Friday 29 August 2014

(notes on) seeing the matrix

A lot of my time (mass=time) I am in grids. My Attention plugs my kundalini-energy through into the frequencies that sustain grid environments. Cyberspace is full of grids since at its basic level it is streams of zero and one, black and white, a chess set. Although we are high resolution souls (oil lense, water lense, air lense, light refraction ratio's) made of light, our environments made of physics, are lower resolution. Mass is Time and energy is vibrational therefore our perceptions fluctuate depending on the physics of which grid we are attached to and manifesting into. This is inclusive of the ephemeral domains of dream which are encountered post-bodily-death and while our mass=time bodies rest, permitting the soul higher vibrational freedom. Just as we do not fully and interactively recall higher vibrational memory during our bodily waking hours into material domain, so too our fluid souls cannot fully create due to the restrictions of the physics governing the dense material domain. From my training into cyberspace I am coming to see the grid-lines of the material domain. At this time in history we are encountering something which is referred to cryptically, by way of symbols used by traditions. Toward the end of the 20th century our species encountered problems with what we call Reptilian Overlords, who utilize grid. Now we are in the second decade of the 21st century we are experiencing for ourselves a deepening knowledge of Grid yet without the problem of us being gridded by the Reptilians. I am using the term Reptilian here as symbolism and as part of an ancient tradition undergoing contemporary resurgence in popularity due to experiences of shaman and writers using modern technologies. The reptilians utilize and impose grid. Grid is manifestation of concept as actual event, it is light (thought) manifesting as experience, becoming (mass-time). Grid is the accordance to physics of the domain. Do means to do, action that makes. Its spelling variant Tao means The Way. Main means manifest-into (ma-in, making) and it also means the boss-core, the main thing. An example of this is the simplest teaching of a 3x3 x/y grid which comprises of 9 sections. If your vision and ability has any number, resolution, definition, above 9 then some of those extra bits are going to be compromised, probably by combining them to reduce the original vision down into the acceptable grid resolution. This is inevitable, it is a part of how higher vibrational frequency works when manifesting down into the material/time based plane of existence. Different dimensions have different grids therefore the same vision/concept manifests differently in different physics. The grid controls the physics or at least is a way of explaining how the vision is described into that dimensions physic-set. In Egyptology the deity Set, a serpent, represented Waveform and associated with reptilian because it deified the principles explained here, of gridding a concept into a manifest. We are a visionary species who can perceive a higher dimensional vision than the density of our time-mass physics set permits us. This is why we like optical light art such as holograms, laser displays and computer environments, and such as water based environments where light refracts at a 2:1 ratio compared with air; because within them we see a higher density resolution. Our nervous systems feel sexy and amazing when we go into that sleekness of a higher density resolution, the more nerve tips we have, the higher the density. It is not always a case of complexity although higher resolution allows for higher resolution sensation. Waveform describes the process of motion through grid. We are designed for breathing to feel good, for drinking to feel good. Stimulation of nerve tips to feel good. We function better when we develop more nerve tips, from better quality water and air. This is a fundamental principle of our development here in this domain; physical, emotional, mental, spiritual development. Pollution clogs us up and connects us the the abrasive of the lower density which for many is a satisfying sensation because it earths us and we need to feel earthed to feel like we belong in the domain we find ourselves in, to avoid alienation feelings. The higher part of us, the higher vibrational aspects of self which are compromised when we come down into the time-mass domain to perceive through, are freer while we dream or after death, to explore higher vibrational versions of mass-time (alternate dimensions). There is a cutoff point on our perceptions, we call it the speed of light. It appears to be a steady constant from within the material density however it is not a steady constant, it fluctuates, this is easier to see from outside of / higher than the material density. Anything vibrating higher than that is outside of our perceptions, it would be invisible or appear to flash in and out of our perception range. This is what Lag is within a computer; the computer is attempting to calculate and co-ordinate the smoothest possible flow of something from the higher energy spectrum down through its grid into the lower density spectrum. The same physics are to be found around black holes.

