Friday, 13 March 2015


Hating The Healer

She advised: "They both hate him."
"Why?" I asked.
"Ask them. Ask him. See what they say. If you want to stir it all up by poking your nose into other peoples histories."

I asked him first because it was more practical to do so.
He explained: "The first two words; they hate. That answers the whole story. They are haters. They will find reasons to justify it and pin it onto whatever target happens by. In this case, myself. The particulars, the details, pale into insignificance once you have this understanding. They get along and are united by their common emotional-mental normality of hating. It is likely that because i am different, outside of their shared and reinforced version of normality, is the only justification necessary as to why they chose me as a target for the hate."
I accepted his insight and asked: "You yourself, do not hate?"
"Do you mean by this question, do i have a lack of hate for the people who hate me, or in general terms that i feel no anger? Anger turns inward even when we express it outwardly. I do get angry sometimes yes, that is normal human biology at work. I do not harbour resentment even toward those who actively hate me. What i feel for them is closer to pity if anything. I generally avoid them and give them little attention. It is healthier to focus on more positive endeavors."
After a moment of contemplation, I asked: "Can the hate be cured?"

He explained that in the discipline of kundalini yoga which he studies, it is described that the base chakra is to do with both anger and sexuality and therefore there is a strong relationship between the two, it is probable that sexuality is naturally intended to alleviate anger. We are designed to function this way, physically-emotionally-mentally. The hate comes from the energy channelling through anger instead of it being re-routed positively by sexuality.

"Having chosen myself as their target for anger, it is a rational assumption they have both chosen me as somebody who they need to alleviate their anger. And yet the inhibitions involved (which are many and from many sources) prevent that event from becoming an actuality. Chakra energy is magnetic, it flows like electricity, like water. Until the sexual energy subsides, the hate will remain. Perhaps in time it will fade. Hopefully other people will come along and redirect their attention. Certainly to initiate hate-sex as a healing is not something I have any intention of becoming involved in. I believe that subconsciously this is also a justification for why they hate me. To Westerners it is a Freudian analysis although the concept is primal, is to be found throughout many cultures. The hate manifests into communication form of insulting me that 'all i think about is sex' and this gives further excuse for hate. I am not suggesting a desire to become sexually involved with these people. Merely stating how the analysis works based on the lore of kundalini teachings. It is a relatively new thing to Western consciousness."

I asked the women individually why they hate him. They both used the same phrases which to my awareness means that they both had colaborated about it and decided between them on a frame of reference. "He is too stubborn to take any advice," and "He is repressive."
I asked: "In what way repressive?"
"Controlling. There is his superior way of doing it which is impossible to know, and then there is wrong."
"Does his way work better?"
"I dont know I never tried it," and "Only if you are a monk."

I shared all of the above with all of the people concerned. He laughed and the women bitched about him for being sexist and obsessed with sex. The woman who had warned me not to get involved in the first place told me that I should not have gotten involved in the first place. I asked her, did she mean involved with a guy like that or involved with the whole situation? She explained that I am unsettling an uneasy peace. I asked if she has feelings for our ascetic friend. She returned the question by asking me if I am setting myself up as her rival or as her ally. I told her an ally. To which she answered that I am a lucky girl to be one of his students and wished me luck with the others.

Disclaimer: The 'ex-sex partners of snakeappletree support network' is now officially closed.


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