hierarchy protects itself by actively discouraging that. Political correctness is to not question the authority of the higher tier. Insects know their place. As a result, hierarchy systems are rife with many forms of corruption which gets swept under the carpet. Occasionally someone higher up will you someone lower down as a scapegoat, sending a shockwave through the communities.

It is not only the media industry. It is all across the board in every state hierarchy system. It is the nature of corporate infrastructure. The hierarchy is the hive.

I am in no way encouraging anyone to be anti-social.

Sunday, 21 October 2018

Bondage Games Wales

Bondage Games in SW Wales.

The problem with clinically. The problem with clinically is that when you say the word into a voice-to-text software, in a proper Welsh pronunciation, it interprets it as the word ‘clinically’. This observation is not the original purpose of my making this post.

The problem with Llanelli is it is so backward here the people need everything to be black and white simple. Anything complicated is universally repressed as being wrong.

At the same time, the intricacies of the control and domination games played by most of the sub-cultural groups, are far from being black and white simple and obvious.

I grew up in BDSM culture from a young age. I get it. By the age of eight I understood naturally the differences between gay and bisexual - without that necessarily making me either. Even today a lot of Welsh people have difficulty with it because of mainstream social prejudice (conformity and ignorance).

What they now call LGBT too, back in the eighties and nineties which for Wales is equivalent to the fifties and sixties, didn’t yet exist so it was all an offshoot of what back then used to be called BDM.

Reference to the Sadism element was discretely added a decade or so later after the scene and its terminology was established in the region, when it became more acceptable to explore such dark places.

There four major sub-groups within BDSM categories. I self-identify as Switch and I have unfortunately a lot of experience with Brats, despite not wanting to.

I came to Llanelli and people here, are black and white. They see Sub or Dom. That’s it, you get pigeon-holed into one category or the other. They call it Top or Bottom. No between. They laugh at the idea there can even be an in-between.

So because I’m Switch and not overtly Dom, the wannabe Doms catagorize me as a Sub. I’m not a Sub, I’m Switch.

“No,” says the Doms, “you’re not a Dom because I am a Dom and I’m telling you that you are a Sub.”

It’s all power games.

I’ve known professional dominatrix and most Llanelli Doms aren’t. They’re people playing power games. There’s a big difference, the major one being consent. Throughout the professional industry and the history and development of bdsm culture, consent is the major critical. For extreme example its why we use safe words. Even within CNC (consensual non-consent, which is the nice name for rape-play) consent is the critical mutually shared understanding.

Without consent, it is abuse.

There is a big difference between consenting to extreme sports (including physical pain, punishment, etc), and actual criminal abuse which causes lasting psychological and emotional damage.

Abuse from narcissistic games is not welcome in BDSM communities. Narcissists of course are attracted to such positions of empowerment because it enables them to abuse. Narcissists assume domination over their targets life using whatever overt and covert means necessary, without consent and even despite formal non-consent. That is not the same thing as dominatrix within BDSM culture.

With proper Dom training the importance of recognizing the Doms role to include being a carer and instructor, toward the end result of healing the subject through whatever activities the subject has consented to, or consented to trust the Dom to inflict upon them.

Being a sub in that context is to trust the Dom to create spaces in which to explore emotional and psychological planes, as much as physical pleasure-pain relations. It is all about personal development. 

The trust relationship between a Dom and the sub is also a factor, wherein the sub is enabling the Dom to explore that space within themself. Again, this is why we have safe words.

The role of a Switch is somebody who can and needs to alternate between sometimes being a Dom and sometimes being a sub. Switch get on best with another switch. The classical roles form a framework to orientate, communicate shared activities and discuss those things explored and experienced together with an intimate trust partner.

In most places, most people are Switches. Not in Llanelli. A handful of narcissists has declared everybody else to be subs upon whom they inflict all types of cruel emotional and psychological games, without consent. These narcissists recognize one another as such, and describe one another as the social Doms to reinforce their authority consensus.