What is emerging is that although we have slipped through the grip of the reptilian overlords whose comprehension of grids is advanced, their use of it as a technology to access different times by attaching to compatible vibrational frequencies existing at different times, we are now capable of understanding and utilizing the grids a lot better than we used to. It is helping us to perceive our own reality for what it is. It was necessary for us to skirmish with the reptilians to achieve that knowledge. At this very confusing time in history, the gridding was necessary. What happens as we approach a Nexus point of syncronicities (spoken of by mayan shaman-scientists as galactic harmonic alignment) is that the different waveforms of individual life paths (Ka) or alternative description, individual timestreams are syncronising and joining together. This is the combining of higher resolution pixels (people) down into simplified forms to conform with the grid. This is necessary and the negative, painful emotions we feel about our lives going totally different from our preconceived wants and desires and intentions is because we hold onto selfishness instead of going with the mainstream flow. The end result is that we will be more liberated to create our desires in a much freer way by learning how to evolve into beings that can access the higher dimensional grids. The grids are systems that make imagination into 'physics which occur in a timeframe'. Our short lives inside the time-mass bodies we know in this domain are only a learning curve, our higher selves continue after this body dies and that is when we can create the realms we can only imagine here. Gradually, we will raise the vibration of this dimension. We need to learn about Grid before we can learn the methods to do that although it is a holistic process. That is why we come here, to raise its frequency and to learn how to raise our frequencies. The reptilians are the dragon whose cave we journey into, to steal the gold of its knowledge, to harness its fire for our own evolution toward more spiritual, higher vibrational entities.

Thursday 28 August 2014

kundalini Ordo Octopia style

The following is an extract from a private text conversation:

I study the teachings of the original high priest of the order of the morning star. My research into kundalini took me to Egypt; those and the Mayan stone carvings hold a lot of information about it. The Cambodian ones are more to do with what happens when a community functions together at a higher level. Is always a process, it never finishes - no form of energy ever finishes, its nature is flow.

Kundalini is a big topic to get into. I have had a lot of experiences with it, some of them so outside the box that it sounds insane to describe it. I don't believe myself to be an expert but then I realize when I seek teachers that I know more than most of those offering their teachings. 

The core is 'slow deep breathing' and keep doing yoga. 

I translated some Mayan and Egyptian temple carvings which all correlate. I study with crystals a lot and that taught me what some of the symbolism in the carvings means. Snakes and Flowers and Pillars all represent chakras and the light energy flowing up the spine.

When I was younger I was lucky I had a sex partner and we studied together certain rituals which activate chakra's as tools, the language used by that system uses the most appropriate terminology, which is 'magick', because people with highly active and focused kundalini energy can cause things to happen in reality for which there is no better word. When you have two peoples energy working together harmoniously and drawing energy from the source, which does take training it is not something that people are likely to happen across by accident, because when they do it is something they often cannot handle, not correctly attuned it can be unpleasant as you say, the surge of energy misdirecting.

Do you know the words Ida and Pingala from Hindu ? The twin streams which travel up through the center, like astral dna strands. They cross at each chakra, on a resonance. It is the same mathematics as the distance of the planets as they spiral around the sun. Keeping them in balance means living a particular way, avoiding mainstream society and its twisted ways. To become adept at this stuff takes us outside of normal society, it is the realm of shamanism, which has also other teachings and insights into what Reality is. We are explorers therefore we need to maintain a pure observation of our experiences, this is why society is a riddle. To become adept we have to let go of all that, the frame of reference which most people believe to be normal is not useful to shaman. This sets us aside.

"Light beings are we, not this crude matter." Master Yoda

But we wear it while we are here, and the density of it causes us to forget. Kundalini as a discipline is ways to remember and to raise the flesh toward what it could be, ecstatic. The abilities that come from developing that are to be worked for, so that only those responsible may attain them. From my tradition sex is a big part of the training, because it powerfully deals directly with the central nervous system and through that, the lightbody. We are designed that way.

By conscious breathing we can draw the sexual energy up through the chakras one by one. We can do this by ourselves, it is enhanced and amplified when two people become one. How the energy works through sex is that both bodies become one circuit. Both minds need to be focused and together or they get overwhelmed by the intensity, which is usual 99.99% of the time for most people. The development of psychic connection, telepathy, is not an end goal but a tool that develops in the process of ascending by this technique.

My story is sad. Just as myself and my partner were mastering this, envious third parties sought to split us up permanently. We did not protect ourselves strongly enough and it took literally a decade to heal. These abilities are not to be taken lightly. The entire organism, physically mentally emotionally, has to go over to the bonding, is cellularly reconfigured. The bodies become the same person. A lot of the pain is from that level of connection being ripped apart. This teaching is not for everyone. What happens after is that the pain of the tearing apart switches to another entirely different school of teaching.

The word Thanateros is Greek it means 'sex and death'. The sex teaching is part of the shamanism, the abilities it creates in the persons involved are necessary for the other part of the teaching, which is spirit mediumship. There are other ways to achieve these things but these are the ones which I know from experience of it. To achieve such a level of ability without corrupting it, total trust is required between the people involved, which means absolute honesty. For example I could understand, forgive and even enjoy my ex for sleeping with other guys but I could not forgive her for lying to me about it even though she did so partly for kicks and partly to protect me.

