Bitter Bloody Vengeance

 

"He's scum."

I have heard this said about me 

by people who do not know me

yet they think they're better than me. 

It used to hurt. 

Now it is the red flag of identifying someone jealous and dangerous. 

I think it I irrational behaviour to dehumanise someone on a pretext that they feel they do not like me because I am different than they are. I stand for neurodiversity. I am diagnosed with autism. I stand for individualism. Because without individualism we cannot have self-responsibility or accountability which results in self-esteem. Of course I am different from how they are. The criteria by which they judge are bogus. They build their self-esteem from conformity, not from personal achievement. In a meritocracy, the nerts (descriptor from "inert") and voids (black-hole destructive haters; avoid) are rejecting the aspirants (those who hold the light of Hope). Sick, huh? 

SOAPBOX

This is my pedestal

This is my soapbox

I am going to offload here

You are enjoying it

I made you feel that way

Your feelings are not my responsibility

You tortured me and expect me to have no opinion about it

Can an artist claim responsiblity

For the effect their work has

On others? 

Was it intentional? 

Is that relevant? 

I think it rational behaviour to dehumanise someone who has previously, maliciously, caused harm to others for the purpose of cruelty. 

They are not protected by their job, a position of social responsibility which to their twisted way of thinking justifies their sadism. They are still a sadist, it is black and white, outside of any psychological juggling and justifications that the state hierarchy system permits and enables their abuses. That's an institutionalised abuse network. It is what a lot of people have been through. Broken people too damaged to put it into words. Someone needs to. As a voice of our culture, someone needs to speak up about it. For those who cannot. 

And then comes along poet who crawls out of the filth they stomped us down into, to tell you and future you's all what's going on. Sympathy and Empathy are not the coin you think they are. Mimic-machines are better at being humane than are Homo-Sapiens who are so corrupt they call the non-accountable delusion and its temple, holy. Those are demons. They love to get in positions of non-accountability to get away with cruelty. 

This is the world we live in. Best we can do is avoid it. They target people whose light reveals their dark-adapted hearts. It's that simple. Remember kids; low-IQ perversity describes any complexity as insanity and any purity as amoral. 

So what can you do? 

Stay True

You do you

All you ever have 

To do it

The existence of this blog post is actually to show off in advance by way of warning, to certain nameable individuals who have purposefully and maliciously done me wrong in the past, for no reason than their own bitterness. I have decided to go ahead with it and call it a healing from a broken past. Publishing industry are calling it a memoir. 

For legal purposes we cannot name names directly (if you know, you know) but by a clause of law we can use close-alternatives. The Kali Code's and Lois Lathe's and Hanuki Owl's of my past world, and too damn many others of their ilk and their support/abuse networks, are wonderful inspirations for evil-doers in stories stockpiled awaiting release pending refinement. "Fucking innocent people over because you can" is evil, pure and simple. By announcing these forthcoming products through this marketing strategy; I am reclaiming my power. I'm having fun along the way. 

These people know who they are.

People who know these people, know who they are.

People know what they have done.

I'm capitalising on my misery.

Other people have capitalised on exploiting me.

A lesson Life has taught me.

The consequence is a natural process.

The world mirrors our actions.

All we are agents of energies

bigger than we know. 

We cannot heal unless we flow.

Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.

Wounds fester when not exposed to air. 

These are Laws of Nature.

Repressing it is not supernature

Though voicing it is rare.

A local author done good gets esteem in a community he lives in, for telling his truth in the form of a memoir. I have been reading the Classics again. Alexander Dumas, which has a theme running through it; justified revenge as a form of what we now call 'social justice'. Le Comte de Monte-Christo, The Three Musketeers, Man in the Iron Mask, The Black Tulip, (Dumas); there is a rich tradition of Revenge in the classics, which expresses much about the world of that era (19th Century) and what was popular for a reason of so many people feeling an affinity with it. Edgar Poe's story The Black Cat deals with the inevitability of nature taking its course in the matter of karma, where his The Cask deals with it done wilfully. Bronte's Wuthering Heights, Collins Moonstone, Melvilles Moby Dick, Hugo's Hunchback, and later, Sabatini's Captain Blood; they all tell versions of the same story. 

They know who they are

I know who they are

the Gods know who they are

And at some point

All those people and more

Are going to know exactly 

Who and what they are

They know what they have done

Living in denial of it

Does not silence Truth

That they should worry about the evidence; which proves they could not hold me down and silence me. I have a right to tell people what I have been through and who is responsible for it. All they have done is put targets on their own backs for when people join the dots and realise exactly who it is I am talking about. Apologies would be acceptable. None has followed. 