Most people in Llanelli who use the BDSM framework do not know what a Switch is. Much less what Brats are. They are not taught BDSM, they are taught narcissistic abuse networks using select terminology and concepts taken from that community.

Bondage is powerful. It is not limited to dressing up in leather of pvc and tying people up. It affects whole being and other areas of life. It’s about relationships and establishing groundwork an operational framework from which to explore from. This is not merely physical. It is mental and emotional, it is instinctual and energetic. It is about building and maintaining shared worlds.

Searching online sex toy shops for category bondage, it’s appalling how limited the range is when comparing what it’s all about with the focus of what stuff is available. In twenty five years I’ve required very little of that stuff at all and don’t know why people would get into most of it.

BDSM isn’t primarily about different flogging tools. The whole purpose is opening mental and emotional spaces safely to face and deal with darker aspects of self we probably wouldn’t openly wear in public.

Bondage games are about relationships, nurturing them as they develop. About the individuals involved. The understanding that a relationship is a pure thing, is a trust between consenting individuals. Most of that is about helping each other grow in understanding and toward being better, stronger, more wholesome individuals. Independently choosing to grow together to become independent, choosing to remain together. A relationship is a luxury. Bondage is about exploring those ties which bind, communicating about them, enjoying them.

Break-ups leave loose ends, minds and emotions flailing painfully, bodies physically craving routine addiction. The best partners are those who protect their partner in event of that outcome while simultaneously providing stability for that not to happen. The method is from mutual respect, which exists only because of consent. Avoiding routine becoming addiction is what keeps partnership fresh.

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Tuesday, 16 October 2018


Freudian & Jungian Paychology model

                                ID     EGO     Super-Ego

Id = idiom. Self-identity with thematic context by which we define ourselves. 

Ego = juggles and balances all aspects of self.

NOT what is usually meant by use of the same word in modern society (where ‘ego’ is incorrectly used to describe ‘self-centered and arrogant’).

Super-Ego. Social conditioning and learning from experiences. Routine reactions and behavioural patterns. Programs. Generally subconscious. 

Left brain= logical processes. Maths. Assertive. Draws from system grids (mental constructs). Subject to rigid dogma if dominant (it’s nature). 

Right brain = creative processes. Yielding/Flowing. Draws from intuition. 

Intuition = ‘second brain’ gut reaction. The sixth sense. 

Leaving A Cult

Leaving A Cult

You grew up in a religious cult except they did not call it a religious cult. The whole of your society was and still is. There are exceptions although they generally tend to be outcasts from the society/cult. The mainstream is designed to persecute anybody who sees through and beyond the mainstream and into reality outside of the cults tenets.

Principal among these tenants, and that which keeps people trapped inside the cult is a mind control technique of encouraging people to think a specific, particular way. This is reinforced both positively and negatively in most aspects of life. To describe it succinctly, we use the terminology: left brain dominant.

This is an imbalance of mind and an imbalance of a functional human organism. Nevertheless it is strategically reinforced by mainstream culture to be the only correct perception permitted. Those adhering to it are defined as sane and those outside of it are defined as unsanitary. 

“A problem cannot be solved with the same type of thinking which created it.” Albert Einstein. 

The nature of left brain dominance is that it does not recognize itself to be a problem. It recognizes itself to be superior. 

Left brain regards those things supporting it to be so obvious as not to need mention,  much less contemplation. Then upon critical analysis it cannot accept those things supporting it as being equally or more important than itself.


-The importance of right brained thinking as equally valid to left brained thought.

-Harmony of spheres between both hemispheres of the brain.

-Intuition and instinct as being senses subconsciously connected with macrocosmic nature. 

-The heart as the center of self. 

-That materialist laws explore only materialism.*

*So far as materialist laws define the conscious observer; materialist law states ‘no form of energy ceases, it transmutes’. On analysis to assimilate this is to accept the conscious observer is a form of energy which does not cease upon physical death of the body, but transmutes. Ergo, experience of death does not negate consciousness. Despite this, the vast majority of left brain dominant individuals collectively deny transmigration as scientifically valid. This is a reason why the mainstream ‘normality’ is defined as a cult. 