We are beings of light who cast shadow, and we are not full beings until we embrace both our light and shadow and work them in balance. Some people can help each other achieve that balance. That's all it is really.

The biggest task is learning slow, steady breathing beat-matched to the partner so the blood is flowing through both your systems at the same tempo. Then, only then, is it safe to draw the energy up from the source, one chakra at a time. Do not miss any chakras - another mistake I was making at the time, and a very common mistake if you follow only the Hindu teachings, which teach only to connect the source to the heart. For most people that is all they need.

To become a sorcerer, you need to empower all chakras, because we are more than simple creatures of the heart. Sorcerers do not believe that we return to the Source, we do not believe that death is final. To attain that, we need to empower all of our chakras - there are more than seven. The focus on the heart and throat, living by communicating from the heart, strengthens the eight chakra which is split into two and is located by the shoulders, it makes a diamond between the heart and throat. Living that way empowers it, and then we see the human chakra system as a cross like the christian cross. No christian knows how to read the symbolism of their religion any more. There are many other higher chakras also.

I have written loads here and probably have already overloaded you. This is the tip of the flame. I can tell you a lot more, I have been studying this stuff for twenty years it cannot all be told in one text message and a lot of it cannot be taught in words.

Ritual of The Sorcerers Eye

Morning is the best time but evening also. Watch the sun while it is neither above nor below the horizon. Drink it. Breathe it in. Inhale the sun with every breath as you watch it rise. At this time it is a portal between many worlds, the frequencies attainable at this time are empowering. The more often you do this the better. Fill yourself up with that Creator energy. I mentioned that we must balance both light and shadow. As far as morality goes, all of the dark ones I have encountered who use these skills for selfish reasons, have fallen hard. Those who use these skills for ascension, for the light, somehow keep their connection. Remember this in all the choices you make.

Base Chakra (red) = sex and anger, the root. It connects to source like a mouth connects to food or tree roots connect to the earth to draw in energy.

Sacral Chakra (orange) = creativity

Solar Plexus (yellow) = radiance 

Heart Chakra (green) = the heart, biological and emotional rhythms, immunity system center, seat of the soul

Throat Chakra (blue) = communication, not only speech but also an amplifier device for mental waveforms 

Third Eye Chakra (purple) = Visionary, Imaginal ("imagination is not imaginary" Matthers OGD)

Crown Chakra (white) = the Lotus. This one extends upward to the edges of the stratosphere when properly active, which is what the pictures in egyptian carvings of lotus flowers, is all about. Inside it are a whole load of other chakras which are pastel tones, shades of self at higher levels. I am fairly certain that when people have out of body experiences and report tunnels of light, they are traveling up through this. 

The 8th Chakra is the horizontal line symbolized in the christian cross and the egyptian Ankh. It is a cutoff point; everything above and everything below, separates out into two entities, the higher self (the immortal and transcendental part of us) and the lower self (this incarnation's body and personality and issues). 

Saturday 16 August 2014

Stream and Symbol Blue Wave

Additional 29.8.14: I saw this for the first time tonight, 
S2E15 the Fifth Race, of SG-1 
the imagery is almost identical to what I saw during the dream I mention here:

Stream and Symbol Red Wave

Solar activity always happening in the background during times of revelatory lucid dreaming and spiritual insight. Since mind and the Sun are both electromagnetic it is hardly a surprise that the unbinding of veils of one manifests as the unbinding of veils of the other. We live during a time of Awakening Liberation, of course this is pitted against it emerging from a dark age of global scale industrial pollution and destruction. Birth pains.

In the years between 2009 and 2014 the dominant popular colours in design industries (especially cars and clothes) has been black, red and white / silver-gray (the colours of Nyarlahotep).

The following is part one of a three part blog.
1 red wave
2 blue wave
3 waking dream

Theme: Abstract Expressionist art depicting dynamic action, decor from dojo aboard Moya, the living space vessel in Farscape, this set featured in a hand to hand martial combat scene, S1E3.

(image to follow)

Theme: Lego Batman computer game my 4 year old son insists on watching youtube videos of it daily after his mothers boyfriend got the game for him on his x-box. I spotted that it is the same spectrum as the Farscape dojo.
Theme: Runners from SG: Atlantis. The advert resonated too strongly with the above to let it go. The concept of Runners discovering a portal featured in a lucid dream I had this morning. My homework is to watch the Arnold Swarzenegger movie for the first time.
Theme: digital simplification of sleeker versions of reality, a theme which featured in the lucid dream. I discovered this image during a google search into 8-bit graphics images following from a g+ discussion into StarWars universe technology level.