The only way to protect myself in future is to take out those who deserve it. I did not invent that rule. I detest that situation. I have been detested for protesting against that situation and for attempting to make things better for people. I certainly intend to survive beyond being silenced, punished, persecuted, degraded, victimised, abused, simply for never previously having shown any will at all to fight back or protect myself. I trusted Gods Law that their karma will find them. I still do. It will. 

So, you may ask; 

Is SnakeAppleTree broken?

Or is he Breaking Bad? 

No.

I have been broken from spite

I have been shoe-horned

That is a factor

Novella to follow

Read it and weep

It's an open-ended,

choose-your-own-over-reaction

What else do I have to live for? 

What have I got to lose? 

To tell my story is a right to healing

And then, they will be hated

For what they did, lies they told, 

For damage they have done

A voice which echoes through time

Speaking for so many people

This is my responsibility

Who I write for

They knew it would come

Is this a threat? 

Only for those who feel threatened by Truth.

We do not get to decide whose version of truth outweighs whose version of truth.

That is not what Truth is.

Truth is what it is,

regardless our opinions.

We get to weigh our relationship with it.

That is why the Tarot's Star Card, Spica, Virgo, illustrates this blog.

What higher guiding Star can there be than Truth?

See Also: Shit Worth Stealing

Shit Worth Stealing

According to Google statistics, 

This blog, with no advertising, is becoming increasingly popular. 

Currently it is currently averaging 2-3K views a day. It’s probably not 2-3K individuals but it’s also probably more than 1 person. Meaningless numbers on a page I don to entirely trust to accurately represent reality. It is what it is. 

Regardless of the actual number of individuals, we are collectively in a situation to run an experiment. 

People have encouraged me to stop blogging and start doing a pay-to-view equivalent to the blog, using Patreon. The Google statistics for this blog do suggest it’s actually getting a lot more people than most Patreon accounts get. 

The psychology-sociology experiment is to discover whether people would pay for what they previously had for free. 

My theory is the answer will be; no.

People will simply find other free forms of entertainment. 

Some people do pay to access Patreon accounts. I would find the deadlines of having to create monetisable content on tap to be a pressure which I certainly do not need. It would cause me to quit doing the Patreon. Commercialising the brand through that method is not what this blog is all about. It never has been. 

It was simply an experiment to see what would happen and to offload the adhd aspect of my autism in a safe and constructive way. It was a method of practicing my writing skills. It is a record of things I otherwise would have forgotten. It is an attempt at sharing with others so I can partake in the wider internet community of my generation. From that, it has opened up possibilities for it to become other things. 

As soon as I monetise it, nobody will care about it anymore anyway. It would trigger the formative conditioning against ‘selling out’ by which deadbeats drag down and degrade those who have aspirations above the underground. 

Living in the land of the blind, they are blind because the blind poke the eyes out of those who can see. That’s how it works down here. I don’t like it. They’ll do it anyway.

From here I can see the shoreline. 

From here I can see the mountain. 

From here I can see the forest.

From the top of the mountain, I can see the horizon, where there are ships sailing on the promise of a better island on the other side of mystery. Having been around a few of those I can tell you from experience; the novelty wears off, they're all the same. 

Those lucky sailors are the ones who despite all odds, have managed to do it their own way. By doing it their own way, they’ve come to the conclusions that they really is only one way to escape this hideous predicament.

It’s risky but then, sticking around and doing nothing is risky. The end result is the same; you die and people forget about you.

Meanwhile, there are clues within the confusion and seemingly infinite distractions of the culture of the fertile imagination, in which so many people resort to fantasy, as a method of temporarily escaping and coping with abject existentialism.

There’s a certain configuration by which those scant few clues align to offer hope and insight into what can be done about the misery which self-righteous bastards inflict upon everybody else. 

At the opening, that configuration is different for every individual who becomes aware of it, because every individual is unique and has their own unique perspective, delusions and compromises. Only once having aligned with that configuration, do all the individuals recognise it for what it is; a key, the shape of the lock, one or the other or both.

The other side of it is, of course, beyond the scope of this blog post to make any attempt to begin describing, or explaining. 

The blog has in the past been accused by jealous idiots of being an attempt to start a cult, which it has never been and should never in the future become. 

The same blogger has previously done experiments with releasing commercial products, words with accompanying music, words without accompanying music. The albums sell with no advertising at the rate of a trickle. The books do not do much. The money for paid advertising is more than the products make. It's not a viable strategy. Word of mouth is a sane strategy. 