That spiritual laws exist and are valid within human experience. That it is valid to base cognitive decisions upon them to experience more cohesive, fulfilling and wholistic understandings of the macrocosmic natural world of living being. 

Becoming aware of this situation helps enable and empower individuals and communities to function in a harmonious and balanced way, to leave the mainstream cult and begin experience reality for what it actually is, as opposed to witnessing a limited, delusional version projected upon it by socially reinforced programmed perception filters. 

Monday, 15 October 2018




Age of information is the age of misinformation, to teach us how to discern. 

The age of many controllers playing mind games whether or not they realize it. 

It is the age of mental slavery, and robot zombies being controlled by agendas we barely comprehend and to have been programmed to reject recognizing.

It is the age of manipulation. With so much Information available to us, objectivity and clarity are survival traits. 

Therefore, it indicates a successful lifestyle is one wherein time is continually made to reassess our attitudes and activities.

I am I doing the right thing? 
Am I on the right path? 
Am I going about this the right way?

These questions are not paranoia. 

Attacking and assaulting the individual and the collective’s ability to function objectively is a key factor relied on by manipulators. An abusers control is enabled by your dysfunctionality and disability to think and function with clarity. 

Extremist conditioning to function solely from constraints of super-ego pattern within paradigm of enforced socio-cultural idiom is occurring continually in contemporary communities influenced by corporate agenda. 


Absolute certainty is a faculty of left brain thinking. The dominant function of the mind in imbalanced individuals. It resents and rejects left brain thinking. Those caught up in this, feel a need to fit into the society reinforcing it, and therefore will make face value claim to accept left brain thinking in its place, although at the same time rejecting it. 

A functional individual and community operates with harmony between left and right faculties, and remembers that the heart is the center of consciousness with intuition as the center of decision making processes. 

Those who deny this, and do not function this way are examples of brainwashed zombies responding robotically because of their programming. 

It is a symptom of cognitive bias and cognitive dissonance that any individual suffering it does not recognize they are suffering it. Left brained centric dogma does this. It results in a society of exploitation. 

It’s servants do not even recognize how the way of thinking they defend, promote and are reliant on is a symptom of an illness. This is because they have been told repeatedly that it is superior. There in balanced brains augment it.

That is what artificial intelligence is!

Assimilating this so as to evolve and the condition oneself is necessary as a major first step toward deconditioning the community. Exploitation society is engineered against that. It is a constant uphill struggle at this time in history.


Many are in the age of Maya. Once cognition has been cleansed and the organism functions harmoniously, by addressing and detaching from the left brain dominance, then it becomes possible to step outside of the age of Maya as Illusion and into the age of Maya as manifest dreaming. 


Saturday, 30 June 2018

If Looks Could Kill

"...a lively smile, well if looks could kill"

A. Lively.

Anne Lively.

Anne Lively was murdered in such a way to be invisible to precogs. 

"If looks could kill."
Seeing the future. 
The Observer Affects The Observed. 
Every precogs nightmare.

Frank Herbert establishes with this as a premis in the Dune sextet.
Philip K Dick explores it without that stranglehold.

Anne Lively is from the movie interpretation of Minority Report (PKD).

It's all encoded in there into that one line from Transvision Vamp's Hanging Out With Halo Jones.  
Once the mind has made the connection, it is impossible to un-make it. 
Even if the data relating cause with effect is wrong, the connection is still a valid dimensional universe within the infinity. The complexity of the observers mind establishes how much data can be assimilated to make accurate interpretation of otherwise unrelated and randomly chaotic data. This is a basic mentat awareness (Herbets Dune).

Another one which keeps coming to mind is Ramona A. Stone and Ramona Flowers character in Scott Pilgrim vs the World movie, Ramona being an unusual name. 
Bowie described his concept album 1.Outside (from which Ramona A. Stone is a character) as being "a multidimensional hyper-cycle" or somesuch. 

Connected with this is the movie Romancing The Stone and its sequels/spiritual successors the Jewel Of The Nile and War Of The Roses.