Theme: evidently following from having made the above connections as to visual symbolism, I decided to include this screen grab here. My 4 year old son described this soundtrack as 'grown-up music' and asked I change it to something he can get into more.

Theme: still shot (close-up) from Orphan Black tv series.

Theme: still shot from The Ninth Gate movie

band reformed from previous line-up known as Red vs Blue
Theme: jazz-step Bristol style.

Stream and Symbol Waking Dream


The 3D art for tRust universe is built using grayscale because it is easy on the eye. One major influence into it is urban architecture, and the very greatest feature of urban architecture which summarizes twentieth century industry and urban decadence and inevitable decay is graffiti stained concrete. As we emerge out of the mechanical twentieth century world war technology and into twenty first century digital technology we are on the verge of touch sensitive holographic projections, although we have inherited a concrete infrastructure, now decaying and soaked with generations of carbon monoxide grime. Although tRust utilizes a theoretical technology of digital polymer, which looks and feels more like tyre material, with ability to project holograms from its pixelated sprayon surface; the origin of its concept in concrete is deeply etched and embedded into the core of its development process. As an artist I am working on multiple levels of creativity at once. The landscape, scarred and patched with generations of use, refers all at once to multiple levels of awareness. It is a dreamscape and the observer alone defines or is defined by it. The landscape of tRust is intentionally malleable; from sprayon and dissolvent conduits and chambers to computer-operated shape-shifting surfaces. The concrete reformations, reinterpretations and ressurrections of mayan glyphs, aegyptian stellae, cambodian buddhist temples, continues and permeates into the future in form of nano-particulate materials we can envisage but are only as yet on the brink of inventing. What I am influenced by and what is practical for me and others like me to develop as an artist is one plane; the imaginal environments and cultures dwelling within them for science fiction is another. These places combine and fuse in Dreamspace. The project is becoming real because I am going there in dream and meeting others who are co-creating it. Events sourced from dream are simultaneously making sense of the project and educating me with insight into the true nature of the reality construct, itself following laws of physics for which concrete and light become symbolism. Tattoos upon skin; concepts upon neural networks; graffiti upon walls; lazers upon cytex. 

Notes from the hour pre-dreaming
I studied carlos casteneda, yaqui way of knowledge. Humans only purpose is to observe. When we place a label onto a thing we see only that label. Therefore to observe we must do so without preconception. When the observer changes the observed, it is by projection of preconceptions onto it. To observe without projecting is a trained skill. It functions by detachment from mind. This discipline is constant. Only when we can detach from mind do we recognise mind for what it is. Mind is not self. It is a filter system that uses a trick to distract us from observing purely. It convinces us to use its filters, its method for this is to change the focal point of awareness every time we escape its grip. Distraction of Attention. That is the greatest enemy to attaining real practical knowledge about our experience of living. Everything else is confusion, what the buddhists call sansara. The conditioned mind, the confused mind. They teach to meditate as a method of escaping it, to focus only on breathing. The result is the same: if the mind is not the self, what is it? What could be achieved if the inner monologue is silenced, if the distractor is no longer an issue? Our notion of cause and effect dissolves and takes on a new meaning. Zen no-mind. And development; if the thoughts do not originate from self, then from where or from whom do they originate? The essenes teach that at this stage of awareness one no longer needs discern between embodied and disembodied consciousnesses, that there is a far greater difference between those in sansara and those who see purely, in satori, than there is between the physically living and dead. The language shifts its meaning to describe the observed more accurately, more relevantly. In buddhism the word prana means both instinct (intuition) and life flow. The pure observer simply is. Freedom from delusional associations. Language is delusional. There is one truth, it is knowable; sharing this we need not to talk, only to feel. It is an enhanced reality. Reason tells us this state is desirable and worth pursuing through the hard work of ego death and all the pain involved in losing everything we hold onto by projecting it. Reason also tells us the need to compromise it so as to survive in mainstream society. Integrity, an honor code based on ability to integrate. We cannot know it until we have lived without honor. The paradox of the world, the fundamentalism of righteousness, and the pure unspoken truth.

Distracted, I lost my focus, laughs

Notes from the hour post-dreaming

Part of the dream, the landscape, simply is my brain re-arranging the themes I have been working with a lot lately, which are syncronistic based around current lines of research and drawing those symbols towards my life.