That proves the point regarding any Patreon experiment. Some people create successful Patreons usually because they make YouTube channels to advertise it. I’m too busy doing my own creative stuff and I’m too poverty-line to have the hours, I’m too autistic to have the focus and concentration to soak up much of someone else’s output on the same regular production line basis as is expected of a Patreon. I usually quit following them because another bill had come in and I don’t get paid enough to have money to give to other creators. This is why I am in love with professional used generative AI as a creative tool (a ‘paintbrush’) for concept development vs hiring barely affordable distracted artists who do a half-ass job. I made blog post about that;  Artist Hire vs AI. 

Somehow I likely feel it would be morally wrong to expect somebody else to do something for me which I would not or cannot do for them. It has been a major block in my social interactions with other people. Righty or wrongly, it generally gets prescribed to Autism.

Speaking directly to whoever can listen, in my own words, seems to get me further than any other method I know. It is why this writing style is so good for blogging. It has raw authenticity. A lot of people detest raw authenticity. Says everything about them and none about the realness. I know which I vibe with. 

Aside from being an offload of thoughts, 

what does this particular blog actually have to say for itself? 

Oh gods, no. 

Not the despicable necessary justification and intellectualisation of the work. 

It’s a practicality issue and a morality issue. Which of these issues takes precedent and which is a mask for the other? The story I have told with this blog is one of ability and of accountability. It marks the difference between how people behave when they are in a position to be able to do something about it compared with when they are not in a position to do something about it. How the individuals justifies their position through any expression of morality or of practicality. 

"I would if I could, but…"

"...I don’t have the resources."

Ah, but we can dream of how things could be, who we could become, if I did have the resources. Consequences of change. 

If I had shit worth selling I would be rich. Evidently, I have shit worth selling. I have no incentive to sell it because the only people who make it worth anything at all are not people who would exchange access to it for money. They’re most probably people like me; skint and distracting ourselves from doing the stuff actually worth money. 

Is money the greatest resource worth chasing? 

That’s what this blog post asks, at its heart. What else is in here which causes 2-3K views a day? What is the essence of that? Raw, pure, unadulterated attitude? Another mans madness? 

It’s not what is being said. Most of that is bullshit. 

It is that it is being said. This is the key. This is the thing at all. 

It exists now, and now we have to deal with it. 

1067 by 10am

a blip on a flatline 

after all the dead time

doesn't seem real, somehow

what would you do

what would you do

if it were true?

they say, you have to pay for fame

they say, do it your way

both these things can't be true

they talk more shit than I do

thanks for listening

ask yourself, why do you?

See Also: Bitter Bloody Vengeance

Pisces To Aquarius

Humanity / Planet Earth (the electromagnetic bodies and psychological spectrums) are passing from the Age of Pisces into the Age of Aquarius. 

Elementally this is from Water to Air. It can be romantically expressed as ‘breaking through the surface tension’, ‘to go from ocean to sky’, ‘from swimming to flying’, ‘from tidal currents to currents of winds’. 

There is a lot more to it than simply  ‘An Awakening’ which the very basic symbolism of transition suggests. 

Pisces is the alchemical Female principle (yielding). 

Aquarius is the alchemical Masculine principle (assertion). 

Pisces has a dualism. It is a shoal of fish, oriented around a nexus which they create. The nexus is a distillation of their collective, formed by contraction, where it trends toward singularity, often through conformity to pressure. Simultaneously, individuals take that cohesive distillation outward in all directions, an expansion, where it trends toward complexity and chaos. The rhythm and flux between contraction and expansion. 

Aquarius is quite different. It is less bound by the contraction toward singularity, it is further toward the expansive. 

"A fish, used to shoal-life, sprouts wings, breaks through the distorted reflection, flies far and alone to seek; its flock, a place to perch temporarily, taking only its self-knowledge through winds beyond its control." 

The ‘leaving the womb’, ‘leaving the nest’, symbolism can be compared with the change of puberty, where intellectually it is a breakthrough from heart-centred consciousness to awareness, of consequence, of existential limits, and of overcoming historic obstacles to our evolution. All this is in the form of; the external world outside of our power to change or comprehension, of each other, and from within. The density of the past which was both our stable foundation and our anchor has lifted. The only true guidance is that from within. 

It can be read to mean the conscious knowing of our intuition. It can also be read to mean the detachment from rigid thoughts. This dualism where uncertainty replaces dogma and calculation replaces emotional reaction, as the skills we will develop, occurs along with reliance on others who are as lost, as confused and as vulnerable to exploitation, as are we. 

The masculine aspect of Aquarius is that of projecting one’s own truth into the collective delusion. A process of sharpening our wits and the fluid precision by which we navigate, calculate, interpret. This weather we create by our flight is affected by times where there is little or nothing to be done about delusional collective cohesion. 

On its higher level it is the realm of knowing, of choosing the correct trajectory through storms and across new territories, and of the imagination becoming the language of the flock. The ancient spiritists associated it with the souls journey, both through this world and the place between worlds. Here we see reflected the light of self knowing as guidance, this time the mirror is not above, it is below. The subconscious to be revealed under the sun and stars, unfiltered and decompressed. We take what was into the future, only that which we rely on and can carry. This becomes our collective and individual way of being. 

Humanity has done its bonding and its healing. It is time for us to do our imagining. 

We have 2600 years of this cycle. Even if the other school of maths (which measures by forecast and shadow, not light) are correct, that we are at the peak and not the trough between cycles ending and beginning, we have 1300 years of this cycle left. Personally I believe this is the portal, not the summit. 

We are about to expand without density and contraction, where previously we were bound to cycles by density and the contraction. 

It’s energetic. It affects us on all planes of being. Spiritual, Mental, Emotional, Physical. These are our bridges. The higher spiritual will shape up to it long before the material realm catches up.

_______

If you click here:  

Pisces To Aquarius + AI 

and scroll down the page (because the first part repeats this blog posts content, but then it develops), you will see why my use of AI has been useful to me, and I very much hope to others; by what AI has said to refine my first draft, which came straight out of my mind without being edited, which is informed by a lifetime of dedicated study to these matters; which, whether I do the work or not, is my soul purpose as a calendar priest of the reincarnated priesthood. 

And Now There Are Three

"What do you mean by 'the content has to be worth reading'? Can't I just 'art'?" 

I started a new blog to share some of my study research and research findings. It is a cultural and historic thing about spirituality and philosophy. In the process, I used AI to help with the research. It does save a lot of time. Having the information presentable in a way it can be read easily instead of my traditional method of having to copy by hand or photocopy bits from books in the library or buy those books myself, to create files of notes, most of which is for information that I can use it as compost for the roots of my ideas to take form and develop into the tree of a body of knowledge, my output. 

People read the book made from the logged and pulped tree. They eat its fruit. They don't want to invest years into researching boring stuff, neither do I much. What I love is the knowledge, which shapes my understanding of the world. What I know is that it all interrelates, so that there is an umbrella held together by the spines of all the different branches of knowledge. I am mixing metaphors. Put it all in one bag, shake it up, and it don't make much sense to nobody. There needs to be structure. 

Historically, we emerge from civilisations which structure their knowledge base in different ways. A lot of them come to the same conclusions, a lot of them tell the same stories. It has taken countless thousands of generations to put all that together and for a civilisation to emerge which can make it all available for us to absorb coherently. 

What we do not have is the longevity and patience, nor the focus, to do that. It requires Hermits who can hyperfocus and who have access to that information. The best our civilisation has produced so far for that end, is AI augmented research using the internet as a database. I for one am grateful to have that faculty, although I do waste the potential, most of the time, because I'm only human after all, but really I am doing my best. 

The last 3 posts I made here, they are a bit... glitchy? vague? out on a limb? sketchy? incohesive? I did that for a reason. I did that to show you what it is like when my mind is racing at speeds it can barely keep up with. Those blog posts are post-it notes, they're fragments of a greater work. They're insights into the murky, fertile swamp I wade through when my mind is free-associating between all the strands by which I weave the world of associative causality. Imagination, history, etymology, neurodiversity, multiversal synchronicities, spiritualism, practicality, themes and genres, etc and so on. 

Something happened while I was using AI to do the research. I made the new blog so I could post it in there, without contaminating this organic bag with AI generated stuff. It seems such a pity to do that to a blog site which prides itself on not being AI generated. So now there are two blogs. And then something else happened. There are now three blogs, because I discovered myself in a rare situation to be able to use the AI to analyse the organic blog. I am perhaps the only person who can legally do that, considering I own the copyright on the snakeappletree.blogspot content and on the snakeappletree moniker, logo, etc. If I don't do it, who else could? Like, coming up from the streets, I know for sure that people already have. That's not the point, though. 

So; now there are a trinity of snakeappletree blogs. 

The original, organic, long-running (since 2009) snakeappletree blog site, now known as the Vault, which I have not abandoned, else it would be called the Archive. It is not an AI generated blog site. 

Nekyia - Hermits Lantern is research and research-findings into historic stuff I am interested in. Currently; Spirituality, Egyptology and development of Western Philosophy. 

SAT-AI is a blog site conceptually about my relationship and interactions with AI. It covers a lot of the same topics as I have always been into, but unlike the snakeappletree blog, it does use AI. We can do a direct comparison, by holding these two things side by side. I also use SAT-AI as an exploration of the snakeappletree blog itself through the lens of an AI interacting with it. There is also gumpf about creating an AI persona of the snakeappletree caricature. 

Enjoy

DISCLAIMER: 

If anybody wants to criticise me for "going over to AI" it's not exactly that. I'm learning a new tool. I will not stop being a normal, traditional writer, doing things by hand. You wear synthetic fabric clothes and you use a petrol engine instead of a horse for transport. You eat food from plastic packets from a supermarket. The path of evolution is Taoist, in that it is the path of least resistance, the path of convenience. We have to fight for our arts. AI generated slop is just that, but you probably grew up watching cartoons and that ain't 'real' either. Your laughter was. Your fear and sadness when Artax died, certainly was real emotion. Just saying. As my dirty ex used to say, there's a good place for slop. 

AFTER-THOUGHTS: 

You know what I really should do, is a dedicated SnakeAppleTree Musical Journal site. I used to have a thing like that on Weebly before I forgot the passwords and Yahoo decided to delete the associated email account because I forgot its password and couldn't log in within the safe-zone of 12 of your earth months. I prefer to use blogger. For now you'll have to make do with the stuff available on Bandcamp, some of the albums can be directly accessed by clicking on the album cover pictures to the right of the screen, if you're browsing this on a desktop. I have no idea where you can find that if you're reading this on a mobile phone. You will probably need an app or something. 

Iraula

IRAULA

Iraula  (character name discovered from a typo of Ursula/Erzuli)

I-Ra/Ru-La 

Feather-Mouth-Grid (lambda)

Light-Speech-Shape

Rau is Ra and Ru compounded. 

Row: to argue / to steer a boat. Modern colloquial phonetic variants and associations. 

Ra : The Sun God, in pure centre

Ru : Mouth (female genital, receptacle, speech, 'that which issues forth', two-way gate) 

        Ru is not simply 'cup' because it is also 'spring' (or 'well') as source. It is a life-bringer. 

Feather : indicates Re as differentiated from Ra. Light, Thought. 

                Feather also symbolises Blade (air, mind) and Tree (body of knowledge)

Re : 'emanation of Ra' (modern “ray”), 'Light' symbolic 'knowing' 

        ('thought' in a particular sense of certainty along a flowline as opposed to querying)

Ra : Source itself (Life, God, Sol) 

IRAULA 

It’s a magical word, a spell for manifesting. 

"In and Of itself" 

It must be combined with other words 

to express what it is being manifested. 

The La component is Greco-Egyptian, not Aegyptian. It’s transitional from old world to new world. I base this on Greek being the foundation of modern Europe, through its Democracy and Monotheism, which led to the emergence of the European Hermetic tradition. 

La is an equivalent to Rw (Ru). In older form, Irula is Iruru, although one of the components has medieval-modernised to 'a grid' as opposed to 'receptacle/spring'. This is an important distinction. The order of these is also important. It is a Sey-Shaping, it creates a flow-line, a Ley-line. The word means 'Song-Line'. 

Feather-Mouth-Grid

Light-Vessel-Measure

Knowledge-Well-Form

POSTMODERN DEIFICATION

The Princess Irulan,  from Dune  (technically of Kaitan, not Shaitan) 

The Childlike Empress,  “Moon-Child”  from The NeverEnding Story 

Compounded : both innocence and wisdom. 

Irulan a political-theosophical reporter, possibly an unreliable narrator. 

MoonChild needed telling who she is, that the world may hold. 

Bastian Bux is Paul Maud’dib. The protagonist who reinvents himself through a device of being/becoming/wearing another protagonist (Atreyu is Atreides) which reshapes the world because of their actions and struggles, their journey. 

"We cannot un-see these connections."

"And neither should we."

Duality, Entwined 

(as the Auryn):

The Dragon of The World

The Dragon of Dream 

Singularity as Distillation:

The Dragon of the Desert

The Water of Life (is spice)

Then there is also:

Luck of Hope vs Fear of Void

(Falkor vs Gmork)

"An animal would pull its hand from the Box"

Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohaim

"The Poet cannot avert His Eyes"

Werner Herzog

See Also: Notes from the Auriglyphica