But some of the dream content is from Otherwhere. The revelations about howbit connects together is one layer. The actual story, scant though the relationship between incidents is, also several layers. To use one level of awareness to program the other is a part if the job. I was sent in to do a specific mission due to my innate nature, the result being something I would figure out only afterward. We all emit a signiture tone and these tones sharpened into focus by our attention, are waves, they change the perceptions and decisions of those untrained. This was my second trip to the same scene and the memory linger of my original entry was fresh, a concern to my handler. Dream is frail and especially in a new world. None of the souls there are fully yet aware of what the new place is all about, a few creatives and the inevitable security agents of nothing, necessary antagonists seeking to prevent our growth simply to sharpen our focus by being a grindstone. I had to witness an amazing event and remain emotionally unnaffected by it so I could send out a mental wave that nothing was happening. The observer affects the observed is a rule of dream physics. Our projected expectations become the hardwired physical environment, the weak willed zombies act upon such decisions. The swat team pulled out and the space opened up, the runners had mental freedom to explore the anomoly, a gate which would enhance this world, develop and strengthen it, our way, my way, the coalition of souls who are unaware in our waking mundane lives that we have tasks to grow the multiverse during dream. Creativity is opening a world here. I met the injured soul of this world, a blue dragonfly lady with an airhorse daemon. Her type exist! Co-creators from elsewhere in dreaming, with power and ability but with frailty, the fae folk. She lets her heart play in unformed new domains, this concrete maze city waiting to awaken. There is much mystery here, sleepers in their lives, fearful of the control state and fearful of it ceasing because without it, like the madmax style explorers at the portal, we are on our own in a realm where myth is breaking through, the responsibility that self hate and doubt affect and twist the manifesting world so potently. Only pure souls can access here at this time and we want to protect it, nurture its development, so as not to turn it into yet another hell world. There is so much hope here. A place where hope is hardened and matures into confident ability. We are new here and only learning of its nature, its personality. Our belief about it takes hold and strengthens it, affects the lives of its denizens as yet unborn. The militia has left the portal. Unwatched it may open freely to its true potential, not to corrupted comprimise to serve their purpose of limitation. I was not the one to open the portal this time, merely protect those who needed to establish contact through it. My presence alone did this. If they succeed, if the portal opens and is safe, it brings life to this place. The feeling of trapped, scrutinised, chased, persecuted, is lessened here so the creatives can develop and grow. From gray concrete to blue dragonfly, art nouveau machines. Breathing fully of fresh clean air. Get the machines up and running. The sounds of this world are beautiful. 

Servitors, angels, Re the winged women, quetzalcoatl as ishtar, access higher consciousness, maintain simplicity to comprehend complexity is what gives rise to servitor as slaver, gridding the sleek to merovingian block construxt experiences, it takes generations of time to overcome by developing workarounds and progress, new types of servitor emerge or the old ones learn new tricks or move to places better for them. 

Voicenotes from the hour post dreaming

blue concrete 1

blue concrete 2

Notes from Google+ same timeframe 16.8.14

Boredom leads to escapism leads to obsessive focus leads to breakthrough and development. I am polymath and that is necessary to achieve the level. What I am working on is pretty big. It will take me a few more days to collate the data crunch of the last few. Expressing it, sharing it, by telling it as it is is one thing, doing something artful with that is another. Creating mythos from where a lot of the revelation is sourced, it entwines. I provaricate here due to need for re-focus. Breathing space.
A woman bought me a meal tonight. I am useless with women, is she simply a kind heart looking for friendship and I am being sleazy or was being comfortable to relax and feel horny in her presence a mutual and natural shared feeling? I probably should have been natural and hugged her. Too used to being aloof and not wanting to pressure her and scare away a fledgling friendship.
Its a beautiful distraction from the project.
The project. Celtic otherworld meets post-cyberpunk. I dreamed last night and met with others in the levels of dream who know what is going on more than do I, and I now know what is going on more than most of the people in terran consumerism. There is insufficient cultural reference for me to use to explain it without recoursing to old traditions which nobody has publically discussed for several centuries. This is illuminatii knowledge from secret societies. For me it is a major breakthrough with my research and I am grateful to my handler for her role in my development. Explaining it lucidly to people who are culturally and conceptually unprepared for shamanic revelation seems both necessary and disconcerting. It has to be done right, information has to be released through the right channels, people need preparing to accept insights such as this. Its nothing new because we all know the truth of it. Yet its exciting to access that insight into reality. Dare I release my voicenotes and writing on the subject for public consumption? Back to preparing blogs that are windows as much as teaching tools into the streams which, where they cross at just such a point, offer a gate. In simplest terms, follow instinct over mind if you want to evolve.